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i desperately need to get back on my bullshit😔

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sometimes i worry that this will be my life forever as if that’s not exactly what im gunning for

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People think Ana is about food.

But they don’t understand that it’s so much more than that. Yes, it’s about hating your body and yourself and wanting to feel OK with how you look for once in your life.

But it’s also about control. About trying to dull the pain through self destructive behavior. It’s about wanting to prove you can control something in your life when everything else is out of control: no matter what, at least you can control what you eat and how small you. At least you can prove that you have control over your behavior.

It’s about wanting to be so small you disappear. So small that no one can hurt you anymore.

Ana is about so much more than food.

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just got told by another friend that them seeing my recovery inspired them to recover themselves im gonna throw myself into a volcano i feel like such a shitty person

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oh to be thin enough that baggy clothes make me look smaller not bigger

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i can feel my stomach shrinking and it feels amazing <3

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ordering off the kids menu >>>

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I need to fall back in love with being hungry.

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all my friends are eating fast food while im sitting on the counter sipping a diet coke in an oversized sweatshirt i may be 200 pounds but im feeling skinni tonight

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something about listening to lana del rey or melanie martinez makes me feel so tiny and delicate

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friendly reminder that even a few days of binging isn’t going to make you gain any significant amount of weight. you can get back on track once you put your mind to it and everything will be fine. i believe in you <3

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ed tumblr really saw the screaming crying throwing up meme and went alright bet

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only pro of being this fat is that i burn calories so much faster lmao

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god my bmi is atrocious

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hold on lemme put you on some good shit

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does anyone have any tips on how to avoid eating when going out with friends who are conscious of eating disorders?

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just burned off most of my bowl on the elliptical machine. feeling pretty good about myself (:

we ordered smoothie bowls for breakfast and i got the kids version with no toppings. my bowl is so much smaller than everyone else’s <3