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A bite for me, wanna try Enjoy…. you’re very welcome little monkey.

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Yeah sex is cool but have you ever been on tumblr before December 17 2018?

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Dropping a brick on the post below

hee hee

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That TikTok text-to-speech voice is astoundingly awful. Coworker who tattles on you to the boss vibes. Oblivious girl talking too loud on the phone on a hot, crowded bus. Its crazy to me that they engineered the worst sound on earth and people keep using it to completely ruin cute videos of their cat

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might I also add these from my own ancient facebook

you know what lets actually bring back lolcats, they were so simple and so benevolent. like check this out

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happy new year. have some tigers i did for a client

kind reminder that commissions and requests are both open!

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I’m so nervous to post this....If anyone can donate ANYTHING, please help. I can’t afford therapy, treatments, or medication that I desperately need. My family isn’t wealthy at all… they’re only barely able to help me pay for therapy but not the specialists I need to see or any medication… Even if you can’t donate, i’d appreciate it if you could at least reblog this so that hopefully some people who CAN donate might see it.

I don’t know how to tag this where people will see it because tumblr seems to be censoring tags relating to this topic lately so im relying very heavily on my followers just reblogging this so... sorry to ask but can you please reblog this if you see it?

Hi everyone, I know I don’t talk allot and I’m not one of those mutuals who’s like, part of the friend group or anything, you know? So I feel like I have no right to ask this but I’m getting desperate. I really, REALLY need help.

I’ve never opened up about any of this on tumblr so this is hard for me to do so please bare with me if I ramble or give to much/not enough details..

I’m really, really not in a good place mentally OR financially and I've barely even started to seek help because I’m unable to pay for medication or therapy. I’ve bottled everything up until just last year and now I have so many problems piling up that I can now no longer ignore then and no way to pay for treatment.

I’m gonna talk about something here that I hate having to talk about but I figured talking about it might get some peoples attention and somebody who is able to help might see it.

This post is half me asking for donations and half me just venting because I need help desperately but I also just need to get all of this off my chest so please don't feel obligated to click the ‘read more’ if the trigger warnings below make you uncomfortable.

(TW: Sexual abuse, mental illness, mentions of suicidal thoughts and self harm, etc)

Last year I recovered repressed memories of being sexually abused when I was 8 years old… My abuser told me if I told anyone, my parents would be taken away and I believed him so I kept it to myself but even after I repressed the memory of what he did to me, I internalized that fear of talking about things that were bothering me. I never opened up about my problems in school, my anxiety, nothing. I bottled it all up and now I’m 26 and I can’t get/hold a job because of severe anxiety and social anxiety and still rely heavily on my parents for allot of things

I also have vaginismus as a result of the sexual abuse which, if you don’t know what that is, is a medical condition that causes involuntary muscles spasms in the vagina which prevent any kind of penetration, so sex is off the table but more importantly I also can’t get smear tests/pelvic exams either which gives me anxiety because I NEED to be able to get those things done for the sake of my health.

Sometimes I have mini panic attacks thinking about how I could one day die of something that would have been treatable had it been found early on but I hadn’t gotten an exam done because of the fact that a fucking monster decided to rape a child!

I’ve suffered anxiety and depression since I was a teenager, I dropped out of high school due to a combination of those two things and the fact that I was struggling allot with my school work and none of the teachers ever seemed to notice that I clearly had learning problems. I’m certain I have some kind of learning disability, my moneys on ADHD, though I don’t know for sure since I haven’t gotten a diagnosis yet. Whatever it is, it is still impacting me now as an adult. I want to go back to school but unless I get diagnosed and properly treated for whatever is causing me to struggle so much with learning, I won’t be able to.

I kept all of this to myself for over a decade, and have only in the last year started actually seeking help. I self harmed regularly from the ages of 16 to about 22 and even now I still get the urge sometimes. There was a long period of time where I really believed I would commit suicide eventually. I didn’t know when or how, I just knew that suicide was in my future. I never opened up about it or reached out for help, I just kept it to myself, wallowed in self pity and blamed myself for being fucked up in the head for seemingly no reason.

It was only last year when I remembered what happened to me that I realized this whole time, it was that piece of shit who did this to me. I wasn’t just “naturally” fucked up, he did it to me. Now that I know it’s not my fault, I no longer feel that self hatred or hopelessness. I no longer feel like just waiting around until I feel ready to commit suicide, now I actually WANT help.

I had my first session with a therapist who only charges $50 per session but unfortunately she doesn’t specialize in the things I need help with and suggested I find a specialist which I can’t afford.

I need to be able to pay for therapy sessions for my anxiety and depression, a specialist for sexual trauma + additional treatment for vaginismus which on top of regular therapy sessions also includes pelvic floor therapy and dilators, and I also need to pay for medication…

I really need help..

I hate that I have to ask for money online, I hate that I have to talk about this stuff, I even hate that I had to put my name in the link above, I would never do any of this if there were any other alternative but there isn’t.

So I’m begging, someone, anyone who can donate to help me pay for my treatments and mediations, please help. I have no way of repaying you, I’m not an artist who can do commissions or anything, I have nothing to offer.. but if you can donate ANYTHING please consider it, I’m tired of living like this.. I feel so guilty for putting financial strain on my parents. My trauma has already ruined nearly two decades of my life and I don’t want it to continue ruining the rest of my life so PLEASE help if you can.

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wtf this is adorable 😭

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Why does the LotR trilogy hold up so well?? Don’t mind me fuckin bawling over this 20 year old movie that I’ve seen probably at least a hundred times. Like I’m just sitting here tearing up like I didn’t know Gandalf was gonna appear with the Rohirrim and turn the tide of battle at Helm’s Deep.

Also how tf is this part 20 year old CGI??

Or this??

The damn heartfelt moments that feel stupidly genuine

And genuinely funny moments that don’t take away from the plot or tone of the movies

And the costumes

I just really love these movies ok

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I’m by far not the only person reposting this but it’s uncanny how well this algorithm figured out what we find funny now. It’s only been 9 hours and this seems to be the definitive new meme of 2022.

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strange looking doggy

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Depends on where I am in the ritual tbh

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listen people are starting to realize tumblr isn’t dead we all need to be as cringe as possible for the next few months, it’s vital to our survival

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They look like frozen waves

Ever seen an upside down iceberg?

Now you have!

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A doggy with a giant branch for your day