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BPD be like

Art by Kelsey Landsgaard

when it hurts (listen here)

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BPD POST #15

Borderline personality disorder? More like big penis disorder. No wonder we all suffer so much, all the blood flow goes from our head to our ginormous penis

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BPD POST #26

Overspending, overeating, over doing whatever it is to fill the void inside, knowing that it’ll slip through and you’ll feel emptier than you did in the beginning.

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BPD POST #25

Not knowing who the fuck you are on the inside, only people’s projections of you and walking through life empty and confused.

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Black Lives Matter.

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Having to deal with the pain of your fp leaving you and knowing there’s nothing you can do to stop it is insane. It’s gut-wrenching and painful. Like your soul has been taken from your body and all you’re left with is an empty vessel that you occupy

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Hey!!! Bpdthots here. I hope you all are staying safe. And if you ever want to submit a confession or ask for help (on anonymous or not) I am always here. Take care of yourself my borderlines :)

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fp left me. this is the fourth time this has happened this year :)

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BPD POST #25

Developing a deep, extreme hatred for your #fp after them disappointing you which leads to disoriented feelings and dissociation

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One small positive thought in the morning can change your whole day.

:’)

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Mean Girls

Your bum is attached to the cold, hard plastic seat beneath you

Your eyes are glued to the string in front of you and you hope that one day you’ll become a charm on that string

but until then, your eyes are glued to her.

Your voice changes

You mimic and follow

Your hair is different now

Even the way you walk is different

You reek of some odor that is too floral and fragrant and it makes you stink, but why don’t they?

Pieces of metal hang from your ears.

Congratulations, you’re a charm on that piece of string now!

But you’re a black charm. Not pink.

Hey! At least you’re next to the biggest one right?

No. You’re the only one on the left side. The pink charms are all glued together on the right.

You try to join the other pink charms, hoping they’ll paint you pink like them, but the big charm in the middle blocks you.

The only way to make it to the other side is to come off the string.

But wait, you won’t be apart of the string anymore.

Exactly.

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BPD POST #24

Splitting on everyone within seconds and feeling intense hatred for them.

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Dissociation

the alarm sends shockwaves through your body. you shake

you groan and lie there

staring at the ceiling, focusing in at the knick on the wall

slowly, you fade into a fuzzy abyss of nothingness

no thoughts

head empty

15 minutes have passed

are those butterflies? or are those flies?

you float past the mirror and you stop

you’re lost but the water is still running and you watch the water gush out onto the hands in front of you

are those your hands? are they yours?

do you even have hands?

are you YOU?

what even is YOU?

you look back in the mirror, unsure of what to do with the being staring back at you

what is that? Who even is that?

you float back to wherever it is

to start your day

throughout the day, people react to the figure you see in front of the mirror and you have no choice but to act as if you and the figure are one.

at the end of the day

you float to your room

shut the door gently

and start all over again