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I still cannot believe that our actual, canonical, first introduction to Lucius Malfoy is him begging his son to please, please for the love of god stop talking about Potter and his scar and his broomstick for five minutes 

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why would you attribute draco being unable to cast a patronus to him having an awful childhood and therefore no happy memories to pull from when it is soooooo much more interesting to explore the idea that he's someone who was so uncomplicatedly happy for so long that he didn't value those moments enough and when he DID finally gain perspective through suffering he was so traumatised that he struggled to remember anything except the bad things

like is it easier to say lucy bad draco sad case closed yeah but is it also the most boring shit in the world. mmmyeah

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It's a spark, a match, a moth circling a flame. Harry has never been one for keeping things small; every emotion is an avalanche.

Draco is a restless sleeper. He takes up most of the bed, sprawled diagonal in the way of someone not used to sharing. He stills when he wakes, twitching muscles giving way to a careful quiet.

“There's coffee,” Harry says, and Draco cracks an eye. Harry gestures and waits while Draco collects the cup and pours too much sugar in.

“You have a look about you,” Draco says, mouth on the rim of the mug. “It's the one that says you're going to ask a lot of stupid questions.”

Harry shakes his head. “Just one.”

Day sixteen: match

The rest of the fic

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This tag made me want to scour the Ao3 Tag: Harry Potter Needs a Hug 😭😭 I need me some fics where Harry gets a big emotional release please

Do you ever think about... even after everything that happened to Harry... he like, never cries. It’s not normal. He gets tortured and sees a classmate die at FOURTEEN and he doesn’t cry.

boy do i ever

some of that can probably be attributed to harry being a british male, but i am absolutely sure most of it stems from him learning with the dursleys that crying never got him anything good. the thing that makes it even more heartbreaking is that he technically does cry a few times in the books, but almost always stops himself right away.

ps/ss: dumbledore tells him his mother’s love for him was so powerful it saved his life and he dries his eyes as soon as dumbledore looks away

poa: he hears his father’s voice for the first time and wipes away the tears while he pretends to do up his shoelace so lupin doesn’t see

gof: he feels it building in the hospital wing after cedric’s death and it takes mrs weasley giving him his first real hug to bring it to the surface, and if she had been allowed to hold him just a little longer he might have broken but hermione distracts him by slamming the window

ootp: after the ministry harry sits beside the lake, trying not to think of sirius at all, and ‘wipes his face’ when he gets up and heads back towards the castle (so a few tears but it seems no proper crying)

hbp: at dumbledore’s funeral, it hits him and he can’t ‘prevent hot tears spilling from his eyes’ but he looks away so ginny can’t see and stops

dh: (god this one gets me) harry visits his parents’ graves, and for the first time he lets the tears fall without pretending, though with ‘his lips pressed hard together’ and he can’t even look at hermione, and tries quickly to ‘regain control.’ as soon as he lays the wreath at their grave, he wants to leave because ‘he did not think he could stand another moment there’

and all this right here is why i can’t imagine harry’s mental health was anything other than a shit show after the war was over

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may I request a Reki and Akito meeting? They would get along well

bonding over blue bf

Shout out to fire coded gays with an inferiority complex and their blue autistic ice coded boyfriends

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RIP Gourdon

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1..2..3... Arin's profile loading 🔁......

slowly getting the hang of tumblr and starting to put out my own art! here's a start 🌟

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PLEASE ONE CHANCE PLEASE-

i saw someone saying it would be so interesting if narcissa was a veela/partly veela and somehow draco was born some kind of male veela, what u think?? im imagining harry jealous cuz all the guys they find are like drooling over draco lol

do they have what it takes to be veelas? 🤭🫣 I’d say yes! (idk guys, every time I think of veelas, I picture them as ethereal water nymphs HELP)

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wallpaper *͈ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈ෆ

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you dont trust me

slightly older drarry as joel and clementine from eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

apparently obliviating each other from their memories is fairly common as a drarry genre

details under cut

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PSA for fanfic writers

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“You with the dark curls, you with the watercolor eyes” —Lady Lamb

Art: @raincy_z on Instagram

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part of something i'm working at 👩‍🎨 ...

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THIS. Everything about THIS.

Ginny and Harry's entire relationship rides and dies on hormones. It's your typical high school relationship—which is not necessarily bad, but just that its not the ultimate love story that the HP canon wants us to believe. This is not to discredit her in any way; I love Ginny's character and what she has the potential to be, but we really don't see her get fleshed out in canon, her passions, desires, her trauma and bravery, etc. which directly translates to how we never see hinny get fleshed out as a proper relationship either. It's all so quick — so fast-paced — that we never see them be in a relationship, it's always one moment they are together and then the next they can't be (which again, can have the potential to be a great romance, but it is not — at least the way they are portrayed in canon material, they are not a great romance, they are just two teenagers who find eo attractive and got together like other teenagers are wont to do). For other reasons why they are not see: Everything else this post discusses. It's all so spot on. Hinny can be good, in some fics I've read. But in canon? No. I'd say there is much to be desired. Unlike with Hinny though, canon material actually makes me ship drarry. Again: See the above post.

