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Looking at this account again makes me sad. I’m in a much better place now. I was misdiagnosed with bpd and have since figured out myself and how to cope and things are good. I’ve had the most lovely partner for half a year now, and I’ve mostly gotten my shit together. I’m full of love for myself and life.

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When feeling hunger starts to make u motivated instead of mad 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

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currently crying just to feel something

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Trying to get back to the body you had when you were literaly 16 when ur 20 is so fucking hard

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I hope when you look at the stars you think of me and I hope it makes you sad

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Already fucked up and had coffee today lol. I can’t stand it I swear flavored and sweetened coffee is like my biggest weakness. Especially since a new café opened up by my house and their coffee is just so great it’s brutal. I don’t know how you guys bring yourself to drink black coffee lol, the last time I willingly drank it was in inpatient I cannot do it ugh.

I think I’m just gonna stick to eating small portions of fruits and vegetables today to make up for it. I was just not gonna eat at all but I did that yesterday and I fasted for most of the day Friday so I should probably put something in me? Right? Or is that just me being fat?

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In genuine need of an ana coach.

I’m not a minor so dw I’m just desperate to lose weight before going back to college and I keep fucking up and overeating.

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How do I consistently keep myself from eating? I just keep binging and feeling bad. And how about like home workouts? Are there any that actually work and help and make me look smaller? Ugh pls help

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Fuck it eating disorder time

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hey all. got back from inpatient this morning. they upped the fuck out of my meds but i don't care anymore. i just want to feel okay. im now going to watch lord of the flies.

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Hello I am going to inpatient I’m not dead xoxoxo see y’all in a week

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hello if anyone is curious i am alive and im going to get help. not sure if ill go back to inpatient even though i packed for it im just really scared i dont know why? i already know what to expect but im still so nervous

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should i go back to inpatient tonight probably

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iw ant to die so fucking bad please jsut let me die

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I just want to die. I’m sorry. I can’t do this anymore

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I think I’m gonna try to do it again. Second times the charm.

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Been asleep all day. Missed all my meds lol. I can’t deal with reality. My dreams are so much more comforting