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Edinburgh Pride, June 21st 2025

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Have you guys heard of cats. They're great.

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i love you black trans people. i love you asian trans people from all over asia (not just east asia). i love you hispanic trans people. i love you indigenous trans people. i love you poc trans people. you're doing great, i promise you, and i'm so fucking sorry the community erases you as much as it does.

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not sure where exactly i'm going with this but something i always think is interesting about ofmd s2, and very unlike a lot of fic & speculation from before the season dropped, is that they chose to make the previous ed-izzy relationship completely implode BEFORE stede is back in the picture. by the time stede, ed and izzy are all conscious and present on the revenge at once izzy has already permanently given up on the idea of re-creating the sort of relationship he used to imagine he had with blackbeard.

from a doylist pov this is partly just because the writers pretty clearly never had any interest in playing stede-ed-izzy as love triangle in the way that a lot of fandom saw it. but it does something interesting to how the redemption arc goes.

because it really changes izzy's arc for the season to have ed reject him while stede is firmly out of the picture, while both ed and izzy have no reason to think they will ever see stede bonnet again. because if stede had been there when izzy said "i have...love for you" and ed scoffed, izzy would have thought ed was rejecting him in favor of stede. he'd think, if only stede weren't around this wouldn't have happened. i think in that circumstance izzy would have never given up hope that if stede were removed from the picture somehow then he could resume his pre-stede-bonnet relationship with ed.

but what happened instead is ed made it absolutely clear that EVEN IF STEDE IS NOT AN OPTION he still does not want or need the kind of relationship with izzy that izzy wants the two of them to have. he would in fact literally rather die.

and then i thought about it a little more and, well, almost the next thing izzy does is blame ed's behavior on "your feelings for stede bonnet," right? and taken literally what he's blaming on ed's feelings for stede is the atmosphere on the ship, the way ed's treating the crew, etc. but actually i don't think that's what he means.

i think he's still - understandably - stewing in rejection at that moment, and he wants to find a narrative that lets him understand why it happened and save some face, if only to himself. so he really wants to think, edward rejected me because of his feelings for stede bonnet, if it weren't for that homewrecker he would have accepted my love confession. so he wants to believe that, and he starts to say it out loud. he pretends he's talking about the atmosphere on the ship, but he doesn't mean the atmosphere, what he means is you rejected my love because of your feelings for stede bonnet.

and ed shoots him before he can finish that sentence.

i don't think either izzy or ed really consciously understands what izzy was trying to say there. i'm not sure ed even subconsciously understands it either tbh. so i don't think ed like intended to send a message about izzy's love confession there, he just wanted to make sure izzy didn't get stede's name out right here in front of everybody. but narratively, symbolically, that gunshot is shattering the lie izzy wants to tell himself along with izzy's kneecap.

and this makes a bit more sense out of why izzy tells stede first that ed shot him for mentioning stede's name, and then later that ed shot him for saying he loved him. because he knows the first one is literally what happened. but there's a reason he feels like it was the second, and he's not exactly wrong to think of it that way.

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not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing [what would happen between earth and the moon if the earth stopped spinning as illustrated by xkcd randall munroe]

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a quick experimental Ed

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in sync cuties✨

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the iconic thing about the twelfth doctor is that when he's on earth, he's getting middle school kids to save the earth via class project and having beef with 14 yr olds and losing. and then he sets foot in gallifrey and literally the actual military is like we're all going to die.

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Stede is so unused to anyone caring about him that i really believe if Ed witnessed something terrible happening to him, watched Stede be visibly upset and on the verge of tears, and then naturally went to comfort his boyfriend and said "hey do you want to talk," i really think Stede would wipe the tears from his eyes and say "sure :) what do you want to talk about"

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I've been thinking about how you can absolutely read the premise of Murderbot as "Congrats, you escaped the Matrix! You broke free of your programming, realized the shadows on the cave wall were just that, shadows. You still have to go to work though. What, did you think you could escape? The chains are still on, sucker, keep looking at that cave wall."

Sure, MB has realized it has free will. But the material conditions of its life prohibit it from doing anything with it. What good is a hacked governor module in a society that still views it as an object meant for use and discard? What good is your own autonomy in a world where you're constantly observed for any deviation from the norm?

How are we different from MB in this exactly?

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MURDERBOT | 1.07

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"Oh, that's the shape of love."

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Am I glad that this scene was cut from the ep? Yes.

Do I still think Ed would look hot in a long bloody veil in his kraken era? Also yes!🔥

Finally got a sec to do my version of this (not-quite) scene! Hopefully the details come thru okay, I was working with a LOT of dark colors 😂💜

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[Worship in the bedroom]

The vision of Jayce forgetting to breath and looking at Viktor in absolute awe as he slowly undressed him has been haunting me for months 😤

Started this drawing back in winter but it took me an eternity to finish .__. Chronologically this is the first part of my poscanon jayvik series:

Third part

Second part

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Murderbot 1x07 "Complementary Species"

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I'm not a big fan of love at first sight, but what I DO happen to like is disruption at first sight, like...

someone else on my dash put it better than me but there has to be some kind of magnetic fascination to it, almost... THAT is what makes a really juicy beginning

Like hmmm

what happens between Dean and Cas isn't birds singing or rasping violins

no, it’s a kind of interference pattern... signal distortion and static that scrambles everything for a few seconds click click shhhhh, like a sound that doesn’t make sense, and now the whole world has to recalibrate itself because these crossing signals that shouldn’t harmonize...

...do.

Cas disrupts Dean's certainty.

Dean disrupts Cas's certainty.

This isn’t romance. This isn’t even trust—not yet.

It's almost like recognition without comprehension.

In a lot of ways, it's kinda scary and at times veers towards over-corrective posturing, resulting in a bunch of mean stuff that can dip into glib or cruel as they prod and and insult and threaten and test one another...

...ofc as they try at the very same time work to draw each other in

It's the "I wanna know what you're thinking" of it all

They fascinate each other because they don’t make sense TO one another in so many ways and yet, they make sense of each other in deeper, almost irrationally deep, critical ways.

They don’t know what they are yet.

But the moment they meet, the oldest story in the universe cracks open and something ancient and impossible writes itself in without permission

And because of all that, they bend the world around them

("This isn't supposed to happen. You're not in this story.")

They shatter mirrors, rip out pages, and warp would-be parallel lines until they loop de loop

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