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Shit post because I need to write this somewhere. Doing this on my phone for the first time so idk how to work it that much

Ranting ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️

TL;DR: I say that I feel lonely and that the hole in heart is needing to be filled. So Give me characters to write fanfics for and I will do it. Most likely will be out of character if I don’t have a good grasp on the character’s personality. (Twst, Genshin, Obey me, FE3h(I will try. Personalities are still iffy for me especially Dimitri’s), and i will add more if I can think if more.) will get them done when I have the time. Work is killing

No cause I may say that I love yanderes and all but really, all I want is a partner who would love me and be protective over me. Does possessive count in that? If not then maybe a bit possessive.

First relationship? It was grade 7. Me and my ex were too young(also good thing we broke up, found out he’s transphobic 2 years ago)

Second? I lost feelings because I barely even felt like anything was there from either of us. And even so, we mainly only talked about what he wanted to talk about and if I tried to say something the conversation would have been changed fast. Also ignored me after I stopped giving him hugs for a while.

Third? Lasted the longest and started only 3 weeks after breaking up with the second dude. Lack of communication from both of us.

In all, I say I like yanderes but I really just want someone who would love me to an extent. Like they really do love me like I love them. I barely even felt loved in any of my relationships.

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Deepest Fears

Obey me angst

Our deepest fears. They are something we are scared of. Something we never want to happen or something we don't want to do. Some people are scared of heights. Scared of thunder and lightening. Those are what we would consider to be normal fears. Fears that many people have that if someone said that the are scared of it, we would understand in a heartbeat. But the fear of the people so dear and close to you, just up and leaving you, it's a fear that some people have. A fear that many won't tell others. It first started with Satan. We had a good relationship, going to the library almost everyday. We would talk about books that we have read. I suggest some books from the human world to him, and he would suggest some books from Devildom to me. It was nice to be around him, making each other laugh. But that soon ended. We started to hang out less and less. And whenever we did, he seemed distant. As if he never even wanted to talk to me. It didn't even take long for it all to stop all together. I would ask Satan if he wanted to go to the library time and time again, but his answer is always the same. "I don't want to go to the library. Especially with you" Rejection. Losing a friend so dear to me. I started getting the picture. He didn't want to be near me. He wanted to leave me behind. He wanted to end our friendship. Next was Beelzebub and Belphegor. I don't understand what has happened for them to leave me. Belphegor just doesn't want to be in the same room as me. Wanting to keep his distance from me. Whenever I ask him what's wrong and if he would just like to cuddle, he says the same thing. "I don't need anything from you" Beelzebub, I don't know what I did to get him mad at me. I always try to fix my mistakes, but no matter if I try to ask him what I did do wrong, he doesn't tell me and just leaves me there, questioning what I did. I made him treats many times. Hoping that he could forgive me, and if not, at least speak to me. But his response was always the same before he left me. "Sorry, I'm not that hungry right now" It was getting scary. I was scared of losing the rest. I'm scared of losing people. Those who are so close to me. Next was Asmodeus. We always spent time together. Him doing my makeup, even when I told him that he doesn't need to. We would talk about classes and all the news, his modeling job, etc. After a while, I would usually just go over to him and let him do my makeup. It made him happy. But the happiness didn't last long. Just like the other brothers. I didn't know what I did wrong. He just started to ignore me. When it started, he was up to do my makeup, hair, and nails, but he never spoke to me. A look of distaste on his face. If he did speak, hurtful words left his lips. Ugly, disgusting. Those are only a few. Then it finally happened. He stopped doing it all. Not offering to do my hair, makeup, and nails. And when I try to go ask him if he could, always the same reply. "I don't want to touch someone as disgusting as you" At this point, I was losing them left and right. I wanted to hold onto the only friendships I had left with the remaining three brothers. It didn't last as Lucifer was next. He would always help me study, he was kind when he helped me. But not kind enough to hurt his pride. He was just a perfect help for me. I passed classes, knowing the answers perfectly from his help. Like the others, it slowly started to stop. He stopped helping me, little by little. I understood that he had his own paperwork from Diavolo to fill out. Which is why I thought the reason for him not helping me is because of me. But test after test, quiz after quiz, exam after exam, the time he has helped me study went down as my marks have went down. If I try to go to him for help, there is always a little grumble from him before he does help me. But that stopped. Now he just says the same thing to me. "Why should I help someone who is just going to fail in the end?" I always was taken back by this. He has offered me help before because he wanted me to succeed. To make this exchange program

