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Won't lie that the green rain and all the villagers taking cover reminded me of a certain event back in 2020 (°-°)

Not that it's the same, but it felt close…

Bonus because I like to mess up with Clint

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Previously talked about Harvey's physique, and now just random talk, because I don't have much to say about Alex :v

(⚠There's nothing wrong in imagining Sebs as a dom papi! You do you and I do nothing! Like, No, Seriously, I can't say that fanon is good or bad, because I literally imagine Harvey being a bit sassy instead of just being "a nerd"... So, imagine the love interests as whatever you want them to be :V👍)

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Aesthetics that I like on the sillies~ I was only going to make the "aesthetics that I hate" but I made the ones that I like first Next time- I'll post the ones that I hate :v

(Fun fact, Almond is wearing an ace pin, asexual pin, Protect trans kids pin, morse code of SOS, and the chain holder with both of their signature color~ And the letters on their left leg is just "Over powered motherfucker" because I couldn't come up with something better)

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Troublemaker babies~ It started with just drawing them in the pose, but somehow it escalated to some sort of story :p

You can come up with the backstory for it and I'm sure it'll fit lol

(I luv the 50's aesthetics~ I dunno why, but it feels so comfy~)

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I don't know, just simple life thingys I guess 🤷

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Fun facts about Lemoney~ (I had it on my wip file and didn't finish it because I was busy with SDV… Buuuuut here she is~)

I think Lemoney is quite simple, aka not too complex or mysterious

Now the question is, will she go back to her book? I doubt it'll be this soon, but maybe…? After all, she changed a lot, maybe she'll have a new attitude when going back~

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The longer version of why we have to move out ⬇

Plus rant and vent? (I dunno, it's pretty shitty and it could ruin your day, so if you get angry easily, I advise you not to read it)

I'll try to explain, but it probably won't be as detailed...

Okay, so, my mom and the abuser(my biological dad) are both Brazilians but Japanese descents.

Before I was born in 2000, my mom met the abuser who at that time looked like a decent man.

They lived in Japan to make money and working close, they started dating, he would tell her that he wanted a family and so did my mom.

They went to Brasil to have me there, but my mom stayed at his family's place. Where they would constantly bully her for being a divorced woman with a son (My stepbrother)

You could say it was the postpartum depression, but she thought about ending herself (The only reason she didn't was because I was still a baby and needed to be taken care of)

Then my mom opened a esthetician clinic which was her dream. I was around 1 y/o and stayed most of my time with a sitter.

Since my mom was the one making the money, the abuser would get stressed that he was unemployed and had nothing to do. Until one day they fought (Apparently he grabbed me and threw me onto a bookshelf) my mom got scared that what she was doing was hurting the family (Or so he would gaslight her into thinking)

In 2002 Dec-Jan, my mom brought me to Japan, because the abuser wanted to make money here "The clinic is a waste of my potential and our daughter will need more money to graduate university"

She was so convinced that this time, the family would work, that she left her son, dream job, friends just to stay in a country that she had no freedom nor knowledge of the language. (Sure, she already lived in Japan once, but she was single and didn't have to take care of a 2y/o child with no driver license)

Fast forward to 2005, this time, I remember my mom having another fight with the abuser, because he would demand her to make dinner and take care of the house despite her also working while I was at the kindergarten. At that time, she even asked me how would I feel if they separated. She was scared that I would get bullied by other children, and I was scared that my mom would die overworking because her salary was very little

"But wait, what happened to the money that she made at the clinic?"

-Well, since she left Brasil, the money that she made, went into a bank account that was made to support my future~ But who has control over it? The abuser's family and himself

Which means that all that hard work never went to help this family, but to help HIS RETIREMENT and HIS FAMILY

Also, not so fun fact! Her mother in law sold the clinic, but because the name was still in my mother's name, the shit that the new owner did, went everything to my mother's name! I don't know what happened later, but it was terrible for my mom

Anyway, because two wrongs don't make a right, instead of going to couple's therapy or straight to therapy, they decided to have another child (aka my little sister who was born in 2006)! Again. my mom being the traumatized gal that she is, she tried to trust that everything would work out!

