bellyhasabellyache

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the summer i cant stand steven and his goddamn haircut

jenny han WHY did you do this to steven

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The Morning After - Original Poem

⚠TW⚠: discussions of SA, flashbacks, and nightmares

The morning after you will wake up and you will cry in the shower and scrub yourself raw

The morning after you will dress in baggy clothes and walk to school and see him in a hallway

And you will turn the corner and break down in messy tears and shaky sobs until the nausea erases his figure from your thoughts

You will be expected in first period awake and attentive and be everything but that

The morning after you will replay the scene in your head a million times over until you can no longer stomach the thought of it

You will pass him in the hall again and you will cry

The morning after you will make it to fifth period, crawling through the halls as if they are flooded with honey and molasses

You will walk home after fifth period and you will cry some more

The evening after you will spend laying on your bathroom floor, your bedroom feels like a crime scene that will kill you if you touch it

Your mother will come home from work and you will reluctantly drag yourself to bed because she cannot know that there is something off about how your room feels

The evening after you will go to bed without dinner

And you will dream of it over and over and over again until surrendering the fight and waiting out the night so you can’t dream of it again

The morning after the morning after will be the same

Crying in the halls and skipping dinner before going to bed

The morning after the morning after the morning after will be the same again

It will be the same for a very very long time

Two hundred and forty four evenings after the morning after you will tell your father

Your father will cry and beg you to let him kill the boy you see in the halls

And you will beg him to

And nothing will come of it

Two hundred and seventy days after the morning after you will see the boy and cry

You will shake as his face appears on your phone screen despite your belief that he is blocked absolutely everywhere 

And you will cry some more

Two hundred and seventy mornings after the morning after and you still feel too weak to face the boy without tears in your eyes and tremors in your bones

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incase anyone is worried yes i am fine. i wrote this cause i was having a panic attack and this is how i cope. dont worry abt me it happened a long time ago and this is my first time seeing my abuser in almost three months so i was understandably overwhelmed

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who else is up hating the gender they were assigned at birth!!!

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PRESSURE PRESSURE BE KIND TO YOURSELF OR YOUR NOT COOL GRRRRR 😡

i wish i had people to peer pressure me

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@whathappenedtothefaeries @stoned-sh4rk @ifyouknowmenooo @mollylovesthemoon @luzth3goos3fr @alocalpizzadruid @kermit-the-fag-uwu @silly-boi-adventures @geraldthebroccoliman @blahaj-number-2 @justyournormalweirdo

I wanna start a tag game

What song did you last listen to/are currently listening to

I'll go first

@preserves42 @chaos-cupid @apjofan @th3-r4t-48 @kuraikocho @thecrazyalchemist @spooky-cryptid-friend @stargazin-on-mars @k-is-for-potassium @boldofyoutoassumeicanspell @sun13koi @mun-urufu @goddess-of-bubblegum @bastet-the-best @the-eclipse-is-in-me @xx-neuro-xx @wretched-meadow @mildlybizarrecorvid @poe-the-failure @alexanderhamioton321 @cloverthesimp365 @ilov3b00kss0much @fukurouonthesea @permetutotheworld @the-official-failure @garden-of-runar @cceanvvaves @bastard-number-5 @auggies-dreamworld @rins-batcave @shutupheather13 @ning-ningx300 @aiko-sera @brickcpavement @1shouldbedoinghomeworknow @elizer-the-felon @/anyone else I've forgotten sorry

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you’ll never believe it but i got diagnosed as autistic two weeks after posting this… crazy

“stop bouncing your leg” “stop flapping your hands” “stop making those weird noises” “take your headphones off” “stop smelling that perfume” “stop breathing so hard” it’s this or i’ll fucking explode.

[bellyhasabellyache]

my mom said that if your mom said she could drop us off at the public library to show use of public services then my mom said she could pick us up

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got bit by a leech and my entire left foot is swollen am i cooked

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evb do this (open tags) (or else.....) (DO IT)

i want more PICREWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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femboys 🗣🗣🗣

femboys😍😍😍

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pro tip NEVER date within the friend group you WILL fall into some fuckass love triangle and it will make you insane

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just a girl

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finished this at oike 11 pm n immediately went to sleep

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this was D1 ragebait and it worked i was crashing out so bad 🥀🥀

Thinking about when she said “See you next era…” ❤️‍🔥

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i think we should normalize kissing our friends and not just on the cheek, like on the lips. like it’s such an intimate thing and i dont get why it’s always romantic like lemme give you a peck goodbye

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spam me pls i love yall even if we aint moots yet

REBLOG IF IT IS OKAY TO COME INTO YOUR INBOX AND SAY THE RANDOMEST SHIT I CAN THINK OF BECAUSE I REALLY WANT TO INTERACT WITH YOU.