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never seen a more accurate thing on tiktok

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trying to seductively get on my knees for you but my knees crack so loud it echoes and i’m stuck there for five minutes

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Yea, that’s how it happened before they make out.

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Live in his soul, even.

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first date idea: you hold me and i cry for several hours

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tw. selfharm

i was clean for almost two months, relapsing again makes me feel embarrassed of myself, but its like a voice in my head, making me feel anxious and that nagging feeling just goes when the blades cut my skin and it feels like I can finally breath but at the same time I just feel more miserable and pure rage in my insides because why do I have to feel so miserable when my personality disorder and mental issues are not even my fault at first place?

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tw: sexual assault/harassment, cocsa mentioned

Lately been thinking about something that happened when I was a 5 year old in preschool. Something about that memory always upset me and sometimes I thought that maybe it didn't happen and I was just being crazy but being able to comprehend and process what happened that day on a random tuesday got me crying and anxious. I think I was never able to identify what happened as sexual assault because they were kids too, I thought that maybe for them it was a silly prank, for me is a memory that I have been carrying for all this years. I remember how 5 of my classmates, all boys tried to pull down my pants and I think even underwear, I was desperately crying in the floor while they were laughing at me, the teacher didn't do anything, she just watched and just told me to stop crying for a silly joke. after 13 years of denying what happened, never told my mom or my family I finally was able to identify this as an experience that even to this date, makes me feel emotional anguish, for them, it was just a prank, for me, something that I carry with me and all I think about is that 5 year old girl on the floor crying with 5 boys laughing at her face while she desperately tried to get up.

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240908 MINGYU @ Lollapalooza Berlin 2024

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love how I have a board on pinterest called "pretty men<3" and it's just a bunch of pictures of neuvillette well because he is

⋆˚࿔ pretty 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

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shit so bad I had to talk with an AI to process the most traumatic event in my life 😞

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I'm going to the pool with some friends this friday and god, the idea of having to wear a bathing suit its making me feel so anxious, I hate the way my body looks, I feel really insecure about it

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reading an article that talked about bpd and the correlation between homosexuality and hypersexuality, and founding out that I'm a bi who struggles with hypersexuality not because I'm quirky >< but mostly thanks to my personality disorder

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hypersexual culture is “i need to get off RN” and then immediately after “ew ew EW WHY TF DID I DO THAT”

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Hypersexual culture is...

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Everytime a neurotypical tells a borderline “stop making bpd your whole personality”, ten years are taken off the entire world’s lifespan because of the pure brain cell damage in that sentence. ITS A PERSONALITY DISORDER WHAT DO YOU MEAN DON’T MAKE IT YOUR WHOLE PERSONALITY?