✨🎉It didn't! 🎉✨

And it only got worse! Yippeee!

Here's the list of shit that has happened~ (Just skip honestly, it ain't worth the time, but I'll leave it here as evidence)

My mom lost most of her friends because the abuser didn't like her going outside (Nor getting visits)

She stopped singing, dancing because if she did, he would say something like "You're showing off for other guys, huh? You want to cheat on me"

He would check her phone and emails until she said that she would call the police

Got told my art was shit when I was 9 (Lol imagine an adult telling a 9y/o that their art is shit and could never be an artist)

2011, My mom and the abuser bought a house

He would blame all of his wrong doings on her and then gaslight her that he never said such a thing

When my sister got sick and my mother couldn't pick her up at school due to work. The school called the abuser and he would say "You're not doing your job as a mother! Your children is sick and you don't even care" to my mom

Every time my mom would feel good about herself and try to be pretty, he would call her "Vagabunda" (Lazy) and "Tá se achando?" (You think you're that good?)

2015, When I got enough of his shit and started to go against him, he said "If I knew children would be this rude, I would've gotten a dog instead"

My mom got a car that she wanted. But even though she paid for it, the name of the car was in the abuser's name. "Why?" Because the car insurance is cheaper if the youngest of the couple has it signed. That's the scummy trick of the abuser and the insurance guy...

The back blinker of my mom's car wasn't working and she was busy at work, so the abuser said he would check it out. But to check the blinker you need someone to look at the back. Instead of calling me, a 16-17 y/o, he asked the youngest who has no knowledge of cars! He kept yelling "How could you not know?! It's simple, you idiot!" She got so angry and told him to fuck himself. That's when he punched her. I remember running to her and asking what happened. Then he proceeded to say that we're both ungrateful for the house that HE bought, and the food that he provided (When, it was me and my mom who would do the house chores) And other things that is pretty stupid but he says anyway, just to make it look good. I told him that if he wanted help, he should've asked me, not the young girl who doesn't know about cars. (Since that day, I don't leave my sister next to him without my supervision)

2019 March, at the high school graduation, he kept demanding in coming despite never participating in any parents & teachers meeting. Then, before I could say goodbye to all my classmates, we had to leave because he got bored and wanted to go home. (I'm still salty that I couldn't thank my teacher who knew about my case and supported me to go to an art university)

2019 April, that money that was gathered for the university wasn't deposit for "some" reason, and I had to get a loan.

2020 He kept breaking utensils because no one was doing the chores as soon as he wanted.

2022, My mom couldn't take the bullying from the abuser and seriously thought about getting the car and jumping out of the bridge. (It was scarier when we went to a mountain to see illuminations and she wanted to jump from a high place)

2023 April, my mom, my sister and I went to USJ (Universal Studios Japan) it was her first trip that she planned and paid with her money! That trip brought her strong side back and it was amazing!

When we came back home, the abuser was feeling kinda salty but that was it.

2023 Dec, he thought about going to Brasil for a vacation (which is something he often do! Leave everyone behind and relax at his family's place) At that time, I planned with my mom into splitting the rooms. We have three rooms in the second floor, but my mom slept in the same room with my sister. So the idea was that everyone would have their own room.

2024 Jan, everyone had their own room and both my sister and mom had their privacy. The abuser didn't like the change, and he started to send my mom text messages about past trips where he paid. "I paid for those trips! It was my money and you went to USJ wasting more money! I work hard and you go around being lazy! You're ruining this family! Get away from my house! You golddigger!"

