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If y'all could just subscribe and watch @psychosistr new YouTube channel and watch her playthrough of Secret of the Mimic, I'd really appreciate it! She is one of mine and @sinclairmaxwellao3 best readers and reviewers, and she deserves all the support!

Love ya, Sissy! ❤

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Happy Pride Month, everyone!! Sorry for being silent. I had some stuff going on, but happy Pride Month regardless! And happy belated birthday to everyone's favorite spicy Dorito, Eclipse from SAMS!

I've been thinking about possibly making a drabble series, though. Just a little something to kick off my writing again. What it entails, I'm still thinking about that, but I hope you'll like it regardless when it eventually comes! :3

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I'm so sorry, Kat. You don't deserve any of this. You, Davis, and Reed deserve so much better.

I love going on Pinterest to find inspo for my wedding, only to find people drawing porn of Me, Davis and Reed.

At this point I'm just gonna interact with artists on Tumblr that I know/like and not anyone else. I'm a fucking person, man. The gross side of TSBS is infecting even when I'm trying to plan my fucking wedding. @showsclown Hope you enjoy the clout of posting that shit man, thanks for linking your socials on Pinterest. I and many of my friends reported it. Gonna block you right after this. Disgusting fuck. You don't even feel bad about it either, clearly. I won't post it here cause I'm tired of being exploited online by parasocial weirdos, but what the fuck was the point of this?

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This is so interesting!! Keep going, Giggleland!

hi

im sorry i was gone for so long

im really sorry for making you all worry about me. i dont know how im doing like...im not okay. im so exhausted. that night i saw something that wont leave and no matter how hard i try not tohink about it it just keeps coming back and i dont know what to do anymore

that was one of the worst nights of my life. i had a panic attack alone in that basement and i couldnt call for my mom. i just wanted someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay and what i saw was a dumb joke and i would be okay. i cried alone for nights. i wanted to call my mom or even my dad if hes still alive. i just wanted someone to be there

i thought writing about what i saw would make it worse. i thought if i never went back into the basement or i never came back here id focus on something else and put all this behind me. it didnt work. if i wasnt thinking about the cartoon, i thought about simon. part of me wanted to search fro him online, but i was scared of what i would find. he hasnt been here for me or mom anyways so whats the point?

nothing worked. nothing stopped these thoughts.

but maybe i shouldnt deal with this alone

im not sure if this is even making sense. i understand if you dont want to talk to me anymore. this has been so hard and im scared of whats going on but i jujst needed some place to talk about things. i cant keep this to myself anymore

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Welp, one of my personal favorite analog horror series, got canceled.

I won't say what it is for the artist's privacy, but it's honestly disappointing how some people will just bully young artists into giving up something that once brought them joy to work on.

May the artist find some peace and joy in their other projects. ♥ Looking forward to their other works.

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Y'all, they sold me on this ship so fast, what the HECK this is so good.

I skipped my nap today to finish writing this because, if the title isn't already claimed, I am the resident Solula shipper.

Now, enjoy my horrid melatonin writing where I completely change any lore that I cannot cope with because I am deranged.

....

Read it.

It had been a long week, a long month even, but finally, Solar felt like he could breathe. He got Jack back. Jack was home and safe now, and Solar was never going to let his baby go again.

So, here they sat, peacefully on the downstairs couch, Solar softly rubbing behind Jacks head as the smaller fiddled with the TV remote. Jack flipped between at least three different streaming platforms before deciding on Disney+ and turning on Bluey, a show Dazzle introduced him to, that he then introduced his dad to.

When the two first started watching it together, Solar hadn't expected for it to grow on him, but here he was, watching the "Rain" episode, smiling softly as he imagined playing in the rain with Jack the way Chili did with Bluey. Next time it rains, he thought...

"Chili is my favorite," Nebula piped up out of nowhere, startling Solar. She always showed up when he least expected it.

"Mother!" Jack chimed in exitedly, jumping from Solar's lap towards Nebula, tightly hugging her. Nebula panicked from a moment at this, but after a moment of hesitation and receiving a soft nod of approval from Solar, she carefully wrapped her arms around Jack as well.

