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Almost my height

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Last time I was 60kg was over a year go, but I was never 43kg, time to change that~

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Never was much of a romantic (i made sure i looked good every single time i stepped outside, just in case you walked by)

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Hey love, long time no see~

So a Little Update:

I graduated college this year (yay~) and got a full-time job in one of my favorite cities in this country

I lost some more weight (my lowest this year was 53,2kg and currently I am 53,7kg) and try to be under 52kg before Christmas and stay that weight until New Year’s Eve

I did dye my hair and now I’m a full Blondie <3

Im gonna try to be more active on here the next days and hope y’all like my new page aesthetic

Wish me luck~

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This euphoric feeling when u see your collarbones showing through your shoulders (current weight; 56,8kg🧿)

Also I’ve been thinking for a long time about getting a full sleeve tattoo on my left arm when I am stable in my job in the future, and I feel that motivates me more to get thin cause tattoos just look better on my on a thin body.

And I also have Covid now so I can focus on my cals and not being stressed by my fam to eat.

I also told myself that I’ll get myself an thermal shirt when I reach my first gw (50kg). And I also said I’ll not dye my hair before I go on vacation to my family (mid-august), so more motivation to lose weight so my family can see how much prettier I got.

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My four main motivators rn:

1. the summer party for the whole company I work at in another city on July 17th (+visiting my Gamer friends on the day after)

2. visiting my family in my home country in august (+attending a celebration for my cousin for her graduation and her motto is black tie)

3. my colleagues and my friends that desire to be thin secretly that will get jealous when I reach my gws

4. my recent obsession with thin girl outfits and aesthetics (low waist pants, dark coquette aesthetic, etc.)

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Ive recently been obsessed with this aesthetic, but u rlly can only pull it off when you’re skinny so that’s a motivator

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Having to put a belt on your jeans because even the one that fits perfectly is now too big for you

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Dream

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Using my own hand as thinspo when I was at my lowest (49kg)

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Is it toxic of me that I want to lose weight to be the skinniest in my 3-friend group who also had eating disorders, and even though they try to line their bodies more and shit, they secretly still wish to be skinny af. And with me getting skinny, I’ll unconsciously will rub it in their nose that I reached their dream body that they could never aspire because they’re weak? Recently I feel like these two are kinda bugging me and I know as soon as I get skinny they will both try to mask their jealousy with their „worry“ for me and force me to eat. Especially the friend I don’t know so long, she’ll be so fucking jealous and I can’t wait to see it. I will get skinny this summer, step by step.

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Well looks like the guy who was interested in me didn’t feel comfortable with dating after he cancelled 3 planned dates. Good for me I guess cause now I can starve in peace without worrying about him not finding me desirable one day cause he likes my curves. And we were supposed to get boba that means I won’t get extra calories today and I only hat a Starbucks tea and studentenfutter. Good for me I guess. My sadness will definitely help me with starving, nice.

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My current weight rn is 58,6 and I always have this issue to get into a plateau when I reach 57-58, so that’s why I’ll only weigh myself every Wednesday from now on and my calorie intake for the day will be around 300-500, 700 max on days where I’m meeting up with ppl or on special occasions. I won’t get demotivated then and see progress every week! (Good thing I have a very busy schedule rn with classes and work, so I barely have time to eat anyways)

Wish me luck!

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I’ll do this diet that I found in my gallery from about 3 years ago (can u believe that I’m in this anorexia/binge Ed cycle for 4 years now? And I still have a fat body, woah.)

But I’ll get skinny because my goal is to lose 7kg in 14 days. And I am manifesting my success and don’t claim any more binges (especially after my 4 binge days I just had because of Ramadan).

I will succeed.

Weight evening 04.04.22: 50,6kg

Calorie limit 05.04.22: 500cal

Wish me luck✨💖

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She’s goals

🌊 Sora Choi thinspo part 2 🌊

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Post-workout/lunch:

- hazelnut protein bar (179cal)

- some vitamin water peach flavor (10cal)

Total: 189cal

Left: 111cal (limit 300)

Workout:

- walking to the gym and back, 1h (-204cal)

- bicycle, 30min (-185cal)

- weight training, 15min (-58cal)

Total: -447cal

Looks successful so far, I just have to be careful that I don’t fuck it up, but I won’t.

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Weight morning 31.03.22: 57,4 (-0,4kg)