I'm gonna derail and also point out the whole existing theory that suggests Harry's subconscious need of "recreating his family." Here, family, of course, referencing to his parents—and how it's a strange oedipal parallel of Ginny and Lily + Harry and James being physically similar, and both having a straight out of high school marriage. To look at this from Harry's POV, he is an orphan, severely traumatised, and in need of starting a new chapter. There is comfort in familiarity, and apprehension for change. Harry likes Ginny because she is familiar, and safe, and he likes her because she can give him something he has always craved—stability, security, a family. Not only his own, with his own kids, but a connection to the Weasleys who were his first introduction to the whole concept. I won't make much assumptions, but it is easy to see why Harry stays with Ginny despite there not being anything in canon that actually SHOWS he was ever interested in her or her life or her thoughts, feelings, goals, etc. He doesn't stay with her after the Horcrux hunting because he loves her. He stays because he needs stability and security and family after a whole YEAR of being deprived of just those things.

There is so much to think of, when we consider Hinny. Harry's motivation to stay with her, Ginny's initial hero worship towards him, and current feelings which make her stay with him. There is much scope for fics to explore their complex relationships. And THAT is exactly why I adore fics that show the gradual, inevitable, decline of Hinny. No hard feelings to the ship, but at least while reading drarry, or a fic with harry/any other character, to see the collapse of his current relationship introduces the prospect of change. This is scary, of course, but it opens the possibility of growth. For a traumatised Harry, growth is really important. It is the first step needed. It's honestly quite lovely to read fics where their writers take the time to truly explore what it means to break out of a too-comfortable-to-be-real relationship.

I keep thinking about the fact that hinny is kind of the opposite of drarry in the sense that Harry really shouldn't know that much about Draco but he does, while he should know a lot about Ginny but he doesn't.

Harry and Draco aren't friends and aren't even in the same House but Harry is so attuned to him that he remembers items Draco looked at in a shop more than 4 years previously, knows every detail of his appearance down to the exact shade of his eyes and skin, and can recognize him instantly just by the sound of his footsteps or a glimpse of him from far away. He also knows a lot about Draco's interests and beliefs and can usually tell his exact mood just by a look at his face.

Conversely, Harry and Ginny are in the same House and Harry has also spent every summer since second year living with her, plus holidays during 5th and 6th year. They also start dating in the end of sixth year. Despite this fact Harry has never even been in her room till 7th year and when he goes in, he shows no sign of recognition at the posters he sees there. You'd think, for example, that he would already know that she likes the Harpies and the Weird Sisters and thus think about how of course she has that in her room, or something. Who are her friends? Who knows? Certainly not Harry! What kind of wand does she have? Harry doesn't know. (Even though he does know both of these things about Draco). What does she want to do after graduating? How did she handle the trauma of what happened with Riddle in book 2? Does she have any insights from that that could be helpful? No idea. Harry's doesn't care and isn't interested in finding out.

Honestly, when he thinks of her it's mostly about her physical features. And even then, her eye color only gets mentioned once - in book 7, and we still don't get the specific shade. I'll buy that he feels lust for her. But love? Honestly I find myself once again thinking about the parallels between hinny and ron/lavender.

Consider:

Versus:

Kinda sounds like both the relationships being described are light on the talking side of things...

Also guess what the first thing Harry does after kissing Ginny, the alleged love of his life is? If you guessed "looks lovingly into her eyes" or "says something to her" you'd be wrong. Here's what goes down:

That's right guys, gals and nonbinary pals. He looks right over the top of Ginny's head (and isn't that a metaphor for their relationship right there - he's literally overlooking her to think about other stuff) to check in with Ron. His actual priority - the person whose opinion and regard he actually cares about.

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hmmm..... thoughts are bubbling...........

I can think of a story.

and

I kind of like it.

.... 🫣🤩

This links to a wheel with nearly a hundred fic tropes for plots, settings, and more. Spin it twice.

This could also work with art inspiration, but the buttons only allow for so many characters on them. And please do ramble in the tags! I'm going to have no idea what most of you are talking about, and it's going to be great.

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UPDATE — New fic!

Through the Thorns and Thicket

rated E; Ongoing. Available on AO3 HERE. pairing: idol!Lee Minho x idol!Han Jisung | Minsung

summary: When Han Jisung, a third-year medical resident, encounters a familiar stranger while walking home one night, it changes everything.

Lee Minho had never expected his life to turn out bad, but it did. Then, he never expected it to get better. But it did. Han Jisung changed everything.

☘︎  ☘︎  ☘︎

The man adjusted his position against the wall, finally letting his head tip from the heavens back to the Earth. His dark eyes coincidentally met Jisung’s own, and— Jisung felt a jolt of adrenaline rush in his veins, his heart raging wildly, as his eyes stared into Lee Minho’s, standing just a few metres away. The same Lee Minho, whom he had known for years because he went to the same high school as Jisung. The same Lee Minho, who had dazzled and shined through what was considerably the most awkward four years of Jisung’s life. That Lee Minho was now standing along the hooker’s harbour. Jisung could not stop the slowly spreading horror on his face.

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CHAPTER 1 IS UP! Available on AO3 HERE.