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this may or may not be a fantasy writing exercise for me. please reblog

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me when i wanna talk about my special interests but i got the vampire autism where you gotta invite me to talk about smth first, otherwise i wont say shit or dont know what to say because i feel like im annoying

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my boyfriend, critiquing a gamzee cosplayer: "You see, the problem is that I don't want to suck you off."

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just saw a musical live during a very stressful time and physically felt a fragment latch onto one of the characters. predicted it to

looked at the fucker and went "you're in my brain now aren’t you"

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like if u cri everi tim

My Pronouns are he. But not him. Because I'll never be him (the giant rat that makes all of the rules)

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I am opening commissions!

hello, I am taking commissions so that I can have enough money to eat! obligatory vauge guilt trip out of the way, here are some examples of my art, prices under the cut. DM me if you're interested! Thank you!

(ordered newest to oldest, I'll get better examples soon I promise)

I am taking commissions for:

Busts / heads - 5 USD (50kr)

(Examples above)

Pesterquest edits - 2 USD (20kr)

HS Panel edits - 5 USD (20kr)

>-------------------------------------------------<

every complex edit costs extra (ex: an edit where I have to mess with body type excessively or add extra arms)

every extra person is half the original price

prices are examples, depending on how long your com takes me/other factors it may increase/decrease

I take PayPal/Vipps

I will do:

real people

ocs

characters

oc x Canon ships

nudity/suggestive/NSFW (+2 USD)

I won't do:

nsfw of minors

adult x minor ships

piss/scat/inflation

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Reblog if it's okay to invade your ask box

Always

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Hey hey oopt into booping

I need to boop you for uhm… scientific purposes :]

it has been done

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welcome to Systemhood, where ticci Toby just gave Ben drowned the sex talk

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Reblog to open a rail line from your blog to the person you reblogged this from

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You think you win the cutest boyfriend competition?! Mines cuter! He

1- holds my hand in his sleep! (additional point! He also wraps his legs around mine!)

2- gives me small things! Some of his favorites are cute/nice rocks! Usually flat!

3- makes very cute contented noises! They vaguely sound like "mrrp"!

4- gets very excited about the prospect of swimming and loves the water!

5- will look over at me sometimes and just break into the cutest goofy grin!

6- will break the law for me!

7- gets absolutely so excited about things he's passionate about! That seems normal but it's fucking adorable!

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Am I bored yes. Am I petty oh fuck yes

REBLOG IF MINORS CAN BE SYSTEMS

That is all

based on this (the other bit was the regular "tiktok disorder") ranting

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[alt; userbox reads "this system loves their partner system"]

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This is going to trigger a lot of people, but it needs to be said:

Regarding “endogenics”:

First off: let’s be clear, that science shows us that in order to have alters or a system, you MUST have severe dissociation- which is caused by trauma. This is non-negotiable, no matter how many “research studies” pro-endos share. All of these pro-Endogenic “resources” are either written BY people claiming to be Endogenic, or the article does not have a clear conclusion, or any solid evidence supporting endogenic to be possible.

Systemhood CAN NOT form after young childhood.

There is also no reason or need for the human brain to just randomly start having alters. Science proves this time and time again.

Lots of people say “well I’m multi-origin because some of my alter are Endogenic”. Just because an alter isn’t a trauma holder, does not make them Endogenic, it makes them an ANP (apparently normal part).

We need to stop letting people just get away with spreading misinformation about a very real and complex trauma disorder (DID/OSDD). We need to debunk the misinformation when we see it.

Regarding “Tulpas”:

You’re not gonna wanna hear this, but tulpamacy is NOT alters or headmates. In fact, if you’re claiming to be a “Tulpa” system, you’re appropriating an ancient spiritual practice created by Tibetan Buddhists and the way it’s being used and portrayed on the internet today is not only extremely inappropriate, but offensive.

Stop believing the first thing that pops up on google when you research into this stuff. Make sure your sources are credible and non-bias.

I also find it a little ridiculous that anyone who disagrees with endogenics even slightly, get put on a mass block list 😂😂 like, tell me you can’t handle the truth without telling me.

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On Love and Community

@princes-heels // ? // @inkskinned // mitski, my love mine all mine//@littlespoonsokka // @boymiffy // @2aminhouston // ? // @theviralwitch // @noodle // @criterioncollectiongirl // @fatsoupy // ? // @mjalti // george saunders, congratulations, by the way// @jb-blunk // @ponchopeligroso // @headspace-hotel // everything, everywhere, all at once(2022) //@cheruib // ? // ? // @tordenvejr

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system ask game! send the corresponding emoji(s) & the person who reblogged this may answer the question. :-)

🥀 - do you keep track of your alter count? how do you do so?

🫀 - do you have non-human alters? what species are they?

🍄 - when did you realise you had a complex dissociative disorder?

📻 - do you experience amnesia?

🥩 - who was the most recent split?

🦴 - do you have an innerworld? what does it look like?

🦷 - what’s a fun fact about the current fronter(s)?

💀 - is your system more overt or covert?

🍷 - does your music taste differ from alter to alter? how?

🦇 - do you have any friends with CDDs?

📺 - are you “heavy” with any type of alter? (e.g. little-heavy, introject-heavy, etc.)

this is for traumagenic systems! thank you.