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birth control made me gained weight

id rather be pregnant than fat

that's contradictory...

id rather abort it than be pregnant+fat

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starting slow with an aim of around 1000 a day any lower amazing any higher…as long as its below 1400

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after recovering for long and now ive relapsed

i feel hungry and i fucking miss this feeling

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ive been recovering for a year however i cant do it anymore and im starting again.

i like to go in slow with restricting and the overall mindset so for now im going to eat healthy but limit to an extent. as the days go on ill become more restrictive and at prime.

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(people from my school)

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I started smoking again and low-key missed it. So some tinspø with cigarettes

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i want him to ask if im eating

this is all i want

pls

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i just wanna be part of your symphony

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I want people to look at me and know I have a problem.

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competition

my "friend" is also trying to lose weight by starving and restricting and its annoying me because shes doing it so much better than me. but shes fatter so idc

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gone a few days without added sugar and feeling proud and good about myself

im closer to my body not being dependent on it

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my reasons to loose weight

looking good/hot

able to wear whatever i want

not have to worry about clothing sizes

not heavier than him

being the skinniest in the friend group

compliments/attention on weight loss

looking skinny in a big coat

looking skinny in school uniform

all jewellery fitting

share clothes with friends

look good in dresses

satisfaction feeling ribs, hips and bones

dropping sizes so have to buy new clothes

shock my family/friends

have the same body as girls i know

fitting my aesthetic better

people thinking i stay in shape because im skinny

naturally lift that ass and tittys😋

comfortable weighing myself

not feeling heavy on my feet

fitting into old clothes

fitting into vintage/thrifted clothes

comfortable wearing small tops

restricting food gives me a sense of self control and discipline

being able to say my weight proud

able to picture myself having sex

wearing a bikini

oversized clothes- skinny rather than fat

in a competition with my "friend" to get skinny

eating healthy makes me feel clean, fresh, happy and good about myself

make others think twice when im eating less/healthier than them

being able to eat unhealthy and it be acceptable because im not fat and instead its impressive

live out my goals of looking like this one girl

feel like a victoria secret model

feel more included

feel more like a girl

get called anorexic/thin/skinny/malnourished/bones/lanky instead of fat/chunky/chubby/big

carried or piggybacked

"are u sure u dont want anything to eat?"

attention of concerned people

eat without looking fat

thin thighs when sat down

arms dont jiggle when shaked

rings always fit

less body surface area to tan 😭

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Shout out to caffeine she’s always been there 4 me fr

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found some laxatives and gunna try them for the first time since my mum forced me to eat a sunday roast

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Maybe he wants me when I’m thinner

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liquid fasted today, walked for like 4 hours, then ran 2km burning 217 kcals. i burnt like everything i drank today and probably yesterday's food lol