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for the better part eddie was only called 'the attractive one' by my sister because she thinks he's hot.

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if buddie goes canon, my sister's gonna lose it. she's going to be absolutely blindsided.

gay eddie, she won't believe it. she's not as deep in as we are.

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reading slightly spicy works of our queer firefighters in the social sciences library is such a mood. I'm learning for an exam, I'm close to tears and those two .. it's a bit much.

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I know very little Spanish, but I have some relatives that only speak Spanish, basically. The problem with the little Spanish I know is that like 80% come from buddie fanfics. I can't very well say things like "Hazme el amor" to the mother of my aunt-in-law now, can I?

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I love how in 8.06, Buck shows up to Eddie's place and Eddie's just casually chilling in his tighty whities and a button-down. Then in 8.08, Buck shows up again, Eddie's in another button-down, and he's flipping his tablet over like a kid caught with their phone under the covers. So naturally Buck's brain jumps to the conclusion of, Ah yes, Eddie's in his formal jerking-off attire again.

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My flattie and I were watching telly and a son came out to his mum is gay. She wasn't very happy about it. My flattie reacted to that by saying that homophobia is one of the worst things.

All I could do was say, yeah, as my throat dried up.

As if I'm not in the closet, afraid to come out, because I don't want people's perceptions to change, even though I know that my social circle will accept me.

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like if they keep going like this, i am actually really disappointe. it feels like they are setting us up with scenes alluding to emotional moments and then there is just ... nothing, no reaction. what?

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just checked that ig post from 911 about happiness. people are really hung up about the break up, huh.

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my flattie has dating apps, my sibling teased me about it, joking i should also get one. my flattie did too. i've been toying with the idea, but i'm too nervous. i would need to come out as queer in some capacity and i might run into someone online (my flattie did that today actually). I somehow want to date, experience shit, but at the same time it fills me with crippling anxiety.

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i'm on the verge of getting sick, so i skipped a bit of uni and lay down at home. my flatmate came home a few hours after and said to me 'you don't look too good'. i want to the bathroom, looked in the mirror and saw... just my normal face. what the fuck?

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waking up monday morning and going 'ah it's almost friday again' is such a nice feeling. 911 is getting me through the week.

I'm such a goner, oh god.

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straight people are so fcking weird sometimes; I just heard some of the most unhinged and icky shit ever. and I was like "tf?" most of the time. I don't have the words for this, oml.

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sometimes looking at men and feeling the relief and gladness of 'good that i'm attracted to women'

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If Eddie gets his queer sl, my sister is going to lose it, for multiple reasons.

a) She's going to be completely blindsided by it. Like totally.

b) She isn't going to be very convinced by it. (for reason a) and/or because she's not that deep into the series, its subtext, etc.)

c) She's going to be absolutely crushed because it's likely going to go hand in hand with the loss of the mustache.

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I can already see the 'emotional mustache scene' just being like Chris coming home or sth, and not a queer sl. and I'm laughing.

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Last week I moved a bit of stuff into my new flat that I share with one of my friends from uni. He talked me a bit through the workings of his flat, showed me the important things, etc. Apparantely, the box of condoms in our shared bathroom cabinet was worth pointing out. He said: Well, I just realised I hadn't any, so i just bought some (he had moved in a year previously) My response, as a friend of Sappho: Okay; I really don't need them.

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is it a bit unhinged to say "now i understand the fear of being accidentally pregnant." instead of just "i had my first time."? (for context: a friend of mine got together with the guy she had dated for a few weeks previously and a common friend told me yesterday that they have taken the next big step.)