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i was scrolling and... kevjean ahh tweets

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hello all it is finally time to write my "Jean goes to ballet class and it changes his fucking life" fic

however i can't find my copy of TSC so i'm worried about the characterization, esp cat and laila bc i love them and want to do right by them but the stakes are high

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Thinking about Neil having lived in Germany I can’t imagine him having been around the good parts so I like to think that the kind of german he learned around those shady parts is full of slang and generally considered “improper”

Now thinking about how Nicky learned from Erik and then taught the twins and them also having taken german classes (if I remember correctly) I imagine the kind of german they speak to be vastly different from Neil’s so just imagining all the convos they had in german in the books with that in mind is so funny,, I’d have loved to see them go like “huhh?” at each other

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Game day!! 🎨: sophithil

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they’re both so jealous of Suki’s tattoos

bc what else is there to do when you’re killing time in jail

crack idea chit sang gives the boys prison tattoos

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jerejean except there is smth deeply wrong with Jeremy like he is definitely a little insane

if Jerejean is real in tsc i need jeremy to turn out to be a real freakazoid or something i dont know i just cant let Jean end up in a romance thats tropey and plain after all he went through. Jeremy Knox needs to be a cannibal murderer or something

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Just over here, breaking my own heart because what if Jean Moreau isn't really all that fluent in English? He learned English in the Nest, and there was no room for certain things in the Nest.

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I think that more fanfiction should be written with the aim to tackle the original meaning of hanahaki. Because when the concept of hanahaki disease was originally created, it was intended to be a metaphor for suppressing one’s feelings.

Your feelings are this beautiful garden of flora inside of your chest. When you express how you feel honestly, you allow for it to grow freely. But when you hide how you feel out of fear of rejection, and try to make it smaller and smaller, the flowers become cramped inside of you, until you choke on your own feelings. Every flower you cough up is something you’ve felt, but refused to say.

The whole “dying” thing is intended to be more symbolic especially. You’re killing off bits and pieces of yourself and how you feel, because you’re afraid to express yourself.

It’s not really supposed to be, “The one I love doesn’t love me back, and I’m dying from it.” Rather, it’s more along the lines of, “Repressing your emotions is bad for you, and it’s better and healthier to express them freely, even when it’s scary.”

Which is to say that, one, the cure for the disease should be telling the person that you are in love with how you feel. How the other person feels about the person afflicted should have nothing to do with it, as the trope is meant to be about feeling your emotions unapologetically.

And that, two, it’s not an inherently romantic trope. Obviously, it has romantic applications, but it can be written for any situation where a character is hiding how they truly feel. This can include a refusal to address a specific trauma, a desire to indulge in something that they’re ashamed of, and even really practical things, like wanting to ask one’s boss for a higher position.

Although (as an aromantic person myself) I don’t agree with this conclusion about the trope, this application would also avoid people calling it arophobic. When the thing killing the character is a refusal to be honest with themselves, rather than an unrequited love, it’s on nobody’s hands but their own to save their life.

There are a ton of ways that this interpretation of the hanahaki disease could be applied in new and interesting ways in fanfiction, and I’d love to read what things people could come up with!

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thinking about jj and topper sprawled out in the lawn together on a hot summer night, letting the cool dampness of the grass lick away the residual heat of the day’s sun

nothing touching but their pinkies

and yea it’s a little soft, it’s a little mushy, but it’s dark out, and there is no one else around to see

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Oooh topper as a service top?( Heh. The pogues could make some puns with that) tell me more?

on the outer banks wiki, one of Topper's nicknames is literally just listed as "Top" and it sends me into hysterics every time

also yes service top!Topper has my whole heart

this man lives to make sure those around him are taken care of

i'm not sure he knows what to do with himself a lot of the time, having grown up in probably an overly structured rich kid life, full of private lessons and tutors telling him exactly what to do and expectations that weigh on him and everything that has to be "correct"

only for him to get older and have his parents jet off to who knows where, leaving him listless and alone in a fancy, lifeless house

going from that 100 to 0 left him kind of aimless

he's found joy in caring for others, though, and making sure they are always satisfied, especially in bed

when he doesn't have to think about what's "right" and he can just make JJ feel good (not to mention the way he feels when JJ tells him that he's good, that he's doing so well, so good for him)

Topper loves creating that safe space for JJ to just like,,, completely fall apart in

not to mention, JJ likes being able to take control bc he hasn't really had that control over much of his life

to have another person trust and care for him that much is really hot????

anyways

topper is so full of love and he just wants to share it okay

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FINALLY. another thornbank truther!!!!

