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To Our Biggest Fan

Dear Ms. Alluringink,

Thank you so much for your constant support of both our blogs. Even though it is a completely unwanted invasion of privacy on your part, we do find it humorous that you insist on watching us so closely. We must commend you on your persistence lurking in the background of our lives. We regrettably write this to inform you, however, that this is the last time you get to see our private, heartfelt posts on these blogs. This will be our last post here, and you will not find our tumblr blogs again.

Furthermore, since you continue to spew your false, baseless accusations about us to our two close, mutual friends, we would like to take this opportunity to make a few things clear to you.

We have NEVER stalked your social media. Frankly, we have no desire to know what is going on; we are not nearly as interested in you as you seem to think. We don’t even know your twitter name! And in case you had magically forgotten, you deleted your tumblr last year and made a new one. So it is mind-boggling that you even think we are somehow stalking your tumblr when we didn’t even have a way to find it. Well, we didn’t know your blog name until you liked our post a few days ago! Thanks again for that! Of course, we do not expect you to believe us; you never did like hearing the truth. But unfortunately for you, YOU are the one that has undeniably been watching us, not the other way around (see proof above). Your paranoia is consuming you and making you irrational. Just because you stalk us, it does not mean that we reciprocate. Hopefully you can recognize this one day and change for the better.

You probably feel entitled to even more of an apology than was already issued to you. Your elementary intimidation and stalking of us further solidifies the fact that any attempt at conversation with you would be a waste of time for both parties. You have made it clear that you are not interested in righting all wrongs; you much rather be the blameless victim. Until you mature and accept responsibility for your actions, there is no chance at a dialogue between us.

You will almost certainly respond to this message, flinging angry rhetoric and inflammatory accusations, but rest assured, we will not be looking for it. We hope to never see it. You will also no longer get any information from our tumblrs. I guess you will have to rely on our twitter pages to fuel your attacks on us. We do sincerely hope, though, that you can stop choosing this pettiness and move on for yourself, as we have.

Maybe one day you will swallow your pride, send a proper text message, and open the door to a real conversation, devoid of insults and sarcasm. Perhaps we can all get some closure on a terrible chapter. Just make sure not to send anymore texts inviting us to your house ;) those certainly will not get a response.

Regards (for the last time on tumblr),

Jombalaya & Asteadybloom

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Why did you prove my suspisions to be true? Why are you watching me, what the hell did I do to you.

you’re dragging me through hell again

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i don’t want to delete this account but I think I might have to if these eyes keep watching me move through time.

you are the one holding onto us & don’t try to lie because I have the fucking proof

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“Trust yourself. You’ve survived a lot, and you’ll survive whatever is coming.”

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The lost boy...

My heart longs to see you again, come tell me what you’ve seen and what you’ve been through. Tell me all the childhood memories I couldn’t be apart of and tell me all your hopes and dreams. Come find me & let me be the big sister I never had the chance to be. love you forever and always~

This is my little brother Raul. He will be turning 18 next year and I pray that he comes to find me.

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Calm before the storm

fun fact: this little truck with plants in its bed is one of my boyfriends childhood toys🥺 His parents did this and put it in their huge back yard garden🙂

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just a reminder to my love that you are the sweetest and im so grateful to have you by my side.

I present a picture of my love fixing my sunroof

a picture of us at my little sisters bday party

and lastly a picture of the absolute death FL threw at us while on a long mind clearing drive together.

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“We’re all just made of glass”

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“oh how the gods must have wept when you were born how you must have bruised the sky burned the waters swallowed the light you must have screamed kicked cried must have fought said I do not belong here, said send me back but now you are here and you must love the moon for the teeth she has given you for the voice you split open for the forest fire you bled it, too, has no hands”

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“You know you’re on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back”

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approximately 2 months left at this shitty job that drags my mental health through hell💓

im gonna go in today all smiles and I hope its contagious 🙂

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7 Helpful Life Questions

1. If you had all the money in the world, how would you choose to spend your life?

2. What makes, and when do, you lose yourself … and later realise that you’d lost all track of time?

3. What lifts your spirits on grey and dreary day?

4. When you are old, and look back on your life, what sorts of things will matter most to you?

5. What are three things that you hope to achieve?

6. What kind of person do you want to be?

7. Who is your role model for a well-lived life?

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I want to break out and get away

I want to just try and live for me

‘Cause if we don’t try then we won’t believe

That we’ll get out of here

I want to let go, and fall for you

And when it gets rough, be your parachute