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I'm done taking care of other people. I want to be held, I want to be taken care of. I want to be loved so much that it hurts them and then my hug would ease the pain. I want to depend on someone. I cannot bear my own problems anymore.

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scribbles of a prodigal tumblr daughter

I'm back and as a fresh graduate student. When I first started tumblr a few years back, my younger self hoped to be away from this household when I reach college. Funny enough, the pandemic happened and after completing my bachelors, I'm still here.

I don't know what this is trying to tell me, but I'm stuck in this dreaded house 24/7, everyday, since I graduated.

It makes me wonder if it was my mistake. I'm in this position because I was dumb and due to my stupid decisions, I'm suffering...to be honest, I don't want to blame me.

I need help but I couldn't talk to anyone. I want to reach out to my mother, but then I remember I'm their eldest child. I already failed them once and I don't want it to happen again. Then again, I need help...

As a result to being stuck by myself in this house alone every day, I ended up not telling anyone about my dreading life decisions. Sometimes it makes me think that ending it all would probably solve it. I know that I can do it and I'm aware I could do it anytime.

I'm a ticking time bomb you know though I already burst inside but it's okay

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sexually active?

arent we all

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wag ka na sana mag promise kung gago ka naman pala.

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what a very unfortunate life you got there...

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I'm done taking care of other people. I want to be held, I want to be taken care of. I want to be loved so much that it hurts them and then my hug would ease the pain. I want to depend on someone. I cannot bear my own problems anymore.

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how long must I stay here and suffer.

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The only reason why I'm always drawn to sadness is because this is the only emotion that can make me feel something. Might also because I'm familiar with it.

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lagi akong natatamaan ng mga laslas na picture. umiiyak nalang ako bigla at pinagpapawisan.

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I’m in desperate need of money huhu teka teka pwede ba itae yan?

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pls help those who are hurting, we need you.

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Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word.

George R.R. Martin (via quotemadness)

:((((

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ngayon may roommate na ako HAHAHAHAH

I miss crying by myself.

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still do

this is what I hate about crowds they make me feel lonely.

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ha 

Ang sad lang to see people who deserves all the happiness in the world swerved their way from it.