"You kind of scared me again, Nebula," Solar spoke with a lighthearted tone and smile.

"I apologize," Nebula acknowledged in her usual near-monotone voice. "I'm still trying to figure out how to make a non-startling appearance," she continued, now sitting down and releasing her loose hold on Jack as he slipped away to the floor and began pulling out his coloring supplies from under the coffee table.

"It's alright, I don't mind much," Solar reassured, giving Jack a certain dad look that asked "are you okay just coloring while we talk?" to which Jack gave a smile and thumbs up, getting back to picking out a coloring sheet.

So, as night slowly approached, the sun beginning to disappear beyond the horizon, Nebula and Solar rambled together for at least 30 minutes, sharing different things about space and Earth life and one another's interests, whilst Jack laid on his stomach on the floor, contently kicking his feet and coloring, only interupting once or twice to show Solar and Nebula his finished coloring sheets, though he was definitely tuckering out after the whole day of rescue and reunion.

Jack had been fighting sleep for a while, his hands growing ever-so-slightly slower with each passing moment as he colored, his blinks lengthening per each one. Solar and Nebula had clearly noticed, sharing an amused glance as Jack stubbornly tried to finish one last page. But it was only a few minutes more before his crayon slipped from his fingers, leaving his third coloring sheet of the night only half finished. His breathing evened out, and he was out cold, sprawled across the rug, expression softer than Solar had seen from Jack in a while.

With practiced ease, Solar slid off the couch and carefully scooped Jack up into his arms. The smaller barely stirred, only curling closer against Solar as he was carried upstairs. Nebula followed silently, observing the way Solar moved with such care, making sure Jack wasn’t jostled too much.

Reaching Jack’s room, Solar carefully laid him down in his bed, adjusting the blankets and tucking them around him. Jack groggily reached for his plushies, and Solar made sure all of his favorites were within reach and accounted for. He lingered for a moment, gently adjusting Jacks hat out of his face. Nebula stood in the doorway, watching.

Once the two were back downstairs, they settled onto the couch again. The quiet stretched, seemingly endlessly, between them for a short moment before Nebula finally spoke.

“I am not opposed to it.”

Solar blinked confusedly. “Huh?”

“The… mother thing,” she clarified. “Jack calls me Mother. I do not dislike it.”

Solar exhaled softly, his faceplate forming a small smile, something, in all honesty, Nebula had never seen from him before. “Neither do I.”

Nebula tilted her head slightly, studying him. “What does this mean?”

Solar hesitated, metal fingers tapping idly against his knee. “Well… do you want to be a sort of parental figure to him? Maybe even…” He trailed off, then took a breath, gathering every last possible ounce of his confidence. “I mean… a partner to me?”

Nebula was quiet for a few seconds, her expression unreadable, as per usual. Then, she nodded. “I’d enjoy that. Very thoroughly, actually...”

Solar let out a small chuckle and a sigh of relief, the tension leaving his shoulders. “I would too.”

Nebula shifted slightly before leaning against him, resting her head comfortably on his shoulder. Solar stilled for a second, then, ever so slowly, let his head rest atop hers.

“Who’s your favorite?” Nebula asked suddenly.

Solar raised an eyebrow, lost. “What?”

“Your favorite character,” she elaborated.

Solar let out a quiet laugh. “I like Socks.”

Nebula hummed in understanding. “Good choice.”

Their voices grew softer as the conversation drifted into nothingness, their exhaustion from the long day catching up with them. Before either of them realized it, they had both dozed off right there on the couch, still leaning into each other.

The house was peaceful. Jack was safe. And for the first time in what felt like forever, Solar felt completely content.

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Dude, I'd eat this shit UP. It'd be so friggin' cute.

Was scrolling through AO3 and found this gem

Enemy to parent is a trope we have to popularise lmao

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/61805644

Y'ALL, READ THIS. KAT'S FIRST FIC. SHE ALREADY HAS ME HOOKED ON THIS SHIP, SO SUFFER WITH ME.