(I told my mom to screenshot it, but he kept deleting every text)

2024 late Jan, he told my mom that he has borderline syndrome which means he can be a piece of shit as much as he wants. Then said that my sister also has the same syndrome (My sister hates the thought of being the same as him, so she is going to online therapy)

2024 Feb, I finally convinced my mom to report those actions to the town hall or the police. And we talked to a "Life support against DV" in our village's town hall, the lady heard us and told us to talk to a professional at the bigger town. We also did that. (Both ladies were very welcoming and supportive <3 )

While talking, the lady gave the an option to take a shelter, but the time limit at the shelter is 2 months, which is not enough to find a new home. But at least, more people knew about our case and they can help us be anonymous once we move out.

2024 Late Feb, my sister told us that the abuser went inside her room and left an unused shelf. We quickly bought a pair of lockers. One for my sister and my mom (To prevent him from entering without permission)

2024 March-April Continously looking for a new home... We plan on renting a house (We thought about apartments, but my mom works at night and neighbors are usually loud, so a house it is~)

Well, that's all so far~ Of course I can't put all the terrible things that happened, but I believe that with this annoyingly long rant(?) vent(?) it can help people understand why I'm doing commissions now

"Is it shitty that I'm possibly using the SDV fandom for my selfishness?"

-Absolutely! I could not feel less guilty... But being very honest, I actually love Stardew and combining two things that I love "Art X SDV" is personally the best for me!

And I could keep posting comics for free and all, but I don't want to feel like a useless pile of poo than I already am! Being the reason that my mom never left the abuser and the whole reason of her tragedy is enough for me lol

For more details, please check my Ko-fi page

I talked to my mom about opening a commission, and she was concerned that I'd set the prices too low

But let's be honest, commissions are kind of a luxury thing and not a necessity! Plus, it's better for me to open one instead of hoping to make money out of comics on Tapas/Webtoon (I mean, it's one of the reasons of why I stopped posting! Too much work for no ad revenue! And I truly love making comics, if money wasn't an issue, I would draw so many stories... But reality is too harsh, soooo Commissions! 😎👍)

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For more details, please check my Ko-fi page

I talked to my mom about opening a commission, and she was concerned that I'd set the prices too low

But let's be honest, commissions are kind of a luxury thing and not a necessity! Plus, it's better for me to open one instead of hoping to make money out of comics on Tapas/Webtoon (I mean, it's one of the reasons of why I stopped posting! Too much work for no ad revenue! And I truly love making comics, if money wasn't an issue, I would draw so many stories... But reality is too harsh, soooo Commissions! 😎👍)

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Random drawings of possible(?) past Almond's design and some Cornelia×Almond :>

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Harvey actually says that, and I'm just...

This man... I know he is old and it could be just the way I interpret things, but ufff... He's a contradictory cutie~

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Two sleepy heads don't make a right

Thank you everyone for the kind words on the previous post 💗

I was very motivated and happy to know that it's not shameful (I'm still a bit hesitant, but I'll keep posting these silly romance? comics)

I tend to make these comics at 3AM, so I'm kinda drunk asleep and as the great philosophers(?) say "Life imitates art that imitates life that imitates art......."

Anyway, they're just sillies

*Btw, Harvey does like Carrots! It might look like Harvey is allergic (aka hate) carrots, but the wiki says he likes it, so it's all good 👍 Peanuts just jumps to conclusions too quickly*

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That makes sense!

Plus, I think he might not be eating good quality food (since the microwave is pretty much used and it's probably convenience food...?)

So he could be eating less and poorly

(disclaimer, this is just an speculation based on the convenience foods that I've eaten... If your country's food is actually nutritious and high quality, then, the outcome would be pretty much different 🤔)

Lol~ I think I'm drawing Harvey older than he is supposed to be(?) 😅 (I'm 23 and I imagine him to be... in his 40's? Because 30's doesn't feel that old to me, and if they say he's one of the older bachelors, then... 35-50?)

And I'm also conflicted about his body type

I mean, it's all about the artist's preference, but I don't really have a preference (Although I pictured him with dad bod because of Pedro Pascal... 👁👁💦 Have you seen Pedrito with glasses?! Hot dog!)

