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Dear friends, I present to you my magnum opus: Never Run Out of Birth Control Again.

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every time I fumble w my phone’s charger cable I think about emailing steven moffat a pipe bomb

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Dear friends, I present to you my magnum opus: Never Run Out of Birth Control Again.

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dichotomy? more like dyke hot 2 me #feminism

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to all my demotivated girls

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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I hate 2 say it but being a part of a “weird” subculture does not meaningfully inoculate you against a conservative moralizing impulse. You gotta unlearn that. Saying “cringe is dead” is not enough, you have to actually be okay with things that discomfort, perplex and/or disgust you.

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if you were to crucify Lowly Worm, would you do it like this or like this?

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We’re gonna have to wait two more years for a new season, and following Abby, who I genuinely could not care less about. I understand the whole “there are no good guys and bad guys, we’re telling PEOPLE stories,” but I don’t want to watch an entire season of Abby backstory! She is not compelling to me at all! I want Ellie and I want Dina and I want a lot of unendurable emotional agony about getting the people you love killed in search of revenge! I want a lot of guilt and shame and rage and ferocity and lesbian romance! I am aware that the game has a Lot of Abby, but that is…not what I’m interested in. At all. And this episode did not have NEARLY enough lesbians in it. Ugh. I was so pumped. At least this means I won’t be chewing on the walls waiting for Season 3.

I wish I hadn’t gotten into it. I’m glad at least it was only a month of illness over it. Maybe that’ll help me put it to rest.

Side note: what is it that makes some things have INCREDIBLE fanfic and some things, uh, not? It’s not like the stories that get high-quality fics are all high-quality themselves.

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what is your favorite type of cookie. not allowed to throw shade not allowed to be mean to each other just say what kinda cookie you like the most. this isn’t a competition just a conversation between friends there is no right answer 

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imagine a goat with a hat

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what hat did you give the goat what is the instinctual hat you gave to this goat

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Here’s something. There are people who have been investigated and even lost their children for a time due to doing simple things like letting their children play at the park down the street without them.

And there are people who have never been investigated after refusing to vaccinate their children, who then die of preventable diseases.

Which of these parents endangered their children more?

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Okay so in “news that is exciting to me and excruciatingly boring to literally everyone else,” I stopped my Awesome Socks Club subscription over a year ago because I had enough socks but THEN like six months ago they had these unbelievably cute root vegetable socks that I wanted, but because I’m such a Scrooge I was like “I don’t need those, I don’t need more socks,” but I kept thinking about them and wanting them, but when I finally decided to buy them they were out of the backstock adult sizes and I was SO SAD! BUT!!!!!! They still had the multipack of discontinued children’s socks and that included the root vegetable socks! And thanks to my mom, I have feet small enough that they fit into size large children’s socks!!!!!!! SO NOW I OWN THE SOCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!

I’m going to see if I can donate the other pairs, unworn obviously. I hope so!

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Weight and eating disorder talk under the cut

So literally every woman at work is constantly talking about losing weight. My work bestie had a gastric bypass in January, my work wife is like 130 pounds soaking wet and is losing more weight, my new pharmacist is joining in…basically all of my colleagues are women! This is not a healthy environment for me!

I know I need to get healthier. I know I need to lose weight. But it’s really hard when I don’t have a kitchen!!! And I just downloaded the calorie tracking app that I used in college when I deliberately gave myself anorexia and I KNOW it’s a terrible idea but it’s so hard to ignore all of the noise, and now my YouTube Shorts and Facebook Reels algorithms are feeding me weight loss stuff because I’m watching it, transfixed.

I want to be healthier. I want to lose weight. I don’t know how to disentangle those two things, or how to lose weight without going into an anorexic death spiral. And I don’t have any friends who I can talk to about this because all my friends are women with weight issues!!! I don’t think therapy would be helpful; I’ve been in a LOT of therapy and it was [hand wiggles] at best.

I saw a photo of myself in high school and was just thunderstruck because I thought I was so fat then!!! I thought I was disgusting! And I weigh at least fifty pounds more now than I did then. At least I hate myself WAAAAAY less than I did then. Medium-to-large victories!!!

I’m also mad at myself because I went into a very lesbian radical love yourself and fat people are beautiful era and stopped worrying about what I ate, and that was badass, and now I feel like a fretful weak woman who’s letting the patriarchy win. And how am I making this another thing to beat myself up over?!? How am I making the patriarchy hurting me into a thing /I’m/ ashamed of????? (These are the kinds of breakthroughs I basically never had in therapy, for the record.)

Anyways. I don’t want to tell my coworkers to stop talking weight loss but I might…have to…? Which, ugh. The disordered part of my brain is telling me not to say anything so that it keeps motivating me but I KNOW that’s not good for me psychologically. Hopefully this week my better angels win out.