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Just truly in love with the idea of the archivist taking the train

If it is still Jon i sure do love how human he has remained

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Sam having had a traumatic gifted kid experience leaving an obsession with the magnus institute and Jon having had a traumatic gifted kid experience leading him to an obsessions with leitner?? Also the disappointed caregivers?? What a time we live in to hear about it

Also Sam then being pulled through? By the archivist?

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Love the magnus archives

Very much

Very lovely archives

Very much special interest

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So you know in Black Friday, when Lex is standing on the stairs during CaliforM.I.A? Yeah? Well, the first time I watched I just really felt like she was gonna end "I'll be an actress, cause I've had practice..." with "acting straight"... cause like... it would make sense right? That's all I can think, now when rewatching I still kinda expect it to go somewhat like that, maybe "cishet" or something instead of just straight but still...

So uhm that was just a thought, anyway...

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Shitty Jon doodle instead of math

First time drawing him so idk but still

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Martin has spider chewlery and you know I'm right

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Thought I'd honor the beginning of pride month by dyeing my hair... Actually I didn't think that far but I ended up filling out my black at 1. 15 am so yeah...

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Sometimes I think my dog looks like a demon. She's 6.5 kg fluff but... Stepping out of the bathroom at 2am in just a towel to see her lying in the sofa, with a... I don't even know what kind of facial expression, her eyes looking pitch black...

Ok no I don't know what a demon looks like but it's weird so... sometimes I'm scared of my dog. Argumenting with myself whether or not call her in to my room (her bed is in my room, she almost always sleeps there). Just because. What if she's possessed or something man.

And sometimes I think she hates me, can't blame her for that though...

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Recently realized that I actually love makeup. I always thought that I didn't, because I never liked the makeup I saw on people; the "I look 'naturally' good with 1 kg of products", the "fix my face". I'm not trying to shame or offend anyone for wearing that kind of makeup, and that's probably not the only reasons to wearing it, I'm sorry, just don't know how to express my thoughts. Anyways, I don't like that for myself.

First I started using eyeliner, because that's the one thing I didn't hate, not a lot but still. Sometimes. It looked awful but no one told me so, I kept doing it, at some point I started doing wings too, because, it's cool? Anyways, looked even worse. Got myself an eyeshadow, and a purple/red ish lipstick. The first shattered in my bag and I never really used the latter.

But just recently I've realized that I can use makeup in a more art kind of way, or to kinda make a statement. And I love it. I don't have a lot of supplies and I don't really know how to do anything or what to use (not that I could afford it) but... still. I think it looks totally awesome on other people and I like trying something myself. Just for me, although sometimes I want to show someone other than my ma' since she doesn't like it quite as much...

And I remember how I loved having my face painted as a dog or something like that when I was younger. And I guess I still like it. I just want a different motive to paint. It's really not that different. I can try to look however I want, for myself, or to make an impression. I'm glad I realized that.

Have a good life.

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If you think I'm gonna add another queer character to my schoolwork writing/art you're absolutely right, thank you.

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Ok YES I know people have done this before but:

Reading a book/series w/o a real fandom, maybe ONE piece of fanart at best is just like... Trying to talk to a friend but not wanting to spoil it in hope that they'll read it. Telling a parent or someone but you mess everything up and they don't get it. at. all. THE FEELS. Quietly crying alone bc omg that's so sad not that, not that character and knowing that it's like, no one who read about that *squeal* wonderful character who deserved everything good. Feeling sad for all the AMAZING authors out there who will never get the recognition they and their books/stories/characters deserve. Being overwhelmed but not knowing if anyone think/feel the same or if you're just being weird (yes we're all but... you know what I mean?). The "I NEED THE WORLD TO READ THIS!!!" feeling. Beautiful ships. Just... yeah.

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I have something of a theory...

Sometimes, I get the feeling that the reason why Loki acts annoyed when Thor shows him affection is because he wants Thor to keep doing it. He wants the affection and the love, especially from Thor because he is all Loki has. It's like in Skins, when Michelle is mad at Tony. He keps calling to try and tell her he wants her. She listens to every call, but never answers, because if she does, Tony might stop calling, and she wants him to keep caring. I think it's the same with Loki. If he acknowledged Thor's affection, says he loves him back, that he appreciate it or something like that, Thor might stop showing that affection. And that scares Loki, because he wishes to feel loved and appreciated.

Anyhow, that's just something I came to think about, probs not true. Sry for bothering.