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oh my god oh my god oh m i just binged so bad holy shit I gained a shit ton of weight I'm actually not eating for tthe rest of the week and my post binge face is HORRIBLE I lost my gorgeous ana face im actually going to kms I'm so disgusted with food myself and everything

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what were y'all's longest fasts

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NOPE calorie counting it is

FUCK

I'm starting to have a lot of trouble with binging again and I'm starting to wonder if calorie counting is actually worth it.

I follow trin and liv schmidt, and they don't really count calories, they're just aware of them.

So like they would be aware of how many cals are in a certain boxed thing or another but they wouldn't actively count number by number

i honestly don't even know if that's something I should do or not because that honestly sounds A LOT more freeing. opinions?

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I think I just had one of the biggest binge days of my life I'm literally never eating again what the fuck

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I'm starting to have a lot of trouble with binging again and I'm starting to wonder if calorie counting is actually worth it.

I follow trin and liv schmidt, and they don't really count calories, they're just aware of them.

So like they would be aware of how many cals are in a certain boxed thing or another but they wouldn't actively count number by number

i honestly don't even know if that's something I should do or not because that honestly sounds A LOT more freeing. opinions?

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currently running a fever and ive already eaten near 500 cals today (10:30 am) this is so exhausting. thank goodness my limit is 850 today :(

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new blog<333

tiktok is being mad annoying so i'll be posting accountability wieiads daily!!

give her a follow! we begin tmrw<3

@ch1c-wieiad

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I'm so privileged that my school such a convenient 10k steps from my house

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since I committed to locking in and making a wieiad tiktok every day I've come to realize that the less I eat the less work I have to put into the tiktok❤️

and!! people are more likely to like/save the vid if it's shorter ♥️plus less embarrassing

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I think my second favorite thinspo are those very tall and thin slavic girls at my school that only wear designer and speak in russian and ukranian

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going to begin filming wieiads and saving them in my tiktok drafts<3 lmk if you guys would like to see em

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my ultimate personal list of favourite th1nsp0 individuals!!!!

DM for removal.

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Slavic doll activities:

long, long walks (outside, in the local mall)

take care of themselves (hygiene, beauty, working out)

indulge in pastimes (reading, writing, or perhaps sketching or photography)

listening to and practicing music

tea and coffee

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the whole week I'm eating to live and then every saturday I live to eat and I consider recovery because I actually feel genuinely happy and not extremely fatigued for once?

then I look at myself in the mirror and

no way. Not yet.

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just had a bowel movement 💕🤭🥰

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honestly, I think the main issue with me and ana is the fact that even if I get to my gw, it's likely that it still won't feel like it's enough.

At this point, I crave the feeling of perfectionism and control and success with the number going down more than the actual weight. I'll always feel the need to lose more and more, no matter where I'll be.

my gw will always be lower and lower because it's just the fact that I have a *goal* that's so appealing to me.

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just discovered a new hack for fatigue!!

sleep. literally go and take a 3 hour nap and you will no longer be fatigued trust me!!

you don't always need to eat when you feel tired.