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It is not inside the thick of our hardships that we find our wisdom, it is later — maybe years later on an ordinary night, somebody will ask how you survived and you will listen to yourself speak what you now know. You will look back at yourself from the other side and realise how much beauty laid beneath the surface of yourself, that was there waiting in the places the world broke you. You will realise how necessary the breaking. How necessary the entire spectrum of this human experience. One day you will see the beauty in your journey. Every part of it. That will be your wisdom.

And you cannot extract true wisdom from anybody else’s survival, only from your own. That is why you will not find yourself in books or on the television. What you are looking for you will find out in the streets, beneath the grit. You will find it in your bedroom when you open your heart to something. You will find it when you say ‘yes’. You will find it when you say ‘goodbye’. The world is so big and your time in it is so small. Make every excuse to say ‘yes’. Make every opportunity to throw yourself into chances, shivering and unready. Ever since you were brought screaming into this world, it was never about being ready. Surely you must have come here to live and not just be alive.

m . e d w a r d s

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*me reading a text I sent yesterday about my feelings*: who’s this

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hey!!!!!! congrats!!!!! why??? you ask???? because you made it to today!!! even after everything !! i’m so proud of you!!

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me: watching shows & movies in my target languages helps me learn

me: can u pls stop saying words that I don’t know

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December 2, 2018, 11:09 pm

have you ever been so stressed about so much that all you want to do is lay down and accept your fate? but there’s part of you that yearns to fight for it? when music is the only thing that helps? that all you can do is cry, write letters to no one and everyone and listen to ariana grande’s latest album (sweetener) as she tells you that pain is temporary and stare at the christmas lights and hope that it’ll melt the stress away, even though the logical part of you knows that it’ll never happen? yeah, that’s where i am. its rough.

if i can end the semester with a c in algebra, i’ll consider this a good year. thanks for listening as always. music and writing really does help. it’s my only escape from the overwhelming, lethal pressure.

 the only part of me not under pressure is my hair, slowly drying into loose brown ringlets. i hope it doesn’t get gross, thin and baldy as i age.

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She felt like feeling nothing, -r.h. Sin

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December 16, 2018, 2:56 am

it’s been a while. i’m biromantic asexual. my boyfriend of almost four months is also bi (thank you, chris hemsworth, for helping him). i no longer feel trapped in my relationships. my friends are supportive and kind, i’m relatively okay with my body, but my mind. it is a wreck. everyday is a day closer to january 21. a year since the glass ceiling of my world finally broke. lately, i’ve had a lot of panic attacks due to this. pretty sure i have some form of ptsd. so there’s that. i’ve been writing in my notebooks i keep on my bed more often, and that helps work through my stress and emotions. 

2018 has been one of the worst years of my life. i broke up with my first real love under false pretenses (thought i was aromantic), my family shattered under yet another year of change (my father, two dogs getting put down, father getting remarried and inviting none of us but what feels like everyone else, approximately 3000 panic/anxiety attacks, my sister moving to college, me briefly being listed as a runaway after running out of my grandma’s car while having a panic attack about my family and how i’m disappointing everyone (her exact words) on thanksgiving, etc.). 

on the other hand, 2018 has been the best year of my life. i came out as ace (june 16), attended my first pride as a trio of Super Gay sisters, finally got together with my current boyfriend (august 21), discovered i was bi and promptly came out (november 22), met so many amazing and kind humans, became best friends with an amazing drummer that knows more about me than my parents, learned about myself and my limits. really, the first half of the year was absolute shit.

but i’m getting better. it’s nothing but blue skies and cozy hoodies from here on out. i’m determined to make 2019 full of light and postivity. nothing and nobody can bring me down.

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A better, more positive Tumblr

Since its founding in 2007, Tumblr has always been a place for wide open, creative self-expression at the heart of community and culture. To borrow from our founder David Karp, we’re proud to have inspired a generation of artists, writers, creators, curators, and crusaders to redefine our culture and to help empower individuality.

