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Ship Tag Game!

Rules: without naming them, post a gif of ten of your favorite ships (any media), then tag ten people someone(s) to do the same.

Thank you @westerngayfairytales for tagging me! ❤️

@thisisnotatrashcan @change-the-rules @manderpanda

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“i want them to kiss” good for you! i want them tearing each other apart limb from limb just to feel something. i want them creating wounds and scars just to leave a permanent mark on the other. i want them poking and prodding mercilessly at each other’s most vulnerable secrets but keeping them nonetheless.

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GOD BLESS PATTI LUPONE BECAUSE SHE SAID THAT WITH HER ENTIRE CHEST 😭🫡

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FANFIC FEATURE FRIDAY

I'm never going to forgive CBS. Never.

I don’t think I’m ever going to forgive CBS for taking this couple from me? How about any of you? I console myself with all the fanfics I can. Here’s one I read a while ago, but still love nonetheless! Check it out! Between the Lines by WatingDragons! Ernie read between the lines in season one and so do we! Thanks for reading! Spread the love and read on! Type your email… Subscribe

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I can’t breathe

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CNN CAME FOR HIS FUCKING THROAT!!!! 🤌🤌🤌

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Recently I’ve been thinking about the term “engagement” and why it feels so strange to me to hear fan creators use it.

Engagement is a metric, a set of numbers that YouTube or Instagram or Tiktok can use in order to measure which people on their platform reach the widest audience and get the most reaction. These creators get priority access as well as a paycheck. Why? Because giving one person $10 million per year is still cheaper than their advertising budgets used to be 15 years ago.

Engagement is also used by companies as a way to measure how effective their marketing strategy has been. Lots of likes and retweets means more people saw your post means more people know about your product or brand.

Fan works have always had an element of competition to them. We all want to be “the best” in some way. That kind of validation is wonderful. But I worry that some people (especially newcomers to fan creating) are focusing more on the numbers, the “engagement,” than on their own joy. To me, that seems like a path that leads almost directly to frustration and disappointment.

Why do the numbers matter? Why do we care if 5 people see it versus 500 or 5000? What do those numbers give us that we’re otherwise lacking? Why don’t we look somewhere else to find it?

Rating your talent or worth based on engagement is measuring with the wrong ruler. Engagement just tells you that people like your product (the ship or plot) or your brand (the fandom or genre). It tells you that you marketed effectively with your tags or by posting on social media. Engagement might even tell you that people think you’re a fun or interesting person.

But numbers won’t tell you whether you had fun making the thing and they won’t tell you whether you feel satisfied with your efforts. Those are better places to focus our efforts. Because we can’t control how other people react to our creations, but we can decide for ourselves how we feel about them.

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I’m slowly beginning to accept the reality that 2007 was not last year but in fact almost four years ago

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: NCIS: Hawai'i Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lucy Tara/Kate Whistler Characters: Kate Whistler, Lucy Tara Additional Tags: Smut, 3 + 1, One Shot, POV Second Person Summary:

3 times in Kate’s bed, +1 in theirs.

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2. supercat

(my ko-fi, if you’re so inclined)

Oh my God. You’re in love with her. 

Alex shows up at Catco three hours after the fight where Supergirl went down. Cat’s nerves are fried. Normally on a day this bad, Kara would appear and offer her M&Ms before she got a chance to pour herself a drink. Even now, Kara a reporter and no longer her assistant, she always managed to arrive just before Cat stood up to head to her bar in the middle of the day.

She wasn’t here this afternoon, though, so by the time Alex gets there, Cat’s two drinks in, trying to hide the way her hands have started shaking.

“Agent Scully, finally,” Cat says. “Can we quote you for a story on Supergirl’s condition?”

“She’s fine,” Alex says, closing the door to Cat’s office behind her.

Cat doesn’t believe her. “Surely you don’t mind if I could hear that from the hero herself?”

“Cat. She’s fine.”

