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edit: somewhere between contracts and explanations she saw my ID and went “oh mas pogi ka na ngayon” like who says that!

31st Oct 2019

after a 3 year long drought, guess who the thirst brought back. okay, really, what the hell just happened???

so, 2 weeks ago this lady walked into the shop and me, unassuming, thought she was just another customer. that is until she literally would not leave. speaking to my grandmum who wasn’t really paying her any attention. fuck did the interaction get to me this much that i have to write it down? once again, what the hell!!!!!

ANYWaY, the conversation was directed towards me and the polite soul that i am, entertained it with little interest. glenn who was also there was more interested that i thought she would leave me alone. she’s already got somebody, should be enough for a quota. buuut she talked my ear off and it turns out it was another money transfer app and so on, contract but with no commitment, no downpayment, fees.. and ya girl was sold, whatever. 

whilst all this was going down, sis kept touching my arm?? like? every few minutes and giggling and i definitely was ????? ok? but like, whatever, saw messages when she unlocked her phone that there’s a guy . i say this like i’m upset at not having a chance but girl, i’m not even attracted to the woman? so what the hell.

a signed contract and explained mechanics later, she’s off and said she’d whatsapp me. to which she did. now back to present time.

this second meeting, she definitely was more forward. right before she left, i tried making small talk. knowing she just had flown in, i asked until when her stay was. of course, her being her, didn’t answer my question. well, with another question of her own. “why?” 

this caught me off guard because what was i supposed to say. uhh, just wondering? oh boy, did she take it and ran with it, “bakit, labas tayo? joke hahaha ano inom?” as she jokingly tried being discreet about it as my grandmum was 5 feet away. i replied “di ako umiinom eh lol” and she did not buy that one bit. then we proceeded to laugh some more like  h u h ?

some clarification for future me stumbling by this post: tbh it’s more of the thrill of getting such reactions from her and the fact that i wasn’t even trying to flirt. definitely made me smile though, knowing that i must have some sort of game or exude something. not to mention she’s mid-twenties to early thirties. would’ve been hot if she were my type.

unrelated more innocent news, before she arrived, tita lieza was there for a good hour or 2. started off by helping get her freebie to work until religion was brought up, and she took a field day with the learning of my atheism. apparently to understand her children more, who don’t go to church either. lots of hard hitting questions, but after she left and i’ve given it some more thought, it’s actually kind of heartwarming. 

10 years later and thursday still might be my favourite day.  

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31st Oct 2019

after a 3 year long drought, guess who the thirst brought back. okay, really, what the hell just happened???

so, 2 weeks ago this lady walked into the shop and me, unassuming, thought she was just another customer. that is until she literally would not leave. speaking to my grandmum who wasn’t really paying her any attention. fuck did the interaction get to me this much that i have to write it down? once again, what the hell!!!!!

ANYWaY, the conversation was directed towards me and the polite soul that i am, entertained it with little interest. glenn who was also there was more interested that i thought she would leave me alone. she’s already got somebody, should be enough for a quota. buuut she talked my ear off and it turns out it was another money transfer app and so on, contract but with no commitment, no downpayment, fees.. and ya girl was sold, whatever. 

whilst all this was going down, sis kept touching my arm?? like? every few minutes and giggling and i definitely was ????? ok? but like, whatever, saw messages when she unlocked her phone that there’s a guy . i say this like i’m upset at not having a chance but girl, i’m not even attracted to the woman? so what the hell.

a signed contract and explained mechanics later, she’s off and said she’d whatsapp me. to which she did. now back to present time.

this second meeting, she definitely was more forward. right before she left, i tried making small talk. knowing she just had flown in, i asked until when her stay was. of course, her being her, didn’t answer my question. well, with another question of her own. “why?” 

this caught me off guard because what was i supposed to say. uhh, just wondering? oh boy, did she take it and ran with it, “bakit, labas tayo? joke hahaha ano inom?” as she jokingly tried being discreet about it as my grandmum was 5 feet away. i replied “di ako umiinom eh lol” and she did not buy that one bit. then we proceeded to laugh some more like  h u h ?

some clarification for future me stumbling by this post: tbh it’s more of the thrill of getting such reactions from her and the fact that i wasn’t even trying to flirt. definitely made me smile though, knowing that i must have some sort of game or exude something. not to mention she’s mid-twenties to early thirties. would’ve been hot if she were my type.

unrelated more innocent news, before she arrived, tita lieza was there for a good hour or 2. started off by helping get her freebie to work until religion was brought up, and she took a field day with the learning of my atheism. apparently to understand her children more, who don’t go to church either. lots of hard hitting questions, but after she left and i’ve given it some more thought, it’s actually kind of heartwarming. 

10 years later and thursday still might be my favourite day.  

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8th October 2016

Why is being infatuated so much more exciting than being in love.

My friends and I visited this year’s exhibit and one of the exhibiting students got me like…. nghhhh. Of course I was playing it cool but she’s so smol and adorable and as the gay that I am, wanted to stay and chat for a little bit longer but we’re trying to avoid the rush hour so (((priorities still in check)))

Then I proceeded to stalk right as I got home. Figured it was /way too weird/ to add her on FB. Which, I soon realised and gave myself a pat on the back for swerving past the creepy path. So more stalking commenced. Protected IG. Shamelessly requested a follow. Checked before going to sleep. Nothing. When I woke up. Nothing. I expected less, and she may not be on IG often anyway. Much less find it totally normal to be found by someone she met a few hours ago, speaking only for a few minutes at most.

Until a few hours after, received a notification that she started following me and accepted my request. Though, that just led my hopes way too high since she did in fact did not follow me. Or unfollowed me right after. Or it was merely by accident. Might have been saddened by this. Maybe it is creepy, even on IG?? But IDC. It even crossed my mind to try and chat her up. (((Are my priorities still aligned right now???)))

Beat and defeated, I decided against it. (((Yep)))

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Love someone most especially when they’re being hard to love

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The messy process of achieving that /edge/ 3/10/2016

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3rd October 2016

Uuhhhhhhhh

So for my Gen Psychology class we had to present a collage that best describe ourselves and it’s chill I was immensely proud of what I came up with and everything is well and then presentation in front of the whole class I’m telling y'all I gots this

Except I cANNOT CONTROL MY FUCKING FANGIRLING

So it’s this new girl’s turn and all my attention was turned to a cut out of Sleeping With Sirens band that’s pasted on her board she was holding up

She likes rock music and I’m justttt I volunteer to come to concerts with you but at the same time I’m shy and yeah if you would initiate a thing between both our introvert selves then it’s fine or if nothing happens it’s cool too

Talk about friend crush tho ugh

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I feel like losing me won't be a loss to anyone.

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|| Sushi || Mad Mark’s ice cream || walks || foolin’ around the Apple Store || nachos || whole lots a lovin’ || street art ||

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Why don't you have the courtesy of even letting me know before hand that you'd be staying over for a while, or was it too much to ask for others to have such decency instead of self inviting and overstaying their non existent welcome.

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Whenever I

Whenever I get asked if I want any tattoos, I reply “just don’t know what yet”

Whenever I get asked if I want more piercings, I reply “just don’t know where yet”

When I imagine who I’d spend this life with, I think “she’s just unaware of it, yet”

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You deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. Not someone who is very good with just the word, “sorry.”

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Personal Blog

To post photos of my days, thoughts and feelings of which I prohibitively restrict myself from doing so on all my other social medias. 

All I want is to start over where I don’t have to limit what I have to say in order to protect other people’s emotions.