e-i-l-f

[e-i-l-f]

and you're saying that, if i do this, the fictional man will fuck me????

[e-i-l-f]

i actually hate when ppl say "no one is happy about getting an abortion," like... um i was. and i would be happy to get another one, lol. i felt 0 negative feelings about getting an abortion, other than like, accidentally having gotten pregnant and having to go get an abortion is kind of annoying.

women don't need to feel bad about getting abortions. obv a lot of women do feel that way, for various reasons, bc ppl get abortions in lots of different circumstances. but i got my abortion bc i don't ever want kids, short and simple. if i ever got pregnant again, i absolutely would get an abortion and i would be happy i got it done. why do we want to shame women who just want control of their own lives?

anyway i'll never feel bad about getting an abortion and u don't need to feel bad either. it's in my top 5 best decisions i've ever made.

[e-i-l-f]

"it's just a style"

hmmmm okay so then why do so many female characters get designed wearing lingerie, while their male counterparts get to wear real clothes that make sense for their role?

"you know there are women irl who dress and look just like that"

yes actually! that's so true, and that is 100% obviously fine and cool when those women DECIDE FOR THEMSELVES to dress that way! this character we are critiquing the design of is not a real living woman! she is fictional. someone ELSE designed her, decided this outfit for her, she is often literally a fetish being realized in a character, either for personal pleasure of the artist (best case scenario), or for sales bc the creators know cheap sexualization will appeal to the masses (gross case scenario).

"let us have our sexy characters!"

you fucking HAVE them! you have SO many of them! holy shit, there doesn't need to be a sexualized character in every single piece of media! there is so much watchable, playable, readable, and audible porn content, plus everything else that is not porn but contains hypersexualized characters and ecchi shit and fanservice, literally what are you fighting for?

listen. people. i LIKE sexy characters, i really do. i am simply tired of them being shoved down my throat with every new game, the same way the members of the other side of this conversation claim to be tired of the "woke" designs being shoved down their throats. but... do they not see how much they have? for every character--especially in the realm of fem characters--that they find "unattractive" there are two or more characters surpassing an impossible level of doll-like beauty, often in the exact same piece of media.

a reminder to literally everyone: shows, games, books, and ALL other media and EVERYTHING is for all adult people if they are interested to partake. the fanbases for all media are growing and diversifying, and this means that character designs will keep changing, so that every demographic of the fanbase has something for them, and a place to escape to in their media interests. aka, the luxury that most straight cis men have had for so long and LITERALLY ALWAYS WILL HAVE. there is so much media made specifically with straight cis men in mind. when it comes to games, especially straight cis white and east asian men.

i KNOW cis men are tired of being told that everything is already made for them and it's time to let the rest of us have some fun, and i *understand* but if you let it happen and reign in your boys who dish out so much backlash, everyone else will finally start to ease up on you! we all want to have fun ALONGSIDE YOU, not *instead* of you. we just want to have communal spaces where we can all enjoy media together, and for some reason, a lot of men do not take kindly to that.

you will always have your sexualized characters. let us have a place to escape from them, because yes, the rest of us also enjoy playing games, watching shows, etc.

[e-i-l-f]

having a stupid moment where i feel so inconsiderate and bad abt something i did, but i didn't know i was doing it at the time (usually how being inconsiderate goes, you weren't fucking thinking about anyone else so u don't realize you're being a dick), and now i just want someone to talk to who will understand what happened so that i feel less bad about what i did, but...

wanting that makes me feel EVEN more inconsiderate and selfish and narcissistic and annoying, like i did a bad thing that affected people, and now i want validation that actually what i did was understandable and i don't need to feel so bad about it.

idk what this is, i hate it.

[e-i-l-f]

there's so much dating advice content on the internet, and you shouldn't follow any of it, no matter who you are

[e-i-l-f]

i had an abortion when i was in college and it is still, to this day, in the top 5 best decisions i've ever made in my whole life.

i did not and have never felt sadness or any other negative feelings about it. in fact, i have only felt positive feelings about it; relief, joy, gratefulness, etc.

some try to compare abortion to other things, but making the decision to kill your womb-bound child is like no other decision to kill. the decision is the bearer's alone.

