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Cage the Elephant tonight ☺️

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How I be at Halloween time when I've worked out at the gym 5 days in a row

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When you're at a concert and even that doesn't cheer you up from your depression. Silently crying as the crowd cheers.

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oooo sorry I already have weekend plans (destroying and betraying myself for nothing)

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Tricking people into thinking I'm drinking a La Croix but it's actually a lime seltzer.

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Why can't men ever listen? Like seriously. We went to a festival today and like I mentioned that I had a 50% coupon for a Lyft ride to the city so we didn't have to fight for a parking spot. I also knew he worked all day on a Saturday and wanted us to be able to enjoy our night out without a DD. I had also offered to be the DD and he also refused. So we went to the festival and of course we struggled to find a parking spot. He complained. I shrugged and said, "well l I knew we should have just got my 50% Lyft. " He ignored me. We finally found a spot.bhoweber I had to pay 20$ for parking. I was pissed cause it would have only been a 8 dollar fee to get there if I had gotten a Lyft. I even expressed this passively aggressive with his friends. I had a fantastic time with my girlfriend nevertheless. I had not seen her in a while. He went off with his friends I went off with her and it was a great time. Upon coming home, he realized he fucked up and parked in a 'residential only' lot. I struggled to not say, "I told you so" with the Lyft drive. He got pissed and I was like "there's no way they don't let people out, that would be stupid. People have to be able to get out if they have visitors. It didn't make sense. I asked a guy if he could help us, he was a pervert instead. My boyfriend left me with this guy instead of telling that guy to fuck off. He got my car out like I told him would be possible. Then he decided to act like it's my fault that I'm drunk and was 'too slow' to realize this. Wow. Just okay. Wow. He raises his voice and I said, "wow, okay. You need to calm yourself, and speak to me on a reasonable level. I'm not angry." And he walks away angry. I think I handled this maturely without raising my voice at all. I handled this really well. He's in bed angry which is such a waste of energy, and I'm at peace, and calm mindset. What do you think?

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Family is so hard sometimes for me. My sister has been in a motel for months almost ready to lose everything and constantly vents to me in the daily about how miserable her life is and how she works 16 hours a day in a car for door dash. She's always begging me for money. Today I mentioned something about her to my boyfriend for the 1000th time, just trying to blow some steam off my shoulders and he goes off on me about how she's destroying our relationship cause that's all I can talk about anymore. He said, "Talk to a therapist. I cant do this anymore. I don't want to talk about her anymore." We got into an argument which prompted him to tell me to go into the other room and didn't speak to me for almost 3 hours. I tried to tell him that I had already spoken to a therapist about how my sister has always ruined everything in my life including my relationships. He didn't seem to care. I'm so lost. I don't know what more I can do. I just want someone to support me through this difficult time. It's destroying my mental health.

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