@lil-kat2002

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THE FLASHBACKS. OHHH, THE DAYS WHERE I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT AROACE MEANT SKSKDSKAJAKASSSK.

. . .

@cyborgfoxcripple you know if we had seen this in our Montydrop days we would have flipped out lmao-

I hate it here actually sometimes/hj-

[cyborgfoxcripple]

Just...what the hell is wrong with you people? Seriously.

Genuinely

If you think it’s funny or cute to harass Queenkatluv or mock her for stepping away from a fandom that has gone out of its way to make her feel unwelcome

Block me. I don’t want to see you. Unfollow me immediately. You are not welcome in my community

Kat is a wonderful writer, and voice actor, and extremely sweet and kind and the VAs stuck their necks out for me when I was being harassed for months on end. None of the VAs deserve the shit this fandom puts them through, and it’s this fandom’s fault that she is leaving. She already left the discord, she abandoned her askbox. She is now being harassed in her personal DMs on Twitter.

This is bullshit.

You do not belong in this community if you think this is acceptable behavior.

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Shame on all of you. I thought Kat's writing was interesting even if I didn't always agree with some of her writing choices. To those who trashed on her writing, you're all responsible for hurting someone else's mental health and more than likely ruined something that she enjoyed doing.

This fandom is wonderful most of the time, but people like this always ruin something for someone. It's fine if you don't agree with some of Kat's writing choices, but treating her like garbage is just plain cruel.

All of the Security Breach Shows are just shows, people. They aren't real. They aren't even really connected to FNAF, and it's supposed to be fun. Don't ruin the fun for one of its writers. That's just shitty and stupid, but most of all, it's cruel.

You're not a shitty writer, Kat. Take care of yourself.

I'm Done Writing For LAE

I've written for LAE for a while now, even when I have 3 other jobs and not a lot of time to dedicate to it. But apparently all that time and effort I put in just isn't good enough.

Every time I open Tumblr, read the YouTube comments, scroll through TikTok, and sometimes even on the TSBS fan discord, I'm welcomed by people saying how shit my writing is, how shit my characters are, or how much they dislike xyz.

This isn't me wanting sympathy, or to guilt trip you. Though I'm fully expecting people to say I am. I just want to let you know; I'm done. I'm not writing any more episodes or interacting with the community in any way. I've tried. It's clearly not good for my mental health. So I'm done.

This isn't me saying I'm done voice acting or anything, I'm still going to be Earth/Pollux/Dazzle, I just won't be writing what will be happening to them anymore.

I put my heart and soul into these characters and their stories, but apparently that's just another way to get hurt.

If you have questions about TSBS, don't send them to me. I'll only answer/interact with questions/posts about my own series/channel.

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@hfs-nsfw-side-blog OMG, RUIN LOOKS ADORABLE!!

@sinclairmaxwellao3

I made a thing for smoke and mirrors because I’m obsessed with it

I spent 10 hours yesterday reading the first 10 chapters while in my way back from a weekend trip so yea

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@mama-ships I FUCKING LOVE YOU. THIS IS SO GOOD. AND DON'T WORRY, JUST PUT THEIR MOUTHS TOGETHER IT COUNTS.

FAN ART OF A SCENE FROM SMOKE AND MIRRORS BY @sinclairmaxwellao3 @cyborgfoxcripple

I suck at drawing kiss scenes 😭

And hands ;>_>;

"I...I have tender feelings for-for you . Tender and soft and- Fuck, Nex. I want to keep you with me always. I've never felt the things I feel for you for- for anyone ."

"Moon..." He whispered, looking at him as if he hung the very stars themselves with his navy hands.

Moon lay frozen as if awaiting his rejection, his censure, his optics nearly locked closed. His hands twitched, his movement controls clearly still slightly damaged and the tension in his body pressing on the artificial nerve

Nexus leaned in. He pressed a kiss to the corner of the other’s mouth.

"What would you do if I said I felt the same?"

