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en termes de partenaire romantique, j'aspire à une personne pour laquelle le matin, je fais le café pendant qu'on parle dans notre petit appart, la personne encore au lit mais assise et nue, pour me parler sérieusement mais au réveil, donc pas self-aware pendant qu'elle entame son tunnel sur la cour internationale de justice ou sur telle organisation politique (je sais que j'aurai un tel sentiment d'amour à ce moment-là)

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i think the fact that you fuck or not really determines your close friends. i love my closest friends with all my heart. none of us fuck. at least regularly. the last time i fuck was with one of them actually

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envie de péter mon crâne tlmt j'aime rodin purer

My favourite of Rodin’s works were the hand fragments. There were so many, some broken off and discarded from larger works like the Gates of Hell, others as studies for poses and casts. Hands are my favourite of all the body’s shapes, with their endless, endless holding 

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anatomie d'une chute is so relatable because me too could be studying literature and interviewing an author, only to get flirted at by a beautiful bisexual woman and be quite oblivious but obviously fluttered

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spectaculaire d'être parvenu à être le plus détestable du film, bravo à ce gars, qui est littéralement une incarnation des éditorialistes qui me donnent envie de canner, ce qui confirme que ce film vise décidément très juste et très conformément à mes sensibilités — félicitations

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ok so, he doesn't believe her eventually, does he?

i'm still really unsure about this scene, i just need to mull over. to think about the whole movie, actually.

ce plan... toute la scène, les double sens possibles (probables...), l'incertitude quant à ce que pensent vraiment, au final, les personnages, eh sayer c'était quelque chose

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le point d'orgue — the apex, dare i say (i don't even know why i was surprised) (pitier)

vraiment, juste envie de le revoir à de nombreuses reprises, simplement pour saisir toute la dimension de narration (quand j'ai fini par capter qu'elle était absolument centrale, c'était... chapeau)

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anatomie d'une chute spoilers without context i'll start

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idk to what extent that's just a me thing but when it gets to pwp, it's as if it's either so out of character i just stop reading when the plot ends because i eventually don't get involved, or it's the most gut wrenching, raw painting thing you ever read in this fandom, and it actually changes your vision of the characters themselves, intercourse being very revealing and a key point of their relationship (the plot coming back surreptitiously)

(PLEASE fanfic writers creating pwp, don't stop, please do not consider this post seriously because it's eventually silly, and thank you so much for sharing your creations to other and contribute to building up fandoms) (also, shouldn't even be saying this but sex isn't what defines the depth or the validity of some relationship)

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hi, hello, it's me (the bookworm kid considered as mature by the adults who is now childish compared to their friends well adjusted to adult life)

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ok i actually have SPACE to talk about it so let's do it

i would be so much happy if i could detach myself from other's perception because gender would not mean anything anymore

the whole thing makes sense just because it is a social thing and precisely i just feel so bad being perceived through that

if i only could remove other's eyes for me just to exist

but it would mean remove them from me directly that's the issue

well — no. the issue is the fucking gender crisis again oh my god and why do i even say again? it's the same that bursted in january last year and just... stayed here tone downed ever since

i am stuck with my body being perceived that way

tw internalised transphobia

and it feels so weird complaining to my trans friends because they actively seek medical and administrative transition and that's so good for them i am so glad but i feel like a goddamn fraud and just wrong

i try not to ruin my body with unsafe practices just if someday i want to be operated please the hypocrisy because either i am playing a part or i am just a damn coward

i'll never forget her (my psychologist who asked the 13-yo-me "so, how do you feel about your gender?" and to whom i confidently replied (with short hair, a hat, emo tangent) that oh, all was figured out, i was agender, and how she probably thought that oh boy it wasn't figured out at all)

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i'll never forget her (my psychologist who asked the 13-yo-me "so, how do you feel about your gender?" and to whom i confidently replied (with short hair, a hat, emo tangent) that oh, all was figured out, i was agender, and how she probably thought that oh boy it wasn't figured out at all)

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dramatic irony j'étais au bord de la crise vraiment ces deux mois cauchemardesques

when i am home during vacations i am planning A' great adventures — but when i am back in prepa i think about him burning out & overwhelmed by work, and if it does not sum up my relationship to fiction i do not know what that is

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en train de faire une liste de tous les lieux dans lesquels l'intrigue va se passer, ça va être A à la Nouvelle-Orléans puis A à Montmartre etc

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today in literature we studied (again) the herméneutique de type phénoménologique and PV said "au-delà des dissertations, la littérature nous modèle" etcetc proust and pavel core, and i though about _this_ fic, and yes, i am going to write a Saint-Simon AU in that fic, PV stop foreshadowing everything i do please

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when i am home during vacations i am planning A' great adventures — but when i am back in prepa i think about him burning out & overwhelmed by work, and if it does not sum up my relationship to fiction i do not know what that is