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Entry 001:

Somehow I gained the intuitive sense to feel; I was born with the ability to understand the woman in my family. Not to understand in simple terms but to understand in an intrinsic way. There’s a trauma bond in my family’s maternal side, with every traumatic experience a woman has, another will feel it, both psychologically and physiologically. The affects of intergenerational trauma is a part of our dna. All of the fear, sadness, shame, loneliness, and guilt my maternal female ancestors felt were passed down to my mother through my grandmothers dna which, in my family, the cycle of abuse carries itself back a few centuries. There was much pain endured for the woman on my mother’s side, life was not easy for them and it altered their lives in a very primitive way. Their children and children’s families will ultimately suffer until the cycle is broken. Even then, the damage is done, genetically and maternally, unbeknownst to those mothers, they were all carried through and born into despair. Their offspring suffer with mental health problems like depression and psychosis, their offspring also deal with medical health issues due to a tainted bloodline.