"Y-you do?" His usually deeper voice was high and breathy, and he clung to wide shoulders like he would float away if he let go.

Nexus blushed and nodded, smiling shyly. "I do..."

Twitching hands came to rest on purple cheeks.

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THANK YOOOU.

MOON HOW MANY BRAINCELLS DO YOU HAVE??

TSAMS RANT/ NOT HATE / ALL LOVE FOR THE SHOW

Moon, moon. Moon. Look at me. Look at me with your eyes. Answer something for me. ARE YOU STUPID?? YOU CLAIM TO BE SO SMART AND YET YOUR LACK OF CRITICAL THINKING SKILLS HAVE RENDERED YOU THE STUPIDEST CHARACTER ON THE SHOW.

He never seems to learn basic emotional structures and it angers me beyond belief. You have Ruin AT YOUR DOORSTEP saying “Hey I’m going to help the world just for a minute by roasting my blueprints over a flame” and then also saying “Hey, yeah, so…if I tell you anything…I’m going to be killed.” AND MOON’S RESPONSE TO THIS IS “OKAY CRYPTIC ASSHOLE.” SHUT UPPPP AND LISTEENNN RUIN IS IN DANGER, HE’S BEING HONEST WITH YOU, HE /WANTS/ TO HELP, HE COULD BE SUCH A FUCKING ALLY AND YOU AREN’T DOING SHIIIIT WITH THAT. COME ON!!! Eclipse got this SAME TREATMENT WITH NEW MOON WHEN HE BEGGED HIM FOR HIS HELP.

Moon’s are just apathetic anti-empathy asshole and I cannot be proven wrong. (I do not actually think this its just an angry statement)

I understand Ruin is a sore spot but you have been shown time and time again that all Villains have a soft spot and they have secondary motives that are hidden away behind their villain ego. Eclipse wanted to have control over his own life, Killcode wanted a second chance to help people, Bloodmoon didn’t want to be used anymore, Ruin is just trying to survive, Solstice wants to liberate Sun from his 2 year torment, Nexus just wanted his brother back, EVERYONE HAS A SECONDARY MOTIVE. And thus for, EVERYONE CAN BE UNDERSTOOD AND MAYBE EVEN TURNED AROUND TO THEIR BETTER SIDE. ECLIPSE DID (no thanks to ANYONE except for Earth.) and he was the OG villain that tormented them for HALF THE SHOW! He, as of now, is the ONLY character that came 🤌 THIS CLOSE to the most RADICAL change TSAMS has ever faced (See Lord Eclipse for example) And if ECLIPSE turned around, with Sun and Moon’s help, EVERYONE COULD’VE BEEN TURNED AROUND. Solstice doesn’t even have a DARK MOTIVE! He just wants to save Sun from all the pain he endures every day! Nexus just went emo because he’s mourning his brother which is VALID??? His entire life has just been not his to control and so seeing the only thing Nexus chose to forever care about get stripped from him IS TOTALLY TRAUMATIZING AND A LITTLE VALID FOR A WHOLE MENTAL SNAP.

Maybe if Solar GOT OFF HIS ASS and DID SOMETHING ABOUT THIS instead of trying to KILL HIM, Nexus could be good too! And don’t get me wrong, I was so happy when he tried…but my smile DROPPED when he decided “We have to kill him.” NOOOOO DAMN IT NOOOOO THAT’S NOT HOW IT WORKS NOOOOOOOO!!!! YOU ARE ALL A BUNCH OF TRAUMATIZED ROBOTS AND YOU NEED TO HELP EACH OTHER LIKE ONNEESSS!!

ugh but back on topic

Ruin is the most honest character in the show. I’m being so serious right now. Yes, I am holding a straight face. BECAUSE HE IS. He only lied for months on end because he was forced into lying to survive, but his intentions are all genuine and he just wants to stay alive and not die like all of his friends did before him. He is a sole survivor and he cannot let his guard down during his whole “Virus Infection” act. Ever since he was “fixed”, he had a reason to not act anymore and he could show his full genuine side while still lying because HE’S STILL VERY MUCH IN DANGER! Not only that but his vile acts like DESTROYING 5K UNIVERSES was in the name of saving TRILLIONS OF OTHERS! Yes, it’s a heavy price, but those tough decisions are things people with that kind of power have to make.

