eternalnightdrifter

[eternalnightdrifter]

Unseen Battles

lying on the bed While listening to music then unknowingly immersed in distant thoughts, quiet feelings carrying all the memories, disappointments and sorrows. Being entranced by the ceiling , As if it has all the answers of "why me ?" my Body is slowly freezing from anxiety, Forgetting to lower or lift my gaze, too tired to even blink. Those debates between my consciousness and this stupid HEART one whispers, "Not every wine cellar meant to hold a bottle of Romanée-Conti." the other says, "may be the bottle was dressed like royalty but filled with nothing." tears softly touch the feet of my eyelids, like river kissing those tired snags. Thinking , i need to stop all this cerebration, Yet still letting myself drown even though i know there can be a whirlpool or a waterfall something can trap or drown me still not able to awaken my body then ,somehow ,i gather all of my energy inhale deeply wipe away my tears put a smile on my face and wake up LIke nothing happened yaah here i am after died of thousand times between the sunrise and sunset

[eternalnightdrifter]

music can boosts your energy or awaken your darkest feelings , so choose it wisely .

[eternalnightdrifter]

In silence

Inner voice: Are you okay, my girl? Me: I have to be. Inner voice: What do you mean by "you have to"? Me: I don't really know. Maybe I'll be fine if I say it enough. Maybe everything will be okay. Inner voice: You sound sad... what happened? Me: Maybe I am. Maybe I'm just tired of pretending. I'm tired of stitching myself back together every time people pull me apart. I don't know what to do, how to react. Inner voice: Why are you holding your breath? Me: I don't want to. I want to scream louder, loud enough to be heard... but I'm afraid. Afraid no one will listen. Afraid they'll judge me for being too broken. My lungs are already full of unsaid things. I can't hold any more knives. Inner voice: So what do you want? Me: What can something shattered even want? Glue instead of salt. A hand to pull me out before I dissolve into the dark. A soft voice to tell me, "I’m with you, love. You don’t have to worry. You don’t have to be strong all the time. Everything will be okay. Don’t worry." (A soft kiss on the forehead.) But in the end, silence is all I have.

[eternalnightdrifter]

inner voice: are you okay? me: i have to . inner voice: what do you mean by you have to? me: i don't know. inner voice: you sounds sad.what happened my girl. me: may be i am. i don't know really. how to react ,what to do .i am just lost in this confusing world. need hands to hold me and a voice to tell me "i'm with you love everything will be fine".

[eternalnightdrifter]

she: hey. he: hey sweetheart. she: wassup? he: busy thinking about you.. she: so... what were you thinking , love? he: that... we're dancing in a room full of happiness, the sun kissing your soft skin, my hands on your waist, yours gently resting on my shoulders... she: aaww..what else did you imagine? he: i was losing myself in your beautiful eyes your those eyes kept chasing me, pulling me in, asking me to love every bit of you...

[eternalnightdrifter]

Doing everything that needs to be done. I just need love and care. Am i asking for too much?