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if only i could accept the fact that i don't deserve anything good (as my mom told me), my life would be so much easier but ig it's a human thing to hope for the better and think about deserving good things for yourself:(( but the truth is, i don't deserve anything good and i kinda believe in it but somewhere deep down..i cant accept it fully

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what i want:((( i will never be having this kind of life but i can imagine

This is important.

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girls be like “fighting demons😤🤪” and the demons be their moms

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I will always be so fucking angry for what they turned me into

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Luigi Querena (Italian, 1824-1887)

Campo di San Giovanni e Paolo

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when will i learn not to talk

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i actually hate summers..i have no friends to go out w or anything it really sucks. i hope it ends very soon bc i have to stay at home:(( and spend this whole two months indoors, better mention that my parents wont lemme go out.. i cant believe it im almost 21 and yet they do me like this it's fuvking pathetic im literally a prisoner..lol

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If they say they hurt you because they love you, that is a lie.

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i feel so lonely and hurt. the closest ppl in my life don't even like me for who i am and don't care about my feelings or anything related to my mental state and it hurts.. i always suppress my feelings because i can't let them out and it's kind of a habit for me now to just hide my feelings or even worse, i don't even recognize my own emotions. But anyways it really does make some heavy damage to me when nobody is there to understand me. all my parents do is just judging the dog shit outta me and always criticizing my everything without even caring about me as individual human being which is depressing and so annoying at the same time

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Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “Concerns from a hot-boxed jeep”

[Text ID: “How do I stop / carrying everything / that had ever / happened to me?”]

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the journals of Sylvia Plath

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when i was 16/17 i didn't have the permission to go out or do anything w my friends, i only would go out w my parents and most of the time we would have a big fight which my parents assumed it was "because of you..you're the reason why we always fight". anyways years went by so now that i'm 20 i have no friends, no kind of connection or relationship with anyone and it hurts honestly.. i feel so alone but i can't do anything about it so i write

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“Freedom is being you without anyone’s permission.”

— Unknown

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i really envy the teenagers who can hang out with their friends. my parents never let me do so:(( now that i am older in my early twenties i have no friends to hang out with and my social skills are just terrible. you know i always pretend like i don't care and like being alone but deep down it hurts me

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