ex-expectations

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Dear You,

I don’t hate you for leaving me. I hate you for knowing that my mom wasn’t a safe person for me and then making her the only person I had left.

I’m still not okay. But I’m getting better.

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Started seeing a guy with the same name as my ex. He’s ten years younger than my ex and four years younger than me. He’s taller, I am more attracted to him, he’s kind and sweet.

My ex dumped me but I traded up.

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This feels like my every day lately. Especially after the most recent election. Like, so many people openly talk about the changes in women's rights like they are a good thing.

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Three empty seats at the concert,

Three empty places where my life used to be,

Three lines expressing how sad I feel

Because you were always more than three to me.

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You hold yourself so well, people would never suspect you're going through hell.

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I’m afraid of what I have already allowed to be done to me for love.

Trista Mateer, from "Aphrodite Made Me Do It," originally published in 2024

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“You know it all by heart. Why are you standing in one place?” -Gwen Stefani

The lyric that has been hitting me pretty hard since the breakup. I just want to move forward.

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“My only regret is that I didn’t tell enough people to fuck off.”

— My 92 year old grandma.

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To the Man Who Said He Loved Me For Who I Would Become,

Isn't it life's greatest irony that I never became her. Also thank god I didn't become her. I like the real me more.

To that guy's new girlfriend,

You can do better. You're too nice for him.