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Fanfiction stories

So, for a few years I have had an account on adult-fanfiction.org and currently am working on two stories. Since being a part of that site, you can write reviews, which is great but, when someone has a question, it's difficult to answer in a timely manner since I have to answer on the next chapter. I like the reviews, but I also don't want to miss answering a question from a review. So, after much deliberation, I have added my account name on here to my fanfic account, to better answer any questions on the stories. I may write on here when a new chapter is out and may put a link to it. It's just a way to make things easier for me.

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Studying for my exam tomorrow for my Analysis of Electronic Culture course (I usually have music on Youtube play in the background), decided to play the music on youtube from my ps4 and thought it was kind of funny since I am learning about the technology that led up to the internet.

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Ball and Chains on shoes

Does anybody remember the saying, "You can't judge me/you don't know what I know until you walk a mile in my shoes" something along those lines, it's an old saying and isn't used very often anymore, though it was used a lot when I was younger. I started pondering on this saying and wondered if I even believed in it even when I was younger, and I would say I don't really believe in it, but it's only because I don't want anyone else to walk in my shoes. I have been a very empathetic person since I was young, at times it seemed that the emotions I picked up from others and even though whatever caused the emotion didn't happen to me, I feel it like it is my own. I cry at sad parts in movies, heck, I cry when reading sad or heartbreaking moments in fanfiction I read. I sometimes think I feel too much, and think too much at times. But I started thinking about that saying, and the reason I don't want anybody to 'walk in my shoes', is that there are invisible chains that weigh down my feet that I have had to learn to walk normally in or people wonder why you are walking funny. The weights are mental, but can be exhausting at times. I'm not always ok. I feel too much and the weights just make those feelings and thoughts feel so overwhelming that at times in my past I had to push it back enough that I didn't feel anything. Which just made it worse and left me feeling more broken each time I had to do it so I could live a life with a mask. I've had to learn how to walk with the weights and I am not always so overwhelmed. Had to accept that being introverted and that even with having so much social anxiety, I can walk around in public and then come home to have my space to recharge. I'm not that great at drawing, I am not great at dancing, I am ok at singing, and I am an ok writer. I get more confident with writing because I can see little changes on how my writing has changed, and have learned how to write papers for college that I get a decent grade. Always thinking about writing, fanfiction or even a book in the future, though that will take a while to get good ideas down, but this is just to vent a little of my thoughts. This has gotten a little depressing and would like to try to end on a good point, but there isn't one. I am not ok, but I am living life like I should and the weights at times become detachable so that I don't have to think so much about them.

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Kind of curious why Lego Batman is NR, but ok, will just have to wait and see.

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Have a mcom course I was little late for today, but didn’t miss much, so was relieved. Doodle I did while in class.

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So, I took this a while back when I was walking to my next class (the campus is really big) and spotted the campus chicken for the first time. Now, the community college I went to before had on campus cats, called them that because no one really owned them so they just hung around certain areas on campus. It was pretty ironic since the college mascot was a raven, and we had cats on campus. But now, the university I go to has a cat as a mascot and there are chickens at the campus. Thought it was pretty interesting.

Note: when I first saw them, I made a joke about the chicken having to be cautious because the campus has a Chick Fil A that a lot of the students go to….I thought it was funny, my sister was more like, “nah, they are safe.”

2nd Note: I have not seen that chicken since while going to classes. It’s probably because she went off to a good hiding spot on campus for the upcoming winter months.

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So…..hi….basically, this tumblr is just going to be random drawings and possible rants of life. I can tell you that I am currently in university, so posting is going to be every once in a while since I am busy with school. I am studying as a Mass Communication major and my drawing skills aren’t that amazing, but love to write so possibly more writing than drawing. So yeah, to whoever reads this…..hi (again).