Y E S

i love their dynamic, it's just so good

to be honest, i have not seen the new season, but even just season 1, i was like hmmmm i see so much potential here

i love when new ppl convert to the ways of thornbank hehe

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modern texting au where character A gets a new phone and all their contact numbers transfer over, but not all the names do

and so they have to text some of the numbers (bc they can't just leave unnamed contacts in their phone, the horror)

and one of the ppl they end up texting is person B

B is more than happy to respond, and well, they haven't talked to A a ton, but they have some mutual friends and they seem nice so they just sort of....keep talking

and what could have been a two second exchange ends up lasting days

at some point, B realizes they have some group photos in their text chain that A must not have anymore, and damn, yeah, looking back, A really is kinda cute, now that they think about it

so B sends the photos again, and one of the pics is of their group at an ice cream parlor

and A texts back, jokingly asks B if they want to recreate the photo

B is like no??? no one else is awake?? we can't wake the group up

and A responds that no, they meant just the two of them

bc, well, they're already both up, so....

B's going to have a heart attack at this point, but they're not going to say no, so that's how they find themselves getting ice cream at 3 o'clock in the morning

and just, ugh, i'm a sucker for meet-cutes, but like a few meetings later

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no bc you have a point

not to hijack this into a thornbank post but.....

bc jj wouldnt respect someone who couldn't hold their own in a fight

bc topper can play it straight laced and pretty faced, but there is something feral and aggressive in that boy

now you gotta wonder

where did topper learn to fight like that

everyone paints Topper as this prissy lil rich bitch baby boy, but he’s never lost a fistfight…

in the pilot, he beats the ever-living fuck out of John B, and only stops because JJ puts a gun to his head

A few episodes later, he beats up Pope

In the second season, he beats the absolute shit out of Rafe

We have never seen Topper lose a fight.

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JJ: I know we’ve always had this unspoken rivalry but,,

Topper: It’s not unspoken, we talk about it all the time. We literally fought each other yesterday.

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im in the 12th circle of thornbank hell and i dont know how i got here. help

shit dude, welcome to the club

one day u just wake up and ur like damn, i'm obsessed with a ship with like literally no content

but!! we are out here fixing that!!

good to have ya here ;)

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Hello. You're kinda the first person that came up when I was searching the Thornbank tag. I love this ship sooo much and I was wondering if you could rec some good Thornbank fics? I know it's a rare pair and there's probably not that much to read but I just can't stop thinking about them. I think Thornbank is my favorite ship of the year :) Thank you so much and have a wonderfu day, you're awesome!

hey!

sorry it took a hot second for me to respond to this, but i would love to rec you some thornbank fics!

to be fair, there really are not that many, so you could honestly just go through the jj/topper tag on ao3

but!!! you asked and i will tell you some of my favs!!

blood on my shirt, heart in my hand by cpressmn

7.4k words, rated T, complete

this one is the first thornbank fic i read and it's what got me into the ship in the first place

it's enemies! to lovers! what's not to love

it stays so true to their characters and it's just so evidently a pair of teenage dumbasses falling for each other, it's wonderfully written

I Like You (So Much Better When You're Naked) by Liziswritingagain

7.0k, rated E, WIP

the fact that it's still a wip kills me, but i get it bc i have so many of my own wips

i'm a sucker for a good college au, and also frat boy!topper is a joy i didn't know i needed in my life

so much tension between these two i love it

when you are young they assume you know nothing by DirtyRottenRaskel

3.0k, rated M, complete

speaking of college, here's some shameless self promo lol

this is some good leaving-your-loved-onesand-everything-you-know-behind-to-go-to-school angst

we don't have to be friends (but somehow we are) by libellules

60.4k, rated T, complete

it got taken off of ao3 and i am so sad :( i think the author deleted their account, but some actual angel (i think it was ao3 user otvchi) made a google doc of it so ! it is still around !

i love the way this is written, and the dialoge is so perfectly catty, and it's one of the very few long fics for this ship so it's def worth the read

you were more than just a dream by DirtyRottenRaskel

13.5k, rated M, WIP

haha this is one of those wips i have that i mentioned earlier

i just love jj & topper being domestic! and stupid! this one's part of a series, and i would def recommend you read that one first for context

they share!! a bed!!!!

also, if any of yall have written a fic, esp if it's not on ao3, put it in the comments and i will go check it out!

thx for the ask :) happy thornbank fic reading!

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ahhhhh I love writing about intimacy. 🥺 it’s the ultimate self-indulgence, but giving two characters who have dealt with a lot of trauma in their past the chance to be soft and vulnerable with each other? it gets me, everytime.