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Best thing my grandfather ever taught me is that you’ve gotta let yourself grunt and groan when you’re doing something difficult. Makes it easier.

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Writing this at like midnight but I honestly couldn’t care less cause I need to get this out, and this isn’t so much for anyone else as it is for me, but I encourage you to take action if you see this.

Anyway, I’ve decided that I’m gonna do it. I’m going to wake up without sleeping in tomorrow, I’m gonna start figuring out a workout schedule, I’m gonna start watching tutorials on art, and I’m gonna start locking in on my studies.

Because there is too much stuff that I know for a fact would make me so happy, but I can’t ever bring myself to do it. So now I’m making a promise, to myself and anyone that’s seeing this that I WILL try to do this stuff.

And I might not be so consistent at first, but I promise I’ll get in the rhythm of it. I might be bad at sketching, and I might have a crappy study schedule, but I promise I’ll start working on it.

And yeah, maybe the workouts won’t be the most efficient, but I’ll do them and work out better ways in the meantime. And maybe I’ll only read one or two pages a day at first, but I promise I’ll pick up later on in the line.

I will do all of this because I won’t keep wasting my time. Time keeps on going and the sucky thing is we don’t get it back, and the future isn’t going to wait for any one of us. So when that time comes, I wanna be able to look at myself and be happy at the person I’ve become, and proud of my past self for being the person brave enough to change for the better.

So please, if you’re reading this and you’re thinking of starting a project, calling up an old friend, or maybe just getting your life in order, take this as your sign to just go ahead. Make the change, take the initiative, even if it’s just a small, seemingly insignificant step. Even baby steps can seem like huge leaps at first, but the more you do them the easier it gets. And before you know it, you’re on the road to growth.

Take action!

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This is so creature

creature

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When I was in the hospital, they gave me a big bracelet that said ALLERGY, but like. I'm allergic to bees. Were they going to prescribe me bees in there.

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I don’t know how many boys follow me, but I gotta bet there’s some. I just wanna tell y’all to be careful.

Abusive girls exist and what they’re doing is seen as like “badass tough don’t take no shit” but your girl should not hit you. Ever.

She should not demand for you to hand over your phone to look through.

She should not yell at you and humiliate you either alone or in front of people.

She shouldn’t make you distance yourself from your friends or family.

She shouldn’t scratch you or twist your arms.

She should not call you names.

She shouldn’t tell you ‘she’ll kill herself if you break up’

These are just a few examples of abuse and it’s just seen as okay when girls do it and god knows I’ve fallen victim to it a few times, but you shouldn’t have to.

Never worry about not being in a relationship. If they’re worth it, they won’t hurt you.

No one has the right to hurt you.

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OK GUYS HEAR ME OUT:

Enemies With Benefits

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Currently wishing something terrible would happen to me so I’d have an excuse to skip my presentation this week

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That feeling when you listen to some calming music late at night and your mind just clears.

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Not sure if this is just me but istg neurotypical people dangerously underestimate how easy it is to break my brain.

Like if someone tells me to do something and I don’t trust them enough to ask for help because my brain is hardwired against assistance then I’ll do it, sure, but if I get some sort of roadblock or something I’m not sure how approach on the way to doing it? Hooooooooo boy you bet that I’m gonna get stuck in a feedback loop of not being able to do it on my own, not asking because I don’t wanna come off as stupid or provoke the person who set me the thing to do, and not NOT finishing the thing before doing other shit cause “Well this person told me to do a thing and I should do it first to get it out the way right?”

Inevitably leading to me not getting ANYTHING done for a worryingly large portion of the day until I either get past the thing I was stuck on or just go “Fuck it” and take a shower.

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Someone: Haha you’re really funny

Me: A

Me: Are you sure that doesn’t sound right

Someone: You’re cute

Me: 👁️👄👁️

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Someone: *Says something weird as shit*

Me: Escuse me

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A smol bitch

replace one word of your url with bitch

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FUCK YEAH, THANK YOU - I see SO MANY people misunderstanding that autism is *very* different for other people, you don’t need to show the same stereotypical traits to be autistic, everyone is different and has different experiences and emotions and ways of handling things, so I can’t understand the belief some neurotypicals have that all autistic people go by the same traits, and those people who don’t go by them just aren’t autistic.

When I say autism is a spectrum I mean. Some autistic traits include:

Excessive talking - Non-verbal and no talking

Little to no eye contact - Excessive eye contact

Can’t read a person - Can over analyze a person

Socks 24/7 - No socks 24/7

Super high IQ - Below average IQ

Constantly under-stimulated - Constantly over-stimulated

Hyper-sexual - No sexual attraction at all

AUTISM IS A SPECTRUM NOT EVERYONE SHOWS THE SAME AUTISTIC TRAITS

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As the most scatter-brained autistic person I know, this hits hard. Istg every time someone asks me about my special interests my brain just locks up

shoutout to autistic people who have memory issues and can't remember many things about your special interests. you don't need to be able to remember things for the interests to be valid or important to you! if you enjoy them that's what matters

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So I’m revisiting a text-based game with a friend that we both coded together when we were first getting to know eachother, it has very stupid humour and is riddled with bugs but it’s overall really nice to revisit. My friend wants to see if we can fix some of those bugs it had, and at one point while we’re testing for bugs it just stops and goes:

“Killed”

Now cuz we’re dumb and can barely code we have absolutely no idea what this means, so we scour the code for anything that says “killed” and nothing comes up. We try it again and again and it always says “killed”, even on the earliest versions of the code that we had saved, even though it never said that beforehand, so we end up coming to the conclusion that the devil has possessed our code because we are very rational, mature thinkers.

Afterwards I look up what “killed” means and I’m pretty sure it’s just an error message that probably showed up because our code was so buggy and nonfunctional but instead of looking up what it meant we had just came to the conclusion that it was the work of Satan himself.