Examples: Old moon sacrificing himself for Killcode, Sun blasting Eclipse at the price of his body and almost his life, Sun trying to kill Eclipse that one time to save his family, Nexus deciding to nearly kill his family for the sake of Solar, Solstice protecting Ruin from Nexus, etc.

I’m not saying Ruin is necessarily a good person, when you make those decisions and you act the way you need to to survive, you aren’t going to be a pacifist. But I have confidence in saying that not a single person in this show is a saint or completely innocent…other than dazzle and jack ‘o moon… (I love you guys <33) But putting them all together to compare and contrast, Ruin is a far better person than all of these characters simply because his intentions are pure, and it’s simply to stay alive and often times also help others stay alive. When he first studied eliminating universes, he knew Solar would be sacrificed. He says he tried EVERYTHING he could to prevent this. He looked up how to avoid it, if it was possible to avoid it, even if there was a way to bring him back after death. He found nothing, and had to make the decision to go through with his plans anyways, because he HAD to.

(also I find it funny everyone was so caught up in trying to bring him back and running into dead ends, crying and sobbing pver it with no leads…and then Eclipse in the back goes “hey guys so Solar is coming back…you’re welcome. I’m dipping now. Bye.”)

Throughout following Ruin’s lore…and from experience of depicting and eating away at psychoanalyzing ECLIPSE of all characters, I am confident in knowing what I know about Ruin. EVER SINCE HE WAS CURED I KNEW THAT BITCH WAS LYING!!! AND THEN ECLIPSE KNEW IT TOO. AND I WAS LIKE “YEAH YEAH ECLIPSE BEAT HIS ASS GET IT GET IT GET IT!!!” And thus for I am prideful in what I know for a (opinionated) fact

Ruin is completely telling the truth right now, he has always wanted to and he always wanted to try. He’s tired of acting but he has no other choice. He wants to help, but his job isn’t done. His motive right now? I’m really not sure. Maybe he’s destroying all evidence of his knowledge as we see with his blueprints before allowing himself to die, or maybe he has a bigger purpose.

My predictions are very iffy, but this is something to think about: Maybe because of what Eclipse did for Solar, he may now believe his own universe could be saved. Just an idea, though.

Ruin cares for the celestial family, he really does. It more than likely reminds him of the bonds he lost. And in such a mourned idea, he has grown attached to them from afar. He’d hate to see them be torn apart as he was once was.

So…Moon…if you’d kindly…think….with that…big, BIG brain of yours….I would love if you developed some empathy for once and maybe tried to help Ruin. Maybe share some of your “brotherly love” you so generously let JUST Sun have. Just a thought….or…y’know…maybe you could just get another “what if ther was a Good Ruin in VRCHAT?!” episode. Because that seems to be what Moon’s do best. Replace rather than fix.

Hahah. I’m hilarious.

Fuck you, Moon.

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OMG, I'M CRYING. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. THANK YOU, @mama-ships !!!!

@sinclairmaxwellao3 Smoke And Mirrors

The boys discovered something to smile about!!!

This would totally be a cute way for them to bond, did this while listening to "dancing in the dark" by Rihanna and "better when im dancing" by Megan Trainer

Also, it's not in ink but, my entry for day two of inktober, Discover.

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Suns Trauma (Old Moon)

(I’m just gonna add a TW here if I get really pissed or heated up this is a pretty sensitive topic for me and it just pisses me off, also sorry if this becomes a bit of a vent )

ALSO TW FOR TOPICS OF ABUSE 

It infuriates me how much Sun's trauma gets overlooked. Honestly. This rant is mostly about the abuse he endured from old Moon because it disgusts me how easily people dismiss that kind of suffering. Old Moon was a TERRIBLE brother. He called Sun names, threatened to kill or hurt him, blamed everything on him, and put immense pressure on him. He even physically abused him. And yet, people just ignore this. It’s worse then it sounds— Having someone you trust completely threaten you, call you stupid, and actually hit you sometimes is AWFUL. It HURTS. Especially when it’s from someone you love!

