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Dear JD,

Truth be told I’m scared of commitment. What if you don’t love me the way I love you?

Luna

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Dear JD,

It’s been 11 years, yet I still sit here hopeful that one day you’ll come to me. How much longer must I yearn for your soul?

Luna

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Dear JD,

I gave the best parts of myself to the versions of you that didn’t deserve me… yet I’m still hopeful that a better you is out there, somewhere still waiting for a healed me.

Luna

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Dear JD,

I miss you. I miss the way you say my name, and the way you trace my skin with your fingertips. I miss your smoke filled kisses leaving me helpless and out of breath.

Luna

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Dear JD,

I decided to get a water color pad to paint stupid pictures next to the dumb poems I wrote you when I was up all night imagining your body lying next to mine.

Luna

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Dear JD, I dreamt about you nearly every night this week. No, I don't miss you and quite frankly I don't wish to rekindle what we had. I don't feel bad for falling out of love with you, I am actually angry at how much you hate me for being honest. Hate me because I am not the person you fantasied about in your head. The fake Luna you made scenarios about before you went to sleep. I hate how you had such high expectations of me.

-Luna

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Letters to JD

I'll always be the firefighter to my burning heart when you're the one who set it ablaze...

-Luna

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Letters to JD

We met again after 3 years and you still set my house on fire. Blowing smoke into my lungs with every kiss, leaving burnt cigarette marks across my skin. - Luna

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Letters to JD, You are fire. I am water. They say you are a destroyer, a demolisher. But, if only they knew you had rebuilt the pieces of me that I lost during my floodings.

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Letters to JD,

We’ve met 5 times in this little life of mine. The first time we met you were my first heart break, the second time we met you were my first love, the third time we met you were the one that got away, the fourth time we met you were my biggest lesson in growing from a teenager into my adult life, the fifth time we met… well I’m not sure about that just yet.

-Luna

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Letters to JD,

You’ve grown a lot since that last time we met JD. This could finally be the story where it ends with you and me.

- Luna

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Letters to JD,

I haven’t met the complete version of you yet JD. It’s been two years, I wonder if you’ll ever come.

-Luna

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Letters to JD,

The forth version of you was the version that truly teared me apart. But then number 5 came along and made me feel how number 4 used to make me feel. Strange isn’t it. That one version of you kills me, but another version of you comes along and makes me feel how you always do

-Luna

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Letters to JD,

I have met 5 different versions of you in the past 10 years. But, the last version of you I saw recently. You made me feel how you always make me feel in the beginning. Stars in my eyes and completely melting in your presence. You always had that effect on me in the 5 different ways we’ve met. You make make soft and gentle, I think that’s why I’m always able to find you in the different stages of my life.

- Luna

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Letters to JD,

I have met many versions of you that heal the different parts of me. I’ve been thinking about the first version of you a lot lately. I hope you’re doing well Mr. Baby Blue Socks

-Luna

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Broken Promises.

“I always told you I wish I had met you sooner. To save myself from the broken promises of others. I also told you that you were gonna break my heart, you denied it and I believed you. How did you disappear after you said I love you? How do you stay mute after you said I want to marry you? How do you name our future children then go on and be dead to me? Whose grave do I visit when I miss you? Because you aren’t dead, you’re wide awake “bettering yourself”. But you never told me that focusing on you meant focusing on her, her and her. Why was it so hard for you to just focus on me? The male version of me, my best friend and husband to be.”

- Luna