be the best, even if it is the first one. He didn't want me to ruin Diavolo's reputation, but it seems that he doesn't care anymore. He doesn't want to help me since my grades are horrible. I wanted to stay strong. Thinking to myself that the last two brothers wouldn't leave me. But I was wrong. The next was Leviathan. We always talked about anime with each other and watch some as well. It was always amazing. Laughing at everything. It was pure joy and the only other thing at the moment keeping me happy. But as the pattern went, that soon started to change. He always kept his door shut, not letting me in at all. Whenever I ask him if he wants to watch this new anime I found, same as the others, his response never changed. "I don't want to watch some anime with a normie like you" Breaking. I was breaking. I had never left so quickly. I was losing loved ones. I wanted to hide. It was coming true the one thing I never wanted to happen. I never left my room. Dinner was always awkward, having to sit around the brothers that had basically left me. They would all talk to each other, ignoring me whenever I tried to say something. Mammon was the only one who would actually acknowledge me. Giving me some company. After a bit, I just stopped showing up to the dinner table. I couldn't handle it. Skipping dinner upon dinner. But Mammon would always come to my room, bringing me dinner. He stays to talk to me, to make sure that I am alright. I loved that I had him. A friend to talk to. Someone who still cared for me. Keyword, cared. He soon too left me. Stopped showing up to my room with food. Stopped coming to my room to talk. Just stopped in general. I did find time on my own to go check up on him, wanting to know if he was okay. I only went to ask him once, never again after his response. "Checking up on ya, felt more like a chore more than anything" I wanted to cry. I really wanted to. Because in the end. I am not scared of thunder and lightening. Not scared of heights, spiders, any normal fear. I am scared of losing the people who have always been here for me. I am scared of being alone in this world that I hate. The people who made it worth living for, were now gone from my life, not wanting to be near me or to talk to me. That is my deepest fear. Being alone and losing those who are close to my heart.

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Pls give me something to write about- I am a bored human being

Hello, my name is Atlas. I just wanted to say that I am here if you want headcanons, match-ups, or even fanfics(SFW/NSFW). Though I must warn you, my writing is not entirely good. But my friends would say it is amazing. The fandoms I can write for are: Obey Me Genshin Impact Twisted Wonderland(Will be having a hard time on some characters(cough cough Malleus) because I don't understand personality well) I might even be doing some for my OCs. Not OC x canon character. But OC x reader stories. But I will be posting their name, looks, age, personality, and all the likes with that(So this time when my friend go look for fanfiction of my ocs, there will be some. And yes this has happened before, they just forgot that they are my ocs and not actual characters in games/shows) Before I end this here. I can do male, female, and gender-neutral for it all. I will state what it is in the title(Ex: Male!reader. Fem!reader. GN!Reader). Some mental disorders I will not write for since I do not personally have them. I don't want to portray it incorrectly. I may have friends who do, but I don't want to ask them and still get it entirely wrong. For pics like my pfp(Who is me and my wonderful Boyfriend), and my ocs, I have used Picrew since I do not have any art skills. I am apart of the LGBTQ+ community. I am Genderfluid, pan, and Poly

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This is my Genshin Server! It’s a fun and safe place for people who enjoy Genshin, the staff are kind and helpful!

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I don’t really see anyone talking about Moriarty the Patriot. But I will because why not

Since I have a new phone, I decided that the theme of my phone will go with the anime that is interesting me at the moment.

Before at the start it was Sk8 the Infinity. Now it is Moriarty the Patriot

Ignore the apps XD I get bored

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Does it count as bored when you start grabbing all of the Live Audio Dramas from the Otaku FM podcasts and putting them into one video and putting the translations there? Because I’ve been at this for 1 hour for putting the videos together, ending up to be 24 minutes long, and 2 hours for the translations and only 3 minutes in for the translations. No one ever told me that it takes this long to do this-

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This scene just brought me joy. AND MIYA WAS CRYING FOR HIM

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Yes! I am still waiting! But we got to see that hot cop lady again, so he might get into trouble. I hope that he does tho

Goes from Ad*m falling to the ground, Cherry and Joe start laughing which I love. Miya is happy and so is Shadow.

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Reki wants his name to be known and he is doing it!

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Good bye

goodbye adam

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Goes from Ad*m falling to the ground, Cherry and Joe start laughing which I love. Miya is happy and so is Shadow.