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I’ve always just been a girl in my room, drawing and writing and reading. and that’s all I ever will be, I think. but I think thats also really powerful in its own way.

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it’s so funny because I’m such a proponent of community like I truly think we need it and eachother but I hate people so fucking much 😂😂 I’m so sick of my dog dealing with fleas because of other people’s incompetence

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I can poop waaaayyy better if I am smoking or have smoked recently, does anyone else experience that lol

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my favorite song of yours came on my youtube today and I shook hard but I did not cry

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I got my christmas gift from the company I work for today

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they divided all the houses that existed into 4 family quadplexes and you share it with six other couples in their 20s-30s and all of you are always at work and don’t have the energy to throw a party

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I’ve never felt love like this before, she can just do no wrong in my eyes. I brought all my scissors and combs so she would play with my hair for over an hour while she cut it. she messed up my bangs and I spent all weekend trying to make them look good so she wouldn’t feel bad. I hope she doesn’t feel bad. they’re perfect because she did them

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I think I love Chappell Roan and it’s fucking with my usual “all celebrities can die for all I care” perspective

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my boyfriend and i have been together for a year and a half and we finally took our first romantic bath together this weekend (we’re so poor and busy) and he took a vial of our bath water and set it in the window sill to soak up sun. the bath was sublime, transcendental, ethereal. i’m trying to get into witchcraft and i want to enchant this water somehow to seal in the romantic feelings and intention into the water. are there any tumblr witches who can help me?

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one of my insane coping mechanisms is allowing myself to believe that this reality will exist in the future and that another one of my lives will get to live in it and i had to live this life to gain the suffering for my next life to be one of the greatest artists of her time

In the future the way we treat different sleep schedules is going to be thought of as just as weird and barbaric as beating kids for being left-handed. People will read about how we thought certain circadian rhythms were bad and made people take melatonin and use special lights to make their circadian rhythms different, and they will think, "So sad and ignorant...everybody is just afraid of difference."

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i think a lot about exactly 1 thing from the roman empire: the concept of bread and circus. the idea was that if your population was fed and entertained, they wouldn't revolt. you are asking us to give up our one small life, is the thing - for under 15 dollars an hour.

what would that buy, even. i am trading weekends and late nights and my back health. i am trading slow mornings and long walks and cortisol levels. i am trading sleep and silence and peace. for ... this. for what barely-covers-rent.

life really is more expensive right now. you aren't making that up. i make almost 3 times what i did 5 years ago, and despite an incredibly equal series of bills - i am still struggling. the most expensive line item i added was to own a dog. the money is just evaporating.

we were okay with it because it's a cost-benefit analysis. i could handle the customer harassment and standing all day and the manager's constantly changing temperament - i was coming home to hope, and my life planned in a blue envelope. three hours would buy me my dog's food for a month. i can give up three hours for him, for his shiny coat and wide, happy mouth. three days could be a new mattress, if i was thrifty. if i really scrimped and saved, we could maybe afford a trip into the city.

recently i cried in the car about the price of groceries.

business majors will be mad at me, but my most inflammatory opinion is that people should never be valued at the same place as products. your staff should not be a series of numbers in an excel sheet that you can just "replace" whenever you need something at that moment. your staff should be people, end of sentence.

it feels like someone somewhere is playing a very bad video game. like my life is a toy. like someone opened an app on their phone and hired me in diner dash ultra. they don't need to pay me well or treat me alright - they can always just show me the door. there is always someone more desperate, always someone more willing.

but i go to work and know i could save for years and not afford housing. i am never going to own my own home, most likely. i have no idea how to afford her ring, much less the wedding. my dog doesn't have his own yard. everything i love is on subscription. if i lose my job, i have no "nest egg" to catch my falling.

this thin life - they want me to give up summer for it. to open my mouth and throat and swallow the horrible hours and counted keystrokes. they want me to give up mountains and any non-federal holiday. to give up snow days. to give up talking to my mom whenever i want. to give up visiting the ocean and hearing the waves.

bread and circus worked for a while, actually. it was the kind of plan that would probably now be denounced by republicans as socialist commie liberal pronoun bullshit.

but sometimes i wonder if we should point them to the part of the history book that says: it worked until it didn't.

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this life is soooo unfair

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no, i love this

I was thinking recently about how "alt" subcultures are so aestheticized now but they used to be much more about your societal views than the clothes you wore or even the bands you listened to, and my brain connected some dots. Idk if this is anything

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every day i get on the internet and there are people who know me better than i know myself

nothing in the world makes me more evil than just being kind of annoyed

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i’m on a kick where i recreate my fav album/single covers and mega mango resposted me on their story 🥹🥹

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Pancake sheep! Making me hungry :p