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Fun fact for my two followers 🤩🤩🤩 I think I might have a psychotic disorder

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Love to feel my own bones but not in an ana way, in a 'fascinated artist studying anatomy' way

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Nobody here knows I won't live past the age of 20 hah

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Childhood trauma may make you worry about growing up resembling your parents: you may recognize their tone when you speak, or react like them on occasions. You may fear not being able to be different or free yourself from their toxic traits, and it may make you feel defective or bad as a person: all this may trigger you and have you overreact in case of triggers. Childhood trauma generally makes a person lose their sense of self and therefore wonder if you are inherently good. Anytime you fear becoming as your parents, remember that this feeling alone is a sign of you having reached a great level of self awareness, something that they probably lack.

You're very likely just behaving as a human: even if you share certain occasional traits with your caregivers or any other human being you may consider "bad", you aren't doomed to be a bad person too. Not to mention that probably you have picked up a behaviour from your parents to save yourself, and this doesn't mean you're a copy of them at all: this single trait of you doesn't define you. And you can even unlearn this trait with time and patience, and welcoming it for the time being, just to understand where it comes from and care for it (our shadow traits are still part of us, a scared part of us, a scared mini-us -our child version, if you want-, and we cannot pretend they'll heal and leave us alone if we keep them at a distance and don't wanna listen to them. I mean... how can a child stop crying if you close them in a dark room alone?)

You can change anything you want of yourself as you grow more in touch with yourself and become aware also all the differences you share with your parents/caregivers. Focus on these too, not just on what may make you occasionally similar. This trigger is just a reminder of where you were and the journey you're going through to become yourself.

(me + source)

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this post goes out to all my fellow traumatized people who became repulsed by the idea of family because of what theirs did to them. not all of us are "secretly yearning for a parent's love," not all of us latch onto parental characters in media. not all of us are comforted when shown a healthy family dynamic. it never existed to us

and a special, huge shoutout to you if you hate the idea of family but wished yours would have raised you better. done something different. you're allowed to have mixed feelings, and every side of said feelings is valid and deserves to be heard

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To anyone who was suicidal at age 14 or younger, here’s your permission to grieve. Here’s your permission to not joke about it or just flat out ignore it. Here’s your permission to acknowledge that lost child who felt way more pain than any child should ever feel. You’re allowed to cry for that child, whether you healed or are still suffering the same thoughts. Finally allow yourself to grieve for that child filled with undeserved hurt.

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When she responds for like the first time in over a month and you're supposed to be ecstatic but all you can kinda feel is vague contentment

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whatever i literally dont care 😎 <- cares so much that it feels like my organs are tearing themselves apart in my chest

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Fending off the depression by forcing myself to rewatch doctor who like !!! 🤺 🤺 hyah!! Back!!!

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Ahaaa I fucking hate my chest

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I fucking love halsey actually

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GUYS??? I THINK IM GREYROMANTIC??? WTF???

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Damn, uh, the only other one I could think of is Tokyo by Leat'eq. But it doesn't really sound like that so idk

that one audio that goes like nya nya nya, nya nya nya nya, nya nya nya nya nya nya nya is in my head on loop

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https://open.spotify.com/track/2IOp9e0tEe7TyixGE0DSql?si=TEhTkB_oSDG_tP3RgdhR4w does this count???

that one audio that goes like nya nya nya, nya nya nya nya, nya nya nya nya nya nya nya is in my head on loop

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unpopular opinion but i love the sting of fresh cvts in the shower. like yes i need more pain give it to me <3

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Want to draw and be excited about things so bad but I just can't bring myself to move.