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How beautiful is the human heart

How it breaks

How it heals

And breaks

And heals again.

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Tried using a tampon for the first time!?????Is this what having a dick inside you feels like. Oh hell no

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i forgot my phone in the mall today and i wonder what the stranger who found my phone might be thinking. He heard the alarm ring on my phone and it said "do breathing exercise!". He then found a receipt of indian post in my phone case which had my name and number on it. I realized that i left my phone after 20 mins and it was past my curfew time and i called him through my friend's phone. I asked if he could come near my hostel but he was so scared cz the university rules are crazy. But then i talked to the guards the whole story and told her to collect it. I told him thank you and he did a thumbs up. The stranger looked beautiful. inside out

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Men are scary. I hate the way they look at me as if i'm a thing. I hate it. Hate the way they eye rape me. Hate the way my legs shake and i stop breathing when a guy stares at me and he just wont look away. I hate the way i try to hide, to disappear, to walk fast. I hate the world we live in sometimes when i meet men like that.

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I'm on a penpal hunt. Text me if you're interested

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"your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing"

what else would a little girl had done? she felt very responsible for the family and was desperate. So what if she sold herself. It was terrible of Raskolnikov to say this to Sonia. if he hadn't been the main character we'd all be hating him so much like we felt for Pyotr Petrovitch. as he was a main lead, he was loved and never forsaken. The asshole was loved like crazy by his mum, sis, an amazing friend and sonia. i loved how in the end he knelt by sonia and cried. he didn't push her away. he allowed the love and i was so happy for the asshole

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Gifts

 I like gifts. Personal ones. Your shirt. a journal you made especially for me, handmade earrings, a plushie of my favourite brand. your heart. When i receive such gifts, I get so overwhelmed that I don't know what to do. I'll just give you my sweetest smile, will that be enough?

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Hey,

I know you dont need this, but my heart won't be at peace till i let you know this

I hope you're fine. I chose not to call you this time because I don't want you to reply to this, i just want to convey this little text to you. I'll be moving to a different state in two months, far away from home and that made me think about what home really is.. for some, their home are not 'home' and when i fell for you, and you fell for me I was at that point in my life, i was homeless.. i was scared, i had insecurities, i was also through family things i didnt tell u and also someone to take my mind off it., i craved some one to love me .and maybe that's why it broke me everytime you did a little thing(you did nothing wrong, we're all human afterall), it was always me. when you held my hand that day, the whole time you were driving me to school..i knew and it felt like home. boy, you deserve better things and i do too. You deserve the world, i feel bad for i'm the reason you might have cried a lot of times, felt like a mess..and idkvwhat not. I have good boundaries but i keep some too high, and yes, I'm working on them. Just needed you to know that if you ever felt like you're not enough because of me, you are a million times awesome and remember how i told once when we werent together that whoever gets to be with you would be a lucky girl, i still agree to that even when i didn't tell you that myself. I'm sorry for i caused you pain coming back, i was confused and i was helping a depressed friend Varun, and got tangled up in his story. I thought a lot about us during those times and thought i'll never leave you alone, but you know and i know it myself that it's not good for either of us. We, went through times i'd say, mostly because of me..though it was just innocent love. And no, i'm not blaming myself, all i'm saying it that i need to work on my emotions and relationships, though i feel like they aren't for me. Sristi tells me you miss me sometimes, but you know it's not healthy for us, and i feel so too. Only thing is that..what i miss is someone loving me, like you. You were an amazing boyfriend, Thank you. Though you don't need any wishes from me, you'd do good even without it..i wish for you to be happy, safe and successful wherever you go.

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Well sometimes you gotta remind yourself this.

(wrote this to me when i was feeling really low)

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Ye munasib nahi hai janab ki aap kisi aur ko dekhein

Kyuki humaare aankon ne sirf aapko aur aapko hi dekha hai

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Aashiyana the mere tum

Tumhe aise kaise chodti

Vo pure chaand the tum

Tumse aise kaise muh modti

Muskil raasto mein vo yaar the tum

Iss dosti ko aise kaise todti

Mere dil ki dhadkan the tum

Arey aakhir isse kaise rokti

- Medh

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Chand leke chal rahe hai

Hum sajayein toh kahaan

Jab Naseebo mein hamaare

Aasmaan hai hi nahi

// from song: dil kisi se

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Maut kaise aayegi, dhadkane toh pehle se ruki huyi hain uske laut aane ki umeed mein,

Wo apne hissey ki mohabbat leke aaye, taqi hum tarike se mar sakein.....

How shall death come, as my heartbeats are already at a standstill in her longing,

If she could only bring her piece of love, I could die properly!

- rahul

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Gairon se kya hi umeed karna

Yaha toh apne, gairon se bhi paraaye hain

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“Never stop smiling, even when you’re sad, because you never know who could be in love with your smile.”

-Gabriel Garcia Márquez

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“All relationships have one law: never make the one you love feel alone, especially when you’re there.”

— Unknown

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Dil mein toh hai

laakhon baat kehne ko

magar ek dil ki baat

ek dil hi samajh sakta hai

aur mere mehboob,

unke seene mein jo hai na

usse dil to bilkul nahi kaha ja sakta