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And then I think of you, and that’s what keeps me warm during this harsh winter.

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It’s all of this.

as much as i love the idea of dark academia being full of long coats , dimly lit libraries and clothes straight out of a 50s cambridge student closet , it simply isn't as realistic as it is motivating .

dark academia is zoom group studying with friends,papers scattered around your room,deadlines everywhere, that one cup of tea you made at 8 in the morning and it's still untouched at 6 in the afternoon,taking some random buzzfeed quiz that will reveal your future based on your favourite type of cheese while cramming for a calculus test,scrolling through tumblr for inspiration,procrastinating on your essay five hours before it's due,pulling all-nighters because that one criminal minds episode was far more interesting than you history final next morning,washing your hair thirty minutes before a zoom meeting so you won’t look like a greasy slug,buying aesthetically pleasing stationary as if the will to study comes with them

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Can someone please message me and talk about the meaning of life with me?

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I long for love.

I long for sweet love.

I long for beautiful love.

I long for a simple love.

I long for a “Tell me about the book you are reading.” Love.

I long for a “If you wash the dishes I’ll dry them.” Love.

I long for a “Let’s paint the walls of our house together.” Love.

I long for a “Let’s go watch the stars.” Love.

I long for a “Let’s dance in the rain.” Love.

I long for love.

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Scream.

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I be active on here like once a month and then disappear. Just like my braincells.

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the overwhelming urge to hold special moments in your pocket forever.

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I wonder about all the wonders inside your wonderful head full of wonders. How many wonders are in there?

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Sometimes I look at my friends while they talk, and I think about how I talk and words come out of my mouth because I think about them and I wonder how it would be to be that person and just think in their mind. What’s it like in there? Is it dark? Is it light? Is it home? Is it hell? Is there a voice? Do you have plants? Do you sit down in there and think?

I’m dying to now all of your wonders.

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Days I feel like a human being, while other days I feel more like a sound. I touch the world not as myself but as an echo of who I was.

-Ocean Vuong

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I wish I could use this app in a way that wasn’t basically an alternative to smoking

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My birthday is the week after Thanksgiving. Which gives my family little time to plan stuff out, because we do everything last minute.

This year instead of deciding to be thankful on Thanksgiving, I was thankful on my birthday.

I was thankful for both of my parents, who are the reason of why I believe in soulmates, waking me up with a home-baked-cupcake with a little candle. I’m thankful for their warm hug after I made a wish. I’m thankful for them wishing me a good day at school that day, everyday. I’m thankful I had a good day. I’m thankful my sister came home and took me out and I got to spend time with her. I’m thankful ny parents taught me to hug them when I saw them come and go, not because I had to, but because there was a warmness in a greeting and a goodbye. Hello I’m home, I’m so happy you are home. Goodbye I’m leaving, I hope wherever you go today you come back into my arms. I’m thankful ny brother gave a thousand hugs and made it known that he loved me.

I figured out that day that I was so thankful for the little things. I’m so thankful for my family. I’m so thankful for them even though they drive me insane to a point I want to scream.

It was such an overwhelming feeling of gratitude. It was bigger than my heart. Bigger than me. Bigger than them.

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My sister is pretty.

Like she is so pretty.

And I know that.

It took her a while to recognize that.

But everyone else knew it. Men knew.

And I think that the fact that she can’t relax around men while walking on the street just because she’s pretty is complete and absolute bullshit.

The fact that saying she’s not interested isn’t enough.

The fact that saying she has a boyfriend isn’t enough.

The fact that having to lie about her sexuality so they leave her alone and even then that isn’t enough.

Saying no isn’t enough.

She shouldn’t have to deal with creepy old men.

Or men her age being equally as creepy.

No one should have to deal with it.

Everyone is pretty.

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Slight spoiler of the last of the Trials of Apolo in case you have not read it you should. And some grey’s anatomy spoilers ig

So we all know how Will Solace got a tattoo of the sun right?

And Apollo was all like “why would he need it he literally radiates my energy.”

WILL SOLACE WATCHED GREY’S ANATOMY, STARTED AS A JOKE BUT GOT INTO IT (Fav character was probably George) AND HE CRIED WHENEVER CRISTINA LEFT AND THE QUOTE: “You are an amazing surgeon with an extraordinary mind, don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need, he’s very dreamy but he is not the sun. You are.” HIT HIM SO HARD HE GOT A SUN TATTOO.

NO I WILL NOT TAKE CRITICISM.

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Today I woke up, gentle breeze, a bit cold, but I forgot it because I saw the sky and oh my god it was beautiful, perfect and magnificent. A million colors in the morning sky, shades of pink, blue, orange and red all around. The sky made me want to dance, I wish the stars would’ve been there to see it.