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What an eye sees.

As an individual who shifted out of my home town for education not too long ago, I've noticed things that might not have been possible had I gotten admission at some local university.

I've met people who've had such different lives than I have, lived in a society with much different expectations. Even though we belong to the same nation, we've been brought up in ways so varying at times it's hard to believe.

Some are from cities so polluted they're shocked when they see a night sky filled with stars. Some have lived in such loud environments they find the outskirts peaceful. Some have fell so out of love its hard to convince them it still exists.

So many perspectives, so many point of views I wish I could know all of them but I'm afraid I'm too numb to listen to even a fraction of it. Too selfish to give them the time to hear it all out.

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@heavensghost // Erin Moran, "940 Main Street" // Jason Schneiderman, "Little Red Riding Wolf" // @mah_hirano on tw // Adrienne Rich, "Planetarium" // Richard Siken, Editor's Pages: Black Telephone // Molly McCully Brown, Places I've Taken my Body: Essays // @loputyn // Mason O'Hern, "You Are Not Just Anything" // Friedrich Nietzsche, Good and Evil

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Susanna and the Elders, Restored (Left)

Susanna and the Elders, Restored with X-ray (Right)

Kathleen Gilje, 1998

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In a world where I wish to express deep sentiments, they only wish to touch the surface.

You isolate yourself but so do they. You want them to know you, and who knows, they wish you'd get to know them too.

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The Check List.

The biggest setback we as humans face when starting anything, is just that, starting.

I took a personality development class this year as a general elective and we were asked to make a list of soft skills we wish to acquire or work on by graduation. At the time I didn't know what to write, so I made a list of the most basic required skills I would need as a student just starting out in the industry (e.g. spoken English, time management, etc.) But now, after thinking a while I would like to make a list of skills that would make me a good individual.

First: As stated before, "Be rid of the fear of staring". After much thought I came to this conclusion that not starting something immediately after I've gained enough knowledge of the topic often leads to me procrastinating by researching more than necessary.

Second: Journal. Not just about the happening of the day but also about the thoughts I had, the behavior I noticed, and the observations I made.

Third: Concentration. Many of us lost the will to concentrate because lockdown conditioned us to consume more of the fast paced media and want to do multiple things at a time. Even now I face issues because I get distracted mid-writing, or in the middle of doing some chores.

Fourth: Think before you react/respond. Its advisable to take a deep breath, think over what has been said, then move forward accordingly. In most cases immediate reaction is not required, if they really wish to know what you have to say they will wait, this will not only keep you from unnecessary conflict but also from being taken advantage of. I've had many situations where a person asked something of me and my response was an immediate yes which I regretted later. P.S. Think over, don't over think.

Keeping the list achievable and not overwhelming I will conclude it here with the deadline being 6 months from now i.e. May 2025.

Check list:-

Just start.

Journal.

Concentrate.

Think over.

Due: May 2025.

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What I need is a cottage by the countryside with nice neighbours who know not how to be nosy.

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I want to go back.

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the weirder I get the more I love myself

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1 year on tumblr and I don't even remember using this app before November 👍

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Catherynne M. Valente, Deathless // Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov // @orteil42 // Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath // Toni Morrison, Jazz // Margaret Atwood, Cat's Eye // Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Meek One

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Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl // Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Gentle Spirit // Lyric Hunter, "A Garden" // Margaret Atwood, Power Politics: Poems // @artsy_tay_ on Instagram // William Shakespeare, The Taming of the Shrew // Sappho, "If not, Winter" (trans. Anne Carson)

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Presenting one of the most relatable artists on YouTube, Angel Ganev.

Traits include: comedic, sarcastic, has standards touching the sky that even he cannot achieve, will roast/ constructive criticize your art for fun (quite helpful some of them), let's you make memes about his hair, used-to-be egg daddy.

Vanished after uploading his last video on November 23rd, 2020.

Reappeared 2 and a half years later with some milk,

Only to vanish again with the sentence,

"I promise to read every comment, what I'm not promising is another video soon"

Anyways, he's the same guy whose art was circulating pinterest a few years back.

These for example.

Some of his latest art posts on Instagram,

Check him out if you're an artist, a beginner or someone who's just bored and wants someone new on their feed.

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~ Augusto Cury

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When did our generation become so obsessed with the past we stopped living?

Bring back 80s fashion we say, 90s hairstyles, 2000s music.

What about 2020s? Do we have nothing to share? Nothing to show? Nothing to hold on to?

Why are we still living in the pandemic, unable to move forward? How long are we to mourn the ages we lost? How long will it take to embrace that we'll no longer be, no longer are the kids, the teens we were supposed to be?

Do we ever get out? Does the darkness ever end?

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n.h // Letters of Summer Past (Listy Tamtego Lata) VI // Oihergi Eleder Estornes Rivera, Woman looking back // Etel Adnan, Time // Erica Jong, Becoming Light: Poems New and Selected // Anne Carson, "The Glass Essay" // @tuoer_sg on Twitter // Ijeoma Umebinyuo, Questions for Ada // Sue Zhao

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Want to learn something new in 2022??

Absolute beginner adult ballet series (fabulous beginning teacher)

40 piano lessons for beginners (some of the best explanations for piano I’ve ever seen)

Excellent basic crochet video series

Basic knitting (probably the best how to knit video out there)

Pre-Free Figure Skate Levels A-D guides and practice activities (each video builds up with exercises to the actual moves!)

How to draw character faces video (very funny, surprisingly instructive?)

Another drawing character faces video

Literally my favorite art pose hack

Tutorial of how to make a whole ass Stardew Valley esque farming game in Gamemaker Studios 2??

Introduction to flying small aircrafts

French/Dutch/Fishtail braiding

Playing the guitar for beginners (well paced and excellent instructor)

Playing the violin for beginners (really good practical tips mixed in)

Color theory in digital art (not of the children’s hospital variety)

Retake classes you hated but now there’s zero stakes:

Calculus 1 (full semester class)

Learn basic statistics (free textbook)

Introduction to college physics (free textbook)

Introduction to accounting (free textbook)

Learn a language:

Ancient Greek

Latin

Spanish

German

Japanese (grammar guide) (for dummies)

French

Russian (pretty good cyrillic guide!)

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The Remains of the Day, Kazuo Ishiguro