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god gives sensory issues to his strongest soldiers

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“I know a place” and I take you to Lowe’s self check out to watch Saw (2004)

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Book Review #2

"What Moves the Dead" by T. Kingfisher combines my two favorite things: Edgar Allan Poe's stories and microbiology. I need someone to nerd out on this book with me bad. In the author's note, Kingfisher mentions that there's more science to the fungus and the lake that couldn't be included because of the time it takes place in. I'd loveeee to know the research that went into this.

The only negative thing I have to say about this novella is how slow the pacing is, but I didn't really care because I was so curious about the fungus lol.

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Book Review #1 :P

I wanna start posting book reviews but I'd like to start with the first book I read in 2025 and work chronologically from there. In that case, the first would be The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. (technically a novella/short story)

I was worried about this one because I really wanted to like it, and it exceeded my expectations I think. It might have been because I'm at a point in my life where I could relate to Gregor. I feel sort of isolated because I've always had a close friend, and due to my current circumstances I've distanced myself from them. And now, I've manipulated myself into thinking all of my friends were using me? Or never actually liked me? Idk if that's the best way to phrase that. Anyway, The Metamorphosis was a nessesary reminder that I'm not worthless and disgusting because I don't currently feel close to anyone. In fact, it was a reminder to open up more and cut out the self-loathing. Maybe give it a read if you're in a similar situation :)

(or maybe it'll make it worse depending on your perspective oops)

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how do you think immortals feel about tattoos? Like a permanent mark on your body for a lifetime? Sure. But for eternity? What if you regret the choices you had when you were 218?

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As someone who's been extremely indecisive all their life, sometimes you just need to take the risk. And by risk I mean saying "fuck it, we ball" to everything you want to do. "that stranger looks cool I want to talk to them" just walk towards them and figure it out as you go. In the small chance they respond negatively, you get an opportunity to learn how to get over rejection. "I've never tried painting before but I'm scared it'll be embarassing" paint for yourself only. Once you learn to convince yourself that your goals are not as scary as you worked them up to be, you can become the confident person you never thought you'd be.

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Being a novice is one of the feelings of all time. The spur of energy and sudden creative urge you get from delving into a new interest is a high like no other. I feel like most people hate feeling like a beginner because of the self comparison to "pros" but if instead you take inspiration, there's a good chance you'll be struck with this particular kind of hope. It's one of the only times my brain recieves enough emotion that I actually get off my ass and create something worthwhile. My therapist thinks I have ADHD.