I'm kinda curious to know how people see him 🤔

Anyhoo, I might try drawing Alex next~ (I never drew Alex before, so that'll be interesting... I also never drew Sam, Maru, Haley, Leah, and Penny... 🤔 It'll be cool to think about their designs and how can I mix my style to it :> )

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Lol~ I think I'm drawing Harvey older than he is supposed to be(?) 😅 (I'm 23 and I imagine him to be... in his 40's? Because 30's doesn't feel that old to me, and if they say he's one of the older bachelors, then... 35-50?)

And I'm also conflicted about his body type

I mean, it's all about the artist's preference, but I don't really have a preference (Although I pictured him with dad bod because of Pedro Pascal... 👁👁💦 Have you seen Pedrito with glasses?! Hot dog!)

I'm kinda curious to know how people see him 🤔

Anyhoo, I might try drawing Alex next~ (I never drew Alex before, so that'll be interesting... I also never drew Sam, Maru, Haley, Leah, and Penny... 🤔 It'll be cool to think about their designs and how can I mix my style to it :> )

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Honestly, what's going on with Webtoon???

I know I received a notification email about Super-likes and I didn't really understand it

But I thought "Oh, okay, so readers will be able to support their creators"

And now Webtoon is sorta "hunting" for new creators?

CHAD ANON-

Alright so I've been meaning to post about this for a couple days, but we gotta talk about what's been going on in the /r/webtoons subreddit the last couple days.

Every now and then, the heavens part and an anonymous creator will descend with their experiences with Webtoons. And they're almost never good. And that's good in the long run, because that means we have more ammunition to support Webtoons being an ass platform that benefits no one :))

Obviously the anons here are risking a lot posting this sort of stuff, so before I go ahead, let it be known that I'm gonna try and keep speculating to a minimum and just touch on what anon has provided. When it comes down to it, this post hasn't been verified in any way, so it might not even be 100% real, though there's a lot of evidence to suggest it is based on the responses from other users that validate many of the points anon makes.

I will also mention that any opinion I have regarding the contract outside of what's been provided by anon is from reading other accounts from creators who have spoken up and just generally being a community member for a long time who's been around the bend and heard a lot of shit from Originals creators. I am not an Originals creator and I have never been offered any of these contracts.

So let's get into this!

The contract 'evolving' over time was definitely something that a lot of us were at least semi-aware of, as it seems that a lot has changed since 2020 as verified by many creators who have spoken up on their contracts (or at least said what they could in light of the NDA's that WT uses to prevent them from saying anything). But I had no idea the extent to how far WT was going with it, how much they were trying to get away with. Automatically having the ability to buy 100% of the creator's IP? That is a huge, massive no-no. I've had some creators heavily imply to me in the past that they've sold off portions of their IP, but WT being given the automatic pass to buy 100% is severely unethical.

For anyone out of the loop, IP means Intellectual Property. It means whatever content is being made, it belongs to the person making it. Lore Olympus is Rachel Smythe's IP. City of Blank is 66's IP. Of course, copyright law gets dicier when it comes to stuff like fair use, trademarking, etc. but for the sake of this topic, IP just means "if you made it, you own it". Webtoons typically buys digital print rights, meaning if you sign on as an Originals, that means you can only post that comic that you sold to the Originals section. It doesn't mean you can't use other platforms for other comics, just that for the comic you sold, you have to post exclusively to Webtoons.

Webtoons is essentially trying to take that from creators by going "if you sign on as an Originals creator, you don't just lose your distribution rights, you lose all of your rights." They might still be able to run Canvas comics separate from Originals, but whatever they sold to Originals is no longer theirs to own. And the kicker is that it's, of course, for a very low fee. Buying out 100% of someone's IP should NOT come cheap, but WT is undoubtedly offering pennies in the hope that someone bites for that 'exclusive' Originals offer.

This. This is a big one. I'm not a lawyer, but I'm pretty sure this is massively ILLEGAL.

