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*shakes my brain like a snow globe *

FOCUS, DAMMIT!

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"Resident Evil has gone woke" I'm going to hunt you for sport.

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Types of brain fog:

Brain is primordial sludge & you are drowning in it

U are a ghost and nothing is real

Mental equivalent of attempting to stream some high-res video game when all you have is dial-up

The thing you want to articulate is *right there* but you're just scrabbling at it like a cat continually failing to catch the bird on the other side of the window

The Void

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when being insufferably obnoxious abt a piece of media u love actually convinces ppl to check it out

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Why are there like 5 daily chores where if you skip them for 2 days your life becomes a time based psychological thriller after

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exchanging headcanons and AUs with friends like

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I always fucking LOSE it in the original when Leon is getting all tragic about Luis’s death and screams LEWISSSSSSSSSSS 😭😭😭

LEWISSSSSSS LEWIIIIISSSSSSSSSS

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Even if it takes me TWENTY YEARS to update anything I will die before I touch AI

NOTICE: As more and more fanfic writers are using generative AI for their works (you uncreative dweebs), I hereby swear on everything I hold dear that I have not and will NEVER use generative AI in ANY of my written work. Everything I post will be organically and creatively my own.

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an incomplete list of unsettling short stories I read in textbooks

the scarlet ibis

marigolds

the diamond necklace

the monkey’s paw

the open boat

the lady and the tiger

the minister’s black veil

an occurrence at owl creek bridge

a rose for emily

(I found that one by googling “short story corpse in the house,” first result)

the cask of amontillado

the yellow wallpaper

the most dangerous game

a good man is hard to find

some are well-known, some obscure, some I enjoy as an adult, all made me uncomfortable between the ages of 11-15

add your own weird shit, I wanna be literary and disturbed

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just saw a fanfic on ao3 have a dedication for chatgpt... that section is meant for your horny perverted mutual who proofread your work, you violated sacred law and you will be torn apart and laid bare btw

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Me, talking about any of my characters: They have so much depth, their mind is so complex with so many layers, each more unique than the other.

Me, talking about that same characters:

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How tf do I explain how Autism and ADHD affect me other than literally me, today, desperately craving to do ANYTHING resident evil (special interest) related, but being unable to focus on any one thing long enough, getting super stressed because “I’m wasting my spring break by not having fun,” then turning on my favorite 8 hour resident evil lore video out of desperation and IMMEDIATELY calming down.

I wanna put my brain under a microscope cause like why do you work like this???

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Hey so update I proceeded to go into hyper focus for 7 hours straight until the sun literally rose

anyways I have an appointment about ADHD meds today if anyone was wondering

Love that AuDHD experience of simultaneous “I Need To Do Something” and “my brain is too deep-fried to Do Anything Ever,” with a sprinkle of “if I do not do something Right Now I am Wasting Time and have Committed a Grave Sin”

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Love that AuDHD experience of simultaneous “I Need To Do Something” and “my brain is too deep-fried to Do Anything Ever,” with a sprinkle of “if I do not do something Right Now I am Wasting Time and have Committed a Grave Sin”

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Sometimes when doing writing research you find a little factoid that isn’t right for tormenting YOUR blorbos, but it is PERFECT for tormenting a friend’s blorbos so you just drop the fact on their doorstep like a demented little present.