Except Kara fell out of the sky.

Cat has been pretending all day like the sight didn’t stop her heart dead in her chest. She’s been yelling at employees, demanding a source, demanding eyes on Supergirl before any other news outlet. She’s been making it seem like it’s about the story instead of the girl.

She can’t simply believe she’s fine.

“When can we expect her back in our skies?” Cat asks. She’s rearranging things on her desk like she’s looking for a document, but what she’s actually doing is avoiding Alex’s eyes. “How long do criminals only have to outwit the NCPD instead of Supergirl?”

“She told me to tell you her article will be finished by tomorrow,” Alex says. “Though she claims Snapper will throw it in the trash anyway.”

The papers Cat is holding flutter to the ground.

Of course she knows Kara is Supergirl. She’s known, of course she has known. It’s clear, even, that Kara knows she knows, but they’ve never addressed it. Not directly. And here Alex is, talking about Kara’s assignments. Talking about Snapper. Alex would never do this if Kara didn’t insist–which means Kara is okay, must be, okay enough to have pushed this plan on her sister.

Cat sets her palms flat on her desk, pays no attention to the papers scattered around her feet.

“Good,” she says. “I’m glad to hear that.”

She still hasn’t looked at Alex, but something must cross Cat’s face, because the other woman lets out a harsh breath.

“Oh my God,” Alex says. “You’re in love with her.”

Cat flinches.

On any other day, she’d have a better poker face. But she flinches, and her fingernails scrape against her desk, and she’s sure that’s all Alex needs to know.

“She’s probably right about Snapper,” Cat says like Alex never said anything. “But someday she’ll write something he’s actually willing to publish, I promise.”

“Tell your staff you’re leaving for the day,” Alex says.

Cat finally looks at her. “Excuse me?”

“You’re coming to the DEO,” Alex says. “You and Kara need to talk.”

“About what?”

Alex levels her with a look like she’s an idiot. 

Cat tries not to hope too much as she gathers her purse and coat. She’s too old for butterflies, but as she leads Alex to her private elevator, they swoop through her stomach anyway.

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While I adore Fandom and its creations, I've grown exhausted of Fandom Discourse. I don't even know where people get the time, when all I'm trying to do is share art and read & write fic. These days I'm much more selective with my battles. Now if I see a post, I mentally stamp it with a disapproving-

-file it into my brain, and go about my day.

'Dealing with Fandom' pt 2

'Dealing With Racists' Version

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Chapters: 6/? Fandom: NCIS: Hawai'i Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lucy Tara/Kate Whistler Additional Tags: Smut, Angst, Humor, 1x17, 2x01, Established Relationship, Jealousy, angsty smut, 1x07, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Tennant’s slow rise into becoming a deity Summary:

Collection of (mostly) unrelated one shots.

Tags for each chapter in the chapter’s summary.

1: One last time (had she known). 1x17. Rated M. 2: The other one in which someone else is in Ernie’s chair. 2x01. Rated G. 3: Palpitations. Post 1x22. Pre-2x01. Rated T to be safe. 4: Summer. Post 1x22. Rated G. 5: You’re embarrassed by me. rated G. 6: The Russo factor. Rated T.

New one shot added. Please read the tags in the chapter summary.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: NCIS: Hawai'i Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lucy Tara/Kate Whistler Characters: Lucy Tara, Kate Whistler Additional Tags: One Shot, 3+1, Established Relationship, takes off from 2x07, Siblings, Domestic Fluff, Fluff and Humor, a teeny tiny little bit of sad feelings, canon compliant (so far) Summary:

Three times Lucy and Kate learned something new about each other, and one time they already knew.

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you know that expression, "dance like no one is watching you?"

try writing like no one is going to read it

it's easier to let yourself go and just enjoy the process of creation when you aren't also playing 6 dimensional chess with your insecurities and anxieties

write because you have fun writing and if you never post it anywhere that's totally fine because you enjoyed your time with the process