Just like with the IP rights, creators should not automatically have their printing rights taken from them by a digital publisher. They can make offers, sure, but they can't force creators into giving up their rights for physical publishing when they themselves are not a physical publishing house. Some series do get physical prints through other publishers like Random House (ex. LO) but a digital printing platform should NOT be able to restrict the printing rights of a creator who has only sold their series for the purpose of digital distribution. Especially because, again, printing rights are usually sold for massive gains for the person selling them - not a portion of month's rent for people living in a shitty New York apartment in 2024. That is what Webtoons thinks your printing rights are worth.

This is one that I've been very certain of for the past little while, particularly due to my past discussions regarding LO's merch. Because let's face it... it isn't good.

But I don't hold Rachel accountable for this shit because she's not the one making it, it's almost certainly some in-house designer at Webtoons or some other third party through Random House Worlds. Sure, it says "By Rachel Smythe" but that's more so just for marketing at this point, because no one wants to buy merch made by Chuck the Penguin House merch guy.

Remember when I said LO's partnership with Inklore / Random House Worlds was gonna be purely for cheap merchandise in the realm of cookbooks and card decks?

Yeah.

Point is, it's clear a lot of creators who are part of Webtoons' merch program may not even have any say or choice in the matter. Of course, I don't know what Rachel's contracts specifically are like, so I won't speculate on that too much, but there's a lot of evidence to suggest that she may not own as much of LO as she used to. She was definitely a part of the older contracts from 2018 at one point that didn't have the more predatory tacked on bullshit like the Minimum Revenue Threshold, but... she's renewed her contract since then. So it begs the question of how much LO has suffered not just on her account of being bad at managing a team and writing a long-form story, but at the hands of Webtoons dipping too much of their hands into her work.

Oh look, another highly unethical if not outright illegal thing! Digital print publishers can't be your agent! Repeat after me -digital print publishers CANNOT be your agent! As anon explains here, it would make it far too easy for publishers to steer their creators into directions that only benefit the company. Agents are like lawyers for artists, their job is to protect writers, actors, artists, anyone who's trying to enter some kind of media industry. Most publishing agencies won't take unsolicited manuscripts for publishing, which means writers need agents who are willing to vouch for them and help them connect with publishers. Webtoons being the publisher AND the agent for creators... seriously, that's fucked up. It means Webtoons can direct creators to do whatever benefits the company itself, not the creator. But hey, we already knew that was the case as soon as we saw "Webtoon would be able to automatically buy 100% of your IP" LOL But if you needed more to support the sheer predatory audacity of Webtoons as a company, there it is.

This is the sad reality for a lot of content creators. Comics aren't a new industry, but webcomics are and a lot of the people going into them are either extremely young or just never learned how to navigate the professional world. We talked about this issue last week and now here it is in action - a lot of creators don't even realize they're supposed to hire lawyers for contracts like these, and those who do... can't afford them.

And again, I'm very aware that this reddit post isn't exactly substantiated by anything beyond anon anecdote (such as a copy of the actual contract) but a couple other people in the thread who were offered contracts also came forward to express the similarities - and differences - between what they were offered and what OP was offered.

(these responses are actually gone now but that's why we have the power of screenshotting as the thread was happening LMAO yay me)

This thread is also being discussed on Twitter:

For those who are as old and falling apart as I am (/hj) and remember when Youtube was still coming into its own as a platform, what Webtoons is doing to webcomic creators is very similar to what businesses like MakerStudios did to Youtubers back in the day - signing creators into predatory contracts with the promise of fame and fortune, just to pull the rug out from under them with shit pay, shit management, and less perks than they had just doing it all on their own time and dime.

Webcomics, as a blooming industry, are now going through the same problem as Youtube did back in the late 2000's/early 2010's. No one knows how to navigate the industry. A lot of people and businesses don't even know how to profit off it, at least not sustainably (and for some platforms definitely not ethically). Very few people have come out of this industry with the money and fame they were seeking in the long-term, both because it's easy to burn out quickly but also because there is no long-term yet due to this being such a new industry... and those who have come out with those victories are often people who are still just pursuing the traditional comic publishing ways of glory, by seeking out agents, signing print deals, and doing everything that any other freelance or contracted comic creator would do, because it's safer and offers more structure than what webcomics are offering on their own. There are no regulations, no protections in place looking out for creators, it's basically just a free for all of young people looking to monetize their creations and businesses willing to take advantage of those people for a quick buck.

