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Hey,

I realize that this is intermittent at best, but I fully intend to try and start this blogging thing again. I like having a semi-anonymous place to dump my thoughts and insecurities.

I am enjoying architecture a lot, definitely a good choice. While I was working on my last degree I hated it so much, I found it hard to get out of bed and go to class. In architecture I look forward to my classes!

This is a picture I took around trongate, in Glasgow. I'm getting acquainted with the city, I've explored a huge amount of it, even Govan and the Gorbals. This city is strange, I don't know if I like it or not. Maybe I haven't spent enough time here yet. 

I think maybe it's the contrast of coming from a place as cozy and lovely as Halifax that's really got me confused. This place doesn't tug at my heart strings the way Halifax did. I also feel a lot less safe here, not that it's a very dangerous city, it's just that it's so obvious I'm not from here, I get a lot of random men coming up to me and asking me personal questions. 

I also think it has something to do with me. I feel more out of control here, like the only thing keeping me from spinning out of control is a small thread, and I keep tugging at it. 

I need to get my shit together. Ugh.

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Hey!

Wow, I havn't posted here in a while. Yikes!

I'm in Glasgow, and it's a pretty great city, I've made tons of really awesome friends. School is crazy busy, I've never worked so hard in my life, but I really enjoy the work so I definitely can't complain.

I'm posting this song by the Dead Weather, it's called treat me like your mother. I'm pretty sure it's their most popular song. I love Jack White's style, I always liked the white stripes, but I never really got into them, same with the raconteurs, but I really dig this band. 

Anyways, a bit of angry, get your ass moving, music.

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Okay my friends, the day is upon us.

Tomorrow, I fly to Glasgow to start my new life. I'm in a very contemplative/ reflective mood, just thinking about Canada. I've traveled all over this country and met so many amazing people, I will miss the frosty comfort of the great north.

So, I'm listening to the song My New Scotland Blues. A song by Joel Plaskett which I think is absolutely perfect for this moment. Have you ever just had a song that you felt was made just for you? this is definitely one of those songs. I've posted his stuff on here before, but he's one of my favorites. 

Anyways, I've got some New Scotland Blues, but I'm sure everything will be wonderful when I get there.

See you on the flip side. 

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Arrrg,

Right now I am really really angry at two of my very close friends, who I lived with in Halifax. They have been spreading rumours about me in Halifax. Normally I wouldn't deign to respond to this bullshit, and I guess I'm not really, because they don't know about this blog, but i just need to get this anger out because I'm about to burst. So without any further adieu, I present to you a scathing letter, written more eloquently than my usual style, in order to compound my superiority.

Dear Goneril* & Regan*, 

I am completely and utterly sick of your bullshit. Even now, three provinces away, I can't escape your vacuous dramatics. 

I have witnessed you turn on your friends countless times, never suspecting that I would suffer the same fate.  I feel as if my vilification is slightly worse, however, considering I am no longer around to defend myself. I remember once, a couple years ago, someone called you both flaky alcoholic cunts, a statement I vehemently denied back then. I can now say that I have always secretly agreed with that declaration, except that I would like to add that your drug abuse certainly borders on addiction, no let me rethink that, your drug abuse crosses that border by miles.

I would like to particularly air my grievance when it comes to your ability to be good friends. I, personally, believe that one of the most vital roles of a friend, is to help other friends bypass emotionally difficult moments in their lives, or at the very least to be aware of friend's difficulties.

This summer, has been quite an emotional roller coaster for me. Getting into the University of my choice was bitter sweet, considering my departure from Halifax. My parents' divorce, which is still ongoing, and has snowballed into a huge legal battle, was something else I struggled with this summer. You are most likely completely unaware of these problems, however, because I was hesitant to share after you made it abundantly clear that you would rather suck dick for skittles than listen to my problems, or anyone else's for that matter. 

Finally the dissolution of my relationship was probably the most traumatic event of the summer. As I recall, it was approximately 6 hours after my break-up that you left me, all alone in our house, for 3 days while you went on an exorbitant coke binge. I would like to sarcastically thank you for leaving me emotionally gutted and alone. I would also like to take a moment to mention that just because you don't pay for cocaine with money, doesn't mean you're getting it for free. Bitches.

I would now like to address the gossip you have been spreading to our mutual friends. As I had confided in you in the past, my relationship was quite precious and important to me, considering my inability to commit to monogamy in the past. How dare you try and betray the memory of that relationship by telling people that I was unfaithful. You hetero-normative bitches need to wake the fuck up and realize that people have sex more than once a week, in bed, with the lights off and the sheets over top. 

