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Love said: I will hold you. Understanding whispered: I already know where it hurts. One sooths the heart, the other touches your soul.

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I am out of blood to write to you anymore. My hands are pale and i need to drink water to at least be useful to the plants on my grave.

Imaginary letters to- June-20-2025

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*finger shoots her on behalf of cupid

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why?

—Anaïs Nin, "The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934"

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"Philosophy leads to death, sociology leads to suicide." Do both and you turn into a madman.

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I jolted every time i felt the need to share any of the films which were dear, its felt like giving oneself to their introspection... analogies... transcriptions. A sheep offering itself to the slaughterhouse just to get it done.

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Perceive or be perceived you can only control one

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"The mind is its own place and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven."

Satan in Paradise Lost by Joe Milton

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February is nearly always melancholy

Anna de Noailles - Your Hidden Fleshly Grace

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I am only interested in women who scalp themselves into a project of self-transformation

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death and i have been scandalously close for some time now

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Society is all diluted these days.

No one feels what they genuinely feel. It’s always a borrowed feeling no matter how real it might seem.

Oh Gregor, what are you doing under my bed?

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Lust is bleak. And love is void in me. It’s my devout nature to show love. Content I be.

My lost and found journal (Oct 2022)

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“Men who think deeply appear as comedians when they traffic with others, because in order to be understood they always have first to simulate a surface.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche, Assorted Opinions and Maxims, 232

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“Even in the desire for knowledge you should show moderation so that things known won’t be badly known.”

— Baltasar Gracián, The Art of Worldly Wisdom

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“To pray is to think about the meaning of life.”

— Ludwig Wittgenstein, Notebooks, 1914-1916

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Be warned I am actually uninteresting and better as an idea