I don't think any of this means that webcomics have to be exclusively relegated to being a "stepping stone" for traditional print comics or grander media like film and television. They're a medium in and of themselves, a very accessible medium to boot, that welcomes anyone regardless of their status, technical skills, or background. They're wonderful for that and I think more people should be willing to give webcomics a try as a medium if they want to express themselves on their own terms.

But as I've talked about in the past time and time again, there's still going to be a separation between doing webcomics as a passion project or a hobby, and doing them as a profession. When it comes to the latter, you have to be willing to treat it professionally. You have to recognize that there will be those out there who will take advantage of you for money, because that's what the professional world is all about. This is unfortunately something a lot of creators just don't realize, because we're going through those same growing pains a lot of Youtubers have gone through (and still go through) - learning how to navigate our passion as a job, with all of the legal mess, dotted lines, and legal stipulations that come with it. And we're in the midst of that learning now, by seeing the actions of companies like Webtoons that only seek to exploit creators rather than foster them. It unfortunately will take more creators getting screwed over before anything changes. But we have to be willing to talk about it, every single time. We have to be willing to separate the creator and their own faults from the faults of the platform that's hosting them - a creator can be both lacking in their own skills as a creator as well as lacking in support which makes it impossible for them to hone those skills.

And yes, I say all of this because it concerns the criticisms I make of creators like Rachel Smythe. I think there are a lot of things she does that are indicative of her as a creator and her inability to act professionally in this industry, from LO's rampant misogyny and objectification of women to her own misfires when interacting with her fandom. But there are also just as many things that can be potentially traced back to the platform - it's hard to make better content when you're constantly being exploited and hung out to dry.

Like anon, I too hope that more creators will be willing to stand up and speak on behalf of themselves and their peers, to push back against these contracts. It's gonna suck. It's gonna be hard to want to make those moves when just about every creator is just trying to put food on the table. But for every anonymous creator who stands up and speaks, for every person who isn't willing to sign those contracts and talk about the reasons why, for every storyteller who uses their skills to spread the message, the power they have grows. We have to make it impossible for Webtoons to continue to ignore.

After all, it would be a real shame for more of these stories to come to light just as Webtoons is seeking an initial public offering in the stock market. Wouldn't that just be so unfortunate for them? :)

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Part of me wants to draw these type of comics where is just dumb romance with no plot or comedy, but then the other voice says "you stupid piece of jizz, people go online to laugh! Not to waste their time with boring sht"

So I dunno... I guess I'll just post sdv stuff and run away

Anyway, since it's a 1.6 updated farm, Peanuts gotta max all the friendships again

Sure, most of them are easy, but Peanuts just make things harder for themselves :>

If you want to see a mild nsfw comic of past Peanuts × Harvey 👀

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Just posting the frames, because it's hard to see the details on the video :>

I made a video~

Basically, that darn song was stuck in my head

And I only knew the chorus because of that dang SDV video

So, I went searching for the whole song and noticed that the lyrics were causing a ruckus!

People were arguing about the song being "It's not you, it's me" or "It's you, not me"

So I decided to make a video where both try to match each other~ They both care and worry, but sometimes that's not enough

(Aka, some people are just meant to be friends :] )

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I made a video~

Basically, that darn song was stuck in my head

And I only knew the chorus because of that dang SDV video

So, I went searching for the whole song and noticed that the lyrics were causing a ruckus!

People were arguing about the song being "It's not you, it's me" or "It's you, not me"

So I decided to make a video where both try to match each other~ They both care and worry, but sometimes that's not enough

(Aka, some people are just meant to be friends :] )