[e-i-l-f]

btw not telling people to change their art, love y'all so much; not telling any women that it's annoying that you have big boobs, lol, love y'all so much also; people who do criticize smaller chested body types though... like, dude just let me have like the four characters there are. please. it's just a woman with small boobs. what is your problem.

i know this is my own insecurity but i need to vent to the void and i'm probably not going to be very articulate but i am so SICK of the world wide obsession with big boobs, super sick of big boobs being a symbol of maturity, sexiness, womanhood etc in fictional characters and that mentality bleeding so fully into real life.

i'm sick of there hardly being any characters who are full grown women with b cups and under, like //fuck// off.

smaller chested characters are almost exclusively children, and when we do actually get a woman character with smaller boobs, i often see real life women CRITICIZING this choice, especially if that character has any kind of romance, people being like "it's problematic that she looks so young" SHE LOOKS LIKE EVERY OTHER FEMALE CHARACTER SHE IS JUST LESS CURVY. A lot of real life women look like that so fuck off about it.

like do you want us to apologize? sorry i don't have big boobs? sorry i don't fit the criteria that proves to you that i'm a woman???

this has been exacerbated lately by real life stuff, bc a lot of transfem art online, especially by furries for some reason, are like obsessive about having big boobs like it feels like all the jokes lately are about "haha she told the trans dr to make her boobs huge and now she has back problems". just makes me rly fucking annoyed bc i'm a borderline furry i guess and these are my people and i enjoy interacting and hearing trans perspectives and furry perspectives and all other sorts but.

i'm all over the place. TL;DR people i interact with online seem increasingly vocal lately about the old-as-time and incredibly obnoxious human obsession with big boobs, and it's been getting to me.

this isn't anything i'd want to block anyone over, like i love my mutuals and they are funny, vibrant people but tumblr has been the one safe social media for me, it's the only one i have anymore, bc it's been the only social media i can be on without immediately feeling like shit about myself.

sometimes i feel like i finally love myself, and then something that seems like it should be rly insignificant just builds and builds until i'm crushed.

shout out to public figures like Zoe Saldana and Kiera Knightley for making me feel normal. shout out to my irl transfem friends who do not seem to have this obsession and ground me when i feel crazy about this.

[e-i-l-f]

i know this is my own insecurity but i need to vent to the void and i'm probably not going to be very articulate but i am so SICK of the world wide obsession with big boobs, super sick of big boobs being a symbol of maturity, sexiness, womanhood etc in fictional characters and that mentality bleeding so fully into real life.

i'm sick of there hardly being any characters who are full grown women with b cups and under, like //fuck// off.

smaller chested characters are almost exclusively children, and when we do actually get a woman character with smaller boobs, i often see real life women CRITICIZING this choice, especially if that character has any kind of romance, people being like "it's problematic that she looks so young" SHE LOOKS LIKE EVERY OTHER FEMALE CHARACTER SHE IS JUST LESS CURVY. A lot of real life women look like that so fuck off about it.

like do you want us to apologize? sorry i don't have big boobs? sorry i don't fit the criteria that proves to you that i'm a woman???

this has been exacerbated lately by real life stuff, bc a lot of transfem art online, especially by furries for some reason, are like obsessive about having big boobs like it feels like all the jokes lately are about "haha she told the trans dr to make her boobs huge and now she has back problems". just makes me rly fucking annoyed bc i'm a borderline furry i guess and these are my people and i enjoy interacting and hearing trans perspectives and furry perspectives and all other sorts but.

i'm all over the place. TL;DR people i interact with online seem increasingly vocal lately about the old-as-time and incredibly obnoxious human obsession with big boobs, and it's been getting to me.

this isn't anything i'd want to block anyone over, like i love my mutuals and they are funny, vibrant people but tumblr has been the one safe social media for me, it's the only one i have anymore, bc it's been the only social media i can be on without immediately feeling like shit about myself.

sometimes i feel like i finally love myself, and then something that seems like it should be rly insignificant just builds and builds until i'm crushed.

shout out to public figures like Zoe Saldana and Kiera Knightley for making me feel normal. shout out to my irl transfem friends who do not seem to have this obsession and ground me when i feel crazy about this.

[e-i-l-f]

my... type? ah. uhhhh 😵‍💫🫠😵‍💫

[e-i-l-f]

[e-i-l-f]

[e-i-l-f]

[e-i-l-f]

when you're out and about by yourself and a stranger starts talking to you and you have no desire to do this but your brain just starts whirring and you get anxiety sweaty and feel like you just slammed a redbull and you can't stop oversharing, and they're just encouraging it, and you finally make up an excuse to leave the conversation and you're so exhausted and wired from unexpected interaction that you feel like you might die

[e-i-l-f]

always find it super unsettling when a stranger hits on me (honestly in general, but like especially) before even seeing my face, like when i have a mask on or they start their pitch while they're walking behind me like... you don't even know what i really look like, it makes it so clear that your attraction is based solely on my body or at BEST my clothing/style choices.

[e-i-l-f]

i'm not trying to go to hair school but i am trying to learn how to bleach my hair with as little damage as possible

[e-i-l-f]

all my ladies in the club with a great memory, you ever wish you could just forget??

[e-i-l-f]

sometimes i think i'm stable and then one little thing happens