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My Dad Is Dying 3/20/2024

It’s 1:35 am here. 3:35 where my dad lives. Under normal circumstances, we talk at least 3hrs a couple times a month. Now we talk every other day, ignoring each other’s calls when we don’t have the energy. On top of that, we’re talking 4 or 5hrs a couple times a week. We know he is dying and these are our final moments, though we’ve never said anything directly. (By the way, he’s on the phone…

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Free Falling From The Sun

2020 started off amazing. I planned to go to bed on New Year’s Eve and wake up in the new year, after I got off work. I was tired of 2019, it had been too many transitions. I’d lost everything and had too many fights I didn’t have the energy to fight. My heart was broken, still is. Only time is salvation from heartbreak. Not to dwell on that too much, but I did learn I could love deeply. I…

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Animated Tarzan Movie

Years ago, I fell in love with the animated Tarzan series. I feel like someone in my family watched the old version. This 2013? Tarzan is so implausible. He over powered a silver back gorilla. Jane fell in love? Class says never. I laughed way too hard at the wrong things. It was entertaining. Animated Tarzan Movie

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Redefining Realness: My Path to Womanhood, Identity, Love and So Much More

Recently I finished Janet Mock’s memoir. I mostly read nonfiction. This was the most poetic nonfiction I’ve read, ever. For some reason, I found this to be a hard read, even though the author is very open. Mock writes about her childhood and journey to being true to herself with beautiful language. There were a lot of references she made to her childhood I could definitely relate to. Reading her…

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The New Robber Baron

So, I was looking for something online and couldn’t find it. I found it in small amounts and not what I wanted specifically. So I created it. Now I’ve got a book of information, accidentally. I’m sure if I’m looking for this, someone else wants it. In fact, I know at least 400 people who are not my friends who want to know. The flip side is, what are they willing to pay for it? Anyhow, I write…

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I watched 1986 "She's Gotta Have It"

I was trying to find an online streaming service that offered the original movie, from 1986. A group of poly folks were agreeing the 1986 version was one of their favorite movies. I like that it was shot in black and white. The original Nola is gorgeous. For some reason, I thought natural hair ended with the 70’s. Growing up in the eighties, all the love interests in black movies or on…

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Do You Believe In Mom

In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.” “Nonsense” said the first. “There is no life after delivery. What kind of life would that be?” The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light…

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9/15/2020 AM Journal

I woke up and began reading a book I’d ordered online. I think I may need to go back to paper. I use to have Nook until someone gave me a Kindle for my birthday. The Kindle could be a great tool and opportunity to have all your books in one space if it were not for all of its distractions. When I first open my Kindle, it had tons of ads. I’m easily distracted and impulsive. Not to mention, they…

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Polyamory

I dove head first into all things poly years ago to do research for a book. I didn’t want to write about something I didn’t know anything about. Also, I knew a lot of people who are poly. I didn’t want to use them, if that makes sense. I wouldn’t want someone examining my life to figure out how to write about it… Well, that’s not true. I wouldn’t care. I feel like if you can’t ask questions you…

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Art Center

I grew up at the West Las Vegas Art Center. I have performed there and hosted events. It feels like home. I sometimes drop by to see what’s going on. Usually, a friend is working on a project they will be presenting. Not to mention, it’s connected to a library with rare books.

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Facebook: THIS IS A STICK UP!!!!

Facebook began allowing us to keep up with erbody. On my writer page, I pay to advertise because those posts are shown to people who are interested in what you’re sharing where there isn’t a connection. This seems fair. This is also the reason why I think there should be some kind of button to let the algorithm know when they’ve gotten it wrong, and you’re not interested. I sometimes search for…

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Spanish Flu Pandemic

What historical event fascinates you the most? I studied the early 1900s. Specifically, 1895-1935. I read over 200 books and it never came up. Which is bananas because it killed 1/3 of the population. Turns out, they intentionally omitted it from most books.

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Rooting For You

We’re winning. I am part of a teeming artist community. Two of my friends are working to become comedians. One is actually booking gigs and traveling to deliver the jokes. Another friend is a DJ, model, and yoga instructor. Now she’s got so much business she was able to quit her day job and be her own boss. Another artist succeeded at moving to Ghana and opening a studio. Sooo, I’m just so…

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My Soul Aches

I’m having intrusive thoughts. I can’t fix myself. I waste too much energy. I need to be more intentional.

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I Hated the Barbie Movie

The Barbie Movie Was Brilliant, But I Hated It (Spoiler Alert) Five minutes into the Barbie movie, I couldn’t believe it was doing so good in the box office. If I didn’t have an excited 6yo and hadn’t bought $30 worth of snacks, I would have walked out. I must admit, it was dope seeing other people decked out in pink. It was like we were in a private club. We smiled and nodded at each other. My…

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You Asked About Self-Publishing

Peace, this is a long post to answer some questions I’m asked often. Also, info I wish found all in one place. First. Whatever genre you’re writing in, at least peruse books in that genre. Know who the bestsellers are and why.  This is also the first step in finding an agent if you want to be traditionally published. Two. To build an audience research call for submissions on projects in your…

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