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Wow, how rude of this person to copy what is clearly MY thing; nobody else is self-aware whatsoever and it is entirely unique to me. I alone rest at this peak of solitude, gatekeeping the hall of 'A Sucky Life Where You Are Repeatedly Told "Nobody With BPD Is Self-Aware And You (A Liar And Scammer For People's Pity(?) (Apparently, Forgetting That People Do Not Pity Me And, In Fact, Think I Am Just Horrible) Even Though Nobody Would Do That) Are Faking It" And "All Your Mental Issues Are In Your Head (Thanks, Hadn't Picked Up On That)" Until I Inevitably Perish', a land where I and I alone belong.

being mentally ill AND self aware? zero stars, would not recommend

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Oh, woe to me, I am being ignored. Methinks I'll go sulk about it and spiral into the ever consuming doom.

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Absolutely love when someone prefaces something with "I know you don't like this topic but" (i.e. I have previously made it clear said topic makes me want to die) and then go on to rant about it anyway, ensuring that I know they want to make me feel horrible intentionally.

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'Tsundere' this, 'tsundere' that...no, I'm not a tsundere, I'm just neurotic...no tsuntsun to be found here, and certainly no deredere either, especially not for you...

Idiot...

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Me when the personality disorder affects my personality

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Why is it that I, the literal and actual narcissist with BPD, am better at admitting when I'm incorrect or in the wrong?

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the 'mort' in 'mortgage' represents that it will haunt you until your death

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when you feel the overwhelming urge to cut yourself but you made things too difficult on your better moments

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There are some people who have the incredible ability to make it very difficult for me not to repeatedly stab myself with the nearest sharp object until everything stops.

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COVID isolation again, for the third time this year. I barely even go outside so once again I'm just cursed. If it's another two weeks of no interaction, of a slow descent into less sanity, I might finally end things. And I actually had a good birthday for once. I think it's possible I really am cursed.

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I don't think I was supposed to live this long and that's why things are so bad

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i am excessive when i love someone and i am cruel when i hate someone. i want to be gentle. i don't want to be this way.

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Eating makes me want to die. It is somehow the perfect representation of the waste of time that is my life, a dull experience that prolongs everyone's suffering. For every bite I take they have to put up with me for longer and yet it's something people insist I must do. What's the point in another person putting in the effort to prepare food for me when I have exactly zero desire to eat it?

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An hour of chaos in my mind before back to nothingness 💖

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If suffering is the price paid for life then why is everyone else always happy?

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And flip-flop back and forth on whether or not I want to be mourned

sometimes i wish id die in a freak accident because im too cowardly to do it myself

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unfortunately for the both of us, i really like you