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the question is do i fill my chronic boredom with destructive decisions or with sex

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i’m so fucking bored all the time

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I'm not someone you should get close to ever

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‘i like masked men’

i actually do have a hannibal lecter mask if that counts.

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‘you’re really mentally ill’

yes, i’ve noticed.

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i am insanely jealous and possessive, even the thought of someone else being with someone i love makes me genuinely violent.

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some of you really missed the point when i complained about the demonisation NPD and ASPD experience for having a lack of empathy, and it fucking shows.

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What's a piercing you'd never get?

after experiencing the pain of having my nipples pierced, i probably wouldn’t commit to getting genital piercings.

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Mouth piercings??

12 of my piercings are around my mouth

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“I don’t really care what people think”

*Proceeds to have an earth shattering meltdown because someone dare go against perceiving me within the strict image I invented for myself*

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first ask on my blog, woo-hoo. i looked through your posts a bit (not in a stalker way, i swear,) and i see you 've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. i 've been suspecting something like this is what 's ""wrong with me"" (/sarcasm,) but if a diagnosis were to happen .. would it be worth anything? like, my time? my money? i feel as though i 'm just searching for more problems, but i really just want to know what 's going on with me. i 'd give more context to my current situation but i believe this is enough yapping for now. no harm is meant with these questions, thank you SO much if you see & reply.

that depends what you mean by it being ‘worth anything’.

just because i’ve been and seen psychiatrists and had my mental illnesses acknowledged professionally doesn’t mean my treatment is accessible. the mental health services here are terrible and it hasn’t been ‘worth it’ for me because it was a long difficult process to even see the psychiatrists to begin with since i can’t afford private healthcare.

id probably look into what help is available to you and if they’re actually going to be useful and then make your decision from there

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i <3 submissive men.

men who like to be treated like property i own. that’s my type.

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why is thomas hewitt so fucking hot. not to simp on tumblr but i’m so gay for this monstrosity of a man

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let me stab you (flirting)

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if you refuse to respect my boundaries but then get upset when i react because of how you’ve treated me, i hope you know you’re the one in the wrong.

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starting to think maybe the years of unsupervised internet access as a child was a bad idea after all

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i get sick of people so easily. if you don’t impress me when you first talk to me then i don’t see any value in keeping you around and you will likely just annoy me