Over the past several months, and inspired by our storied past, we’ve given serious thought to who we want to be to our community moving forward and have been hard at work laying the foundation for a better Tumblr. We’ve realized that in order to continue to fulfill our promise and place in culture, especially as it evolves, we must change. Some of that change began with fostering more constructive dialogue among our community members. Today, we’re taking another step by no longer allowing adult content, including explicit sexual content and nudity (with some exceptions).  

Let’s first be unequivocal about something that should not be confused with today’s policy change: posting anything that is harmful to minors, including child pornography, is abhorrent and has no place in our community. We’ve always had and always will have a zero tolerance policy for this type of content. To this end, we continuously invest in the enforcement of this policy, including industry-standard machine monitoring, a growing team of human moderators, and user tools that make it easy to report abuse. We also closely partner with the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children and the Internet Watch Foundation, two invaluable organizations at the forefront of protecting our children from abuse, and through these partnerships we report violations of this policy to law enforcement authorities. We can never prevent all bad actors from attempting to abuse our platform, but we make it our highest priority to keep the community as safe as possible.

So what is changing?

Posts that contain adult content will no longer be allowed on Tumblr, and we’ve updated our Community Guidelines to reflect this policy change. We recognize Tumblr is also a place to speak freely about topics like art, sex positivity, your relationships, your sexuality, and your personal journey. We want to make sure that we continue to foster this type of diversity of expression in the community, so our new policy strives to strike a balance.

Why are we doing this?

It is our continued, humble aspiration that Tumblr be a safe place for creative expression, self-discovery, and a deep sense of community. As Tumblr continues to grow and evolve, and our understanding of our impact on our world becomes clearer, we have a responsibility to consider that impact across different age groups, demographics, cultures, and mindsets. We spent considerable time weighing the pros and cons of expression in the community that includes adult content. In doing so, it became clear that without this content we have the opportunity to create a place where more people feel comfortable expressing themselves.

Bottom line: There are no shortage of sites on the internet that feature adult content. We will leave it to them and focus our efforts on creating the most welcoming environment possible for our community.

So what’s next?

Starting December 17, 2018, we will begin enforcing this new policy. Community members with content that is no longer permitted on Tumblr will get a heads up from us in advance and steps they can take to appeal or preserve their content outside the community if they so choose. All changes won’t happen overnight as something of this complexity takes time.

Another thing, filtering this type of content versus say, a political protest with nudity or the statue of David, is not simple at scale. We’re relying on automated tools to identify adult content and humans to help train and keep our systems in check. We know there will be mistakes, but we’ve done our best to create and enforce a policy that acknowledges the breadth of expression we see in the community.

Most importantly, we’re going to be as transparent as possible with you about the decisions we’re making and resources available to you, including more detailed information, product enhancements, and more content moderators to interface directly with the community and content.

Like you, we love Tumblr and what it’s come to mean for millions of people around the world. Our actions are out of love and hope for our community. We won’t always get this right, especially in the beginning, but we are determined to make your experience a positive one.

Jeff D’Onofrio CEO

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A Survey!

help out a struggling student and fill out this quick survey. then pass it on to your friends! the more input i get the better!

click here: https://goo.gl/forms/XDgQcA3hMy597uNN2

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i wish

Millennials are killing

you

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Apparently, Millennials are killing Christianity now

so my mom was listening to AM radio this morning and I heard Kim Komando saying that Millennials are abandoning “traditional” Christianity and will soon worship an AI god complete with its own app.

reblog if you’re willing to abandon “traditional” conservative Christianity in favor of worshiping an AI god.

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You live a new life for every language you speak. If you know only one language, you live only once.

Czech proverb (via languageinsider)

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11:11

and i’m faced with an impossible choice

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my life is equal parts beauty and beast…

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9/10/2018

my two favorite classes that I want to take next year are both only available for 6/7th period. I don't want to have to choose between them. please dont force me to choose yearbook or environmental sciences. I’ve already had too many panic attacks and breakdowns thinking about not being able to take one or the other

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Tourists being photographed by an Italian woman in front of the leaning tower of Pisa in Italy, 1954. (Jerry Cooke—The LIFE Picture Collection/Getty Images) #Italy #Pisa #LeaningTowerOfPisa https://www.instagram.com/p/BnMEt0oBJ12/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=to81vdee6dl5

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