I get that Moon had his own issues and needed someone to talk to and let anger out on, but dumping all of that on one person is not healthy. And let’s be real—Sun didn’t have anyone else to turn to. He only had Moon. And Moon had no idea what he was doing. Sure, Killcode influenced him, and he had built up anger and stress too, but Killcode never directly hurt Sun. That was Moon. Moon abused Sun.

And yet, people are more concerned about Lunar’s abuse, which, yes, was terrible, but remember: Lunar was with Eclipse for about a year, maybe less. Eclipse slapped Lunar only once if I right and called him names (also I think he threatened him a couple times). I’m not saying Lunar’s abuse wasn’t bad—abuse is abuse, and it’s always horrible. But Sun was punched, yelled at, threatened, and called names FOR ALMOST 10 YEARS, IF NOT MORE. And somehow, Sun’s trauma gets ignored. It pisses me off. Lunar atleast had support too after the Eclipse situation. IT REALLY IS THAT BAD TO HAVE SOMEONE YOU LOVE CALL YOU NAMES AND THREATEN TO HURT YOU. It’s not something to shrug off! And this is only a fraction of what Sun went through.

(I am honestly finding out how much I kin sun by typing this WTF 0.o)

edit: it was just confirmed sun and moon were made 9 years ago. Meaning sun has suffered almost 8 years of moons abuse

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THIS. THIS. THIS.

Moon IS the villain. If he (the others included) wants to be better, he and the others NEED to look back on their own actions and realize that they all fucked up one way or another. Look at Nexus.

He used to be a goofy, silly, sweet guy when he first came to be. But ever since he learned about Moon and his misdeeds, he felt intense pressure to be better than him. He felt like he had NO other choice but to be the better Moon. He felt like he couldn't be himself; he was just a better version of Moon in his own eyes at first.

Nexus may say he was always a villain, but he wasn't. He was just a guy who was brought to life to fix his predecessor's mistakes.

It doesn't excuse him for mistreating everyone else and wanting to hurt/use/kill them, but what the Celestials are failing to do is realize that Nexus snapped for a good reason and not going back to the beginning to try and understand why he became the way that he is, like Sun and Moon failed to do with Eclipse, not once, but FOUR times.

Earth tried to understand where Eclipse came from, but she didn't do that with Nexus, even though she could have taken a look at Sun and Moon’s channel to see where the brother she essentially grew up with was starting to go downhill.

Yes, Nexus refused help, but if Earth wanted to get to the bottom of his behavior, she could have conducted her own investigation. Both her AND Sun could have done this before confronting him in LAES.

But they didn't.

Whether we viewers like it or not, the Celestials failed one of their own. Even Solar jumped to killing Nexus as the only option despite being awfully close with him, probably more than anyone else.

Think about that.

Yknow with so many villains, with so many people who hate them, do you think Sun and Moon and Lunar ever stop to wonder if they're the problem? If they're secretly the villains?

They're the reason Eclipse is even, if they had treated him with kindness he wouldn't have been, Solar is proof of that. They're the reason Bloodmoon exists, after all if Moon never left the killcode with Sun none of it would have happened. Nexus, their brother, driven away by mistreatment and his breakdown from loss and grief and self-hatred and self-doubt.

Do they ever wonder if they're truly the villains? Hurting people they deem its okay to?

Do you think Old moon ever stops and realizes that he's truly the villain in Suns story? That he's the reason for all the villains they've made? And if it wasn't him, it was another Moon (in the case of dark Sun). Do you think he has moments of self-conscience? That deep, terrifying fear that he's really the bad person everyone said he was? That no matter what he does he can never change? Because moon's are destined from the start to be awful.

Maybe Eaps Moon is truly an outlier

Or maybe he'll succumb to the same fate

Idk random thought