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Some great photos my bestie @applejjuice took of me :)))❤️

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Is it a sin to think of you?

You were always their for me,

I left you for what I thought was a good reason.

But sometimes you plague my thoughts.

All I can ask is why did I do it?

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Asmr stands for ass shit my rectum

Changed my mind

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Oh to be a Star

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Oh! The stars in my sky,

How you twinkle and dance all night.

Your ruse of peace t’was just a lie!

When your anger and vengeance causes such a fright,

The Moon, to be, your only ally.

As the only soul willing to put up with your spite,

Yielding her own thoughts to comply.

As the Sun has her own day to incite.

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I challenged myself with this one… rhyme scheme!!

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The sisters of my Sky

The sky, oh the beautiful sky! How you glisten in my eyes. Your use of a paint brush is immaculate! Each night, each morning, a new and extravagant sight awaits gracing my eyes to its beauty. I sit at my window like a little kid on Christmas, watching your colors dance through the air. As a child like giddiness washes over me each time I watch you rise on my dreary walk to the bus stop. The dark winter mornings make it harder for me to see your vast beauty as you haven’t brought your warm bright eyes over my horizon yet. However the nights you set so early. It’s barely time to start preparing supper before you have to leave to rest yourself.

But at least your beautiful twin sister shines bright in my sleepless nights. Captivating my lonely heart as I yearn for sleep, giving me a painting of planets, constellations, and stars to watch. While the moon smiles at all our sleeping faces, forgetting it’s envy of seeing us lively, and happy in the light of our days.

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I did it.

I dropped them.

Never thought I’d be here.

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I don’t want to do it.

I know I should,

But they were there for me for a whole year plus.

I need them!

As much as they have crossed the line,

They still are my friends.

I don’t know if I can do that again.

I’ve told them I don’t know if I can deal with that again.

I can’t lose another friend group.

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I’m thinking of making an Instagram account just for photos from my camera, cause I have a lot XD

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Made this in school

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Literally rn

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Inktober day 4, I did this in school :)

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I tried to be social.

I tried to extend myself.

And you left me standing alone,

In a crowd of people I didn’t know,

With people I hate,

With people who have hurt me,

With a school that wasn’t my own.

Don’t ask me why I’m so quiet.

It’s your fault for ruining my trust after I was finally trusting you.

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I have a 5 person friend group including myself that I could ask to hang with any time but it’s like I’m scared of them, I just don’t feel like I can trust them. They feel like Instagram friends, the photo’s, and then all we do if make fun of each other, and I don’t know how to tell them they’ve crossed the line.

In middle school I only had one friend stay with me the whole time. She is the only one who would believe my side, and trusted me instead of a girl she barely knew. Now we don’t talk anymore unless we hang out. We go to different schools and I don’t know how to mend our friendship. She’s the only other person I have.

I have school friends but I don’t know how to talk to them either. I’m scared to be the first to say something. What if I make them think differently of me? What if they realize how dull and apathetic I am to everything? What if they hate me? What’s gonna happen for the next few years then?

I have a lot of friends, but I don’t have a best friend.