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I've been...a little more than hella stressed lately

I don't want to bug the people I call friends too much so I come to Tumblr to escape

Yet I do feel like I bug my friends too much - about how I'm feeling, but also asking them to hang out

I feel like I'm too much

I don't know, it may be the anxiety talking. Realistically I should be in therapy (shouldn't have the population though?)

Yet instead I take my stress out at the gym, or by vaping, or getting tattoos or piercings - anything to either feel numb or at least in a bit of pain

The in-between, the little bit, the 'normal' doesn't feel great

Fuck I wish I could just skip to the part of life where I have my shit together

Or when it's all gone; stress, pain, life, me

Why is life the way it is, no matter what I do, where I am, who I become.

I find solitude in knowing I'm only a small spark in the endless universe

But the small spark is wearing out, starting do dim, losing light - fast.

Can we just skip to the good part?

What do you do when you don't know what you're doing with your life, and you feel lost, feel like you've reached a dead end... I'm tired and I feel like people are judging me because I'm in my late 20s and haven't achieved what others in my age have achieved (marriage, stable career, etc...) My heart hurts everyday and I feel like a disappointment to myself and to those who are around me. I. AM. TIRED...

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The one person who let me rant to them and would listen seems so distant. So far. So long. So gone.

Don't catch feelings for your friends...

Lesson learned...

“It’s sad when you realize you aren’t as important to someone as you thought you were.”

— Unknown

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I suppose I have friends.

So why do I feel so alone?

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Oh I wish I wish

Upon a shooting star

That all my worries will be gone.

My life will sort itself out

And my stress be minimised.

All will work out in my favour.

So mote it be

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Can't go out and meet the world if you're not feeling like yourself

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Pain is temporary

Nothing is forever

Not even tattoos

They can be removed

Piercings can be removed

And their holes surgically closed

(Proabbly)

For all we know

Even death is temporary

Before we move onto another life

Another universe

Another me

So do whatever the fuck you want with your life

And screw what everyone else thinks

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So let me hold your hand

I will follow you

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And when you told me what your favorite book was, I bought it and read it over and over trying to find pieces of you in it.

- unknown

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Play

I feel like I'm playing

I'm playing his heart

I don't want his love

Or to be in his bed

Because it's not yours

It's not you

And you're no longer mine

But I carry on playing

Playing along

And I think he's playing too

But I give 0 fuxks

I'm a zombie in flesh

And I'm playing

I'm playing

So don't play a player

You're the one I can't play

Don't fucking test it

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I almost do, too...

@tayloralisonswiftnetwork eras event → RED

day one: favourite song → i almost do

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I wonder if

I wonder if I was prettier, would you have stayed

I wonder if I was younger, would you have stayed

I wonder if I was skinnier, would you have stayed

I wonder if I was shorter, would you have stayed

I wonder

I wonder

I wonder

If

\Eva/

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Dream

And they say I'm a dreamer

Well for once I'd like to dream

About a better life for me

A dream without you in it

Is that so hard to do?

\Eva/

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“At your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough for the wrong person. At your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right person.”

— Karen Salmansohn

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Old habits die hard.

Such as missing dinners 2 nights in a row.

Start taking bets to when it'll become that I'm skipping another meal *eye roll*

But it's fine. I'm fine.