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whats yours?

[colazerovanillacan]

behind every girl with separation issues

is a girl

~that was always left out when plans were made, that had to walk behind the group when the sidewalk was too small, a girl who never felt like she was anybody's first choice... a girl that always wished that one day someone would want her as much as she wanted them... a girl that got picked last in sport groups, a girl that always got laughed at, a girl that was never invited to birthday parties….

[colazerovanillacan]

i failed after 36h not vaping, but now i try quth iqos again

[colazerovanillacan]

i soon did 24h of no vaping, everything gets harder and harder each minute 😫😫😫😀

luckily i wasn’t much hungry than people said, but withdrawals are crazy.

[colazerovanillacan]

i wanna quit vaping. and yes i’m so scared of gaining weight. idk what to do. i’m going to buy myself a lil kit to survive for the first days. lets hope i won’t fail tomorrow on the first day :(

[colazerovanillacan]

since i need a tummy tuck because i lost so much weight, the only thing i’m thinking about is what belly button i want. Meanwhile normal people can think about which belly button jewellery they are putting in. i’m sooooo god damn depressed man 😫😫🫠 my mental health lately too 📉📉📉📉

[colazerovanillacan]

i swear to god, i’m stuck with this answer of an old friend for like over half a year now. i started a gofundme for an operation i need. and she literally told me i’m pissing her off with posting that. like wtf i need this money, it’s mentally fucking me up. i struggle with my ed more and more because of that. and WHY ARE YOU EVEN PISSED????

[colazerovanillacan]

i never thought about asking here but i have bigger hope here..

so i lost over 88lbs (40kg) and yeah i still struggle with my ed. but its not the weight i’m at rn. it’s because i struggle with lose skin and body tissue. only a operation can help. so i started a gfm. if you can’t donate than maybe repost it so more can see 🥹🫶🏻🙏🏻

[colazerovanillacan]

the best 0cal drinks i drank so far in my Vacation time

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at least i burned over 700cals just with walking but still

[colazerovanillacan]

I FEEL SOOOO DISGUSTING

i thought i can travel and eat without thinking about my ed but hell noo i feel soo disgusting and rather wanna starve but i can’t because of my boyfriend and the friend that is here. 😫😫😫

[colazerovanillacan]

i never thought about asking here but i have bigger hope here..

so i lost over 88lbs (40kg) and yeah i still struggle with my ed. but its not the weight i’m at rn. it’s because i struggle with lose skin and body tissue. only a operation can help. so i started a gfm. if you can’t donate than maybe repost it so more can see 🥹🫶🏻🙏🏻

[colazerovanillacan]

i didnt, body dysmorphia is such a bitch

i bought myself a 60€ skirt long ago and i guess today is the day i will wear it 😬

[colazerovanillacan]

i bought myself a 60€ skirt long ago and i guess today is the day i will wear it 😬

[colazerovanillacan]

Stop fasting!

i’m sure you wanna lose weight but than also keep it right?

try at least going down with your cals instead of 0.

i also eat 1.2k cals and lost over 40kg (88lbs). and i went slowly back to what i need!

so if i can do it so are you.

just do it clever and not out of frustration.

since i struggle since im 12 with that i tried everything just to lose some weight. now i struggle with lose skin and body tissue that i can only get away with operation. i’m sure you also don’t want that!

so eat healthy, not to low, and rethink your options about all of that.

stay hydrated xoxo

[colazerovanillacan]

Wish I had the type of depression that didn't make me feel hungry, instead it makes me want to binge.

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i’m driving for 3 days away soon. ik i wont count calories. i hope i can eat in peace without my inner ed demon telling me what to do 😫 they have a china town so rip already to me