In conclusion, I would just  like kindly request that you suck my dick, and never EVER talk to, or about, me again. 

Ps. I fucking hate you cunty bitches right now, and I swear to god if this keeps going on I'm going to start telling people your secrets, specifically to do with herpes and the huge amount of cash you don't have.

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Is it just me, or does it seem like all of my friends are shit? I have proper, kind, nice friends, I promise. Also, I realize I probably come off sounding like a huge cunt in this letter, but it's only because I'm trying to sound like a huge cunt.

*All names have been changed for dramatic effect.

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Hey!

I'm so excited, I just got all my moving in information from Glasgow! And I'm about to leave to go set up a British bank account!

It's been a long time waiting, and through it all I've been having such a mix of emotions. I'm worried that I won't like it there, but I'm excited to get there. I'm sad about having to say goodbye to my family, and especially to my ex, but I'm happy my life has a proper direction now.

Before I decided to do this program, I was just fucking around in Halifax. I was sort of working on a philosophy degree, even though I didn't like my program or my readings or anything at all.

Anyways, I realized that I've posted a lot of music on here, but never some from Belle and Sebastian. I've listened to them since highschool AND they're from Glasgow. I don't know why I didn't think of posting some of their stuff before.

So, here's to the future! I hope I don't fuck it up too bad.

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New header wooo!

I decided, in my lonely boredom, to make this blog a little bit nicer. I've posted the pic in the header before, it's of some cliffs in Lunenberg county, close to Rose Bay. I don't actually have any photos of Glasgow yet, but I guess when I take some I'll switch the picture to that. It will be like some sort of symbolic internet blog transition, from Canada to Scotland.

I just felt like posting the picture above, it's of one of my very good friends, and former roommate. It perfectly represents a good night out on the town, just punch dancing like you don't give a fuck.

Oh well, just wanted to bring attention to the shiny new addition.

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Urg, I know I just posted here yesterday, but I'm feeling lonely.

All my friends have gone back to their respective universities, and now I am left all alone in the big city. I've been on facebook looking at pictures of all my school friends having fun, and I miss them so much. It's sort of just hitting me now that I will probably never see some of those people again. I hope that's not true.

The song I'm posting is called From the Morning, by Nick Drake. This song always tugs at my heart strings, my ex and I used to listen to this whole CD, Pink Moon, on repeat for hours. But this song is definitely my favorite, it was Nick Drake's last song on his last CD.

Wishing I didn't feel so lonely, looking forward to the future, missing the past.

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Hey there,

Just at home chillin' today. A lot of my friends are heading back to school, so there have been a lot of parties and stuff. I can't believe the summer is almost over, it really got away from me. I guess I accomplished some stuff, and I'm pretty prepared for Scotland, but it went by to quickly.

Anyways, this song that I'm posting was shown to me by my friend Rilla. It's an awesome cover of 99 problems by an artist named Hugo. Don't really know any more of his stuff, but this song was definitely our summer song for 2011.

So I'm sending out some lovely love to all my friends going back to school, you guys are awesome and thanks for the amazing summer.

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Infuriating

Hey, 

I know it's pretty late here, but I need to bitch right now. 

I was just out with friends, and I heard the most fucked up story ever, and what amazed me was that I was the only person, out of everyone there, who thought that it was fucked. 

So, this is the story. 

During the school year one of my guy friends brought a drunk girl home from the bar and proceeded to have sex with her. I mean, that on it's own is pretty borderline, because I gather the girl was pretty drunk, but it gets much worse. Later on that evening, my friend slipped out of his room, and his roommate took his place and had sex with this girl. 

How fucked up is that?

What's more baffling is that my friend was bragging about this, and everyone at the party was having a good laugh about it. Like "haha rape is so hilarious."

So, I brought up the fact that what my friend was describing was, in fact, rape. The girl was obviously in no condition to consent to sex, and then she definitely didn't consent to having sex with a second, different partner whom she didn't know. Then a bunch of guys proceeded to start complaining about how I was being a downer. 

I mean, even if you don't consider that situation rape, which is a bit of a stretch, then at least the trading of a human being as if she was some sort of communal vagina is pretty degrading, misogynistic and just generally makes you a bad human being.

Sorry, but I hear guys complaining all the time about feminists and "how can they complain, everything is pretty much equal", and then they tell stories like this. I just want these fuckers to wake up and realize what idiots they are. 

Well, needless to say, I doubt I will ever talk to that guy again, I probably won't ever talk to that general group of people ever again.

Sorry for this long, bitching post, but I seriously needed to get my frustration out into the world, and this seemed like the only outlet I had right now.

Thanks internet, you truly are a great friend.

Love you 

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Since yesterday I have made it all the way from Ontario to Calgary.

I'm here staying with my Dad for a week, to visit with him and say goodbye before I go to Glasgow.

Him and my mum got separated last October, and since then he has taken up living in Calgary. I like it here, it's really cold in the winter, but nice in the summer. It's not smoggy like Toronto, or rainy like Halifax.

It's strange that over the past year I've really been spread out over 3 cities, Halifax; Toronto and Calgary.

Hopefully I can resolve myself to Glasgow and be comfortable in the place that I settle.

Anyways, this is Calgary, for Calgary.

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This is a song by Hey Rosetta! called New Goodbye. I heard it for the first time when I went to see them play in Halifax, during my first month in the city. The concert was held in St. Matthews at Barrington and Spring garden, which is a beautiful place to have a concert. When Hey Rosetta! played we watched from the pews, everyone in the church was standing. Then Stars went on, and we all rushed the stage and danced our faces off. 

Definitely one of the best concerts I ever went to, great friends and great bands.

I'm sending out some happy vibes to Halifax! miss you guys!

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So it's done, the big move has begun!

I've left Halifax, which was pretty surreal. It's weird to think that I will probably never live there again, and if I do ever return, the people and the city will be different.

Anyways, I wanted to keep this updated while I was driving across to Ontario, but I was way to worn out during the drive to go on the computer.

Above is a picture I took of Citadel hill during my last week. We were drinking on the patio of alehouse, and the sun was setting, and I thankfully had my camera. I think my friends were a bit embarrassed of me, getting up to take the picture, but it was so pretty and I couldn't pass it up.

I'll post a song after this. I wish I could do an audio and photo post, instead of having to do two different posts. ooh well.

I'll keep you updated on what's going on in Ontario, and my move to Glasgow.

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Here are some prime retro mash-up remix beats. Wu-tang/ Beatles Enter the magical Mystery Tour, great CD and always gets me in the mood for some retro dance parties.

Also I realize that it's Tuesday, but I don't work full time so technically every day is the weekend.

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Heyo!

I'm feeling a lot happier right now. I've decided to throw myself into saying goodbye, and soaking up the last bit of Nova Scotia before I have to leave. There are so many good people and great things to do, it's turning out to be a fantastic summer. 

Tonight I'm going to a mo-town dance called "It felt like a kiss", It's an awesome retro night held by one of my favorite pubs here in Halifax. It's probably the last time I'll go to this event.

I just want to go get out of my mind wrecked. I have no money left, but I haven't told anyone that in real life. I've been working part time, if I get my pay check soon I can sustain this life style, otherwise I'm going to have to drive back to Toronto. It's kind of cool, knowing that I can stay or go on a whim, I'm in control of where I am.

Anyways, I'll post some retro-pump-up-tunes after this, I just wanted to share this picture of Nova Scotia. I took this at thanksgiving 9 months and a million years ago.

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This song always gets me out of my slumps, I just need to listen to it a gazillion times. I have to stop blowing my life out of proportion, and get over myself. Good. Done.

Okay this is a song called Everything Will Probably be Okay by one of my favourite Canadian bands ever, The Burning Hell. 

Enjoy!

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Urg, stressed.

It's such a weird time right now, because all my friends are talking about next year, but I'm not going to be here. I'm excited for them, but I'm sad because I'm going to miss out on sooo much.

I'm especially thinking about halloween and all the crazy/awful costumes that they'll come up with. The picture above is my friend Bren, he's dressed up as the ghost of a gynecologist. You probably can't tell from the picture, but underneath that sheet he's wearing scrubs. 

Someone told me that they don't celebrate Halloween in Scotland. I hope that's not true, it's one of my favourite days of the year!  I love the anticipation, and the planning, and making the costume, and getting drunk and going out and looking ridiculous.

I'm sorry all my posts have been sad and lonely lately, I promise I'll stop being awful soon.

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So, it's finally summer! and I'm bummed.

Sorry to be a downer.

It's just that I'm here in Halifax, and I'm having fun, I just really miss my friends and family in Toronto. I'm also still bummed about the break up, I havn't seen my ex since it happened.

So i'm sending out some musical vibes to the people I wish I could be with, here's some Regina Spektor, Summer in the City.