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“All relationships have one law: never make the one you love feel alone, especially when you’re there.”

— Unknown

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Seems like Things are getting Bad again, I'm Not able to do anything at all.

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Me, the difficult one. Given that title at birth or maybe I earned it. Either way, I own it.

You're welcome. I am unapologetic about me because the dirty paths have taught me not to be sorry for who I am. So I'm not. Maybe that sounds cold, but who are you to judge the temperature of my heart if you've never offered your own to warm these rigid bones? This ever so complicated puzzle of me; it's only for the ones much deeper than language written on the skin. Bring me the one who's not afraid to rip me open, take my heart out, listen closely to what the butterflies say, and turn it into poetry;

I dare you to love me like that.

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The beauty as it seems to be, the love she craves, it's not the craving of her heart, it's the craving of her bones, her survival. She never wanted to be loved she wanted to be free from survival mode, she wanted to be the person who was happy in her status, who could afford her happiness with love. Because it always has been a survival wrap-up in the love.

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What is the point of loving me a lot but not understanding me, missing me but not searching for me, of me being a part of your life but not the important one?

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in her life, she hasn't had that many people she could count on. everyone either let her down or would eventually run out of lies to tell her. it was a shame, because she wanted so badly to believe in something more than her own words. at least they were the honest truth. no matter how horrible her day was or how long she had to work, her own motivation carried her throughout each second of her life. it's a tiresome act and walking on wires becomes a deathly adventure if you happen to hold onto too much of what needs letting go. She has a lot going for her and she knows it. at times though, it helps when you can take a deep breath and remember what keeps you moving forward. She does it often while balancing on the stars.

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If I have to go through any more character development my character will develop into a villain.

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14 year old me doesn't know it but if she was listening, i'd let her know that all the deep breathing she's been doing isn't for nothing. that the late nights laying in bed listening to the alarm clock radio before falling asleep will have her memorizing the words to songs she doesn't even like. that teenaged skin is something she can still shed, even if it isn't entirely brand new. that the body she's living in isn't permanent. that loving herself is going to be a life long practice. that it's going to be the hardest thing she'll ever have to master. that her little sister's room is just around the corner and she's been feeling all the same things you've been feeling lately. to go talk to her. that nearly every single person in her life is temporary, that the ever-familiar high school faces become blurry over time. that some people only like her because of forced proximity and it's okay to grow out of them. i'd tell her to keep the pictures anyway. i'd let her know that she doesn't have to accept every apology, that forgiveness isn't a requirement to move on. that even though that's the truth, her heart won't ever stop aching. that she will always feel like something is missing. that she can grow around the pain. that she won't always want to self-destruct. that her hands are capable of creating beautiful things even if she doesn't believe it yet.

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There’s something which is up to you, it’s just require two things:-

One is your dedication

Second is your consideration

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It's hard for us to define some emotions

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Being in your late twenties is like [grocery shopping alone] [having instant noodles for dinner] [remembering random details about that one friend you haven't spoken to in five years] [feeling overwhelming guilt for every purchase that isn't strictly "necessary"] [having midday naps] [finding out through Facebook that the girl who was mean to you at graduation has a husband and a baby] [falling a little in love with every stranger on public transport] [pretending you're not afraid of being alone] [wondering when you'll feel like a fully realized person] [listening music you liked in high school] [blinking and it's suddenly december] [failing to imagine yourself ten years from now] [feeling like you're running out of time].

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Your reasons for staying alive are yours. The don't have to be understandable to anyone else. They don't have to meet anyone else's approval. The projects & pets that keep us in the game have to